Anonymous Devotee from India says: Hi Hetal and All devotees. Thanks for starting such a wonderful blog and I am also a regular visitor of your blog as others. I want to share my experiences as below. I am a Sai devotee from the last 4-5 years. In these years, He is always there with me in all my sufferings. But still I think, I am not able to understand His ways or what He wants to convey me through His question answer book. I feel and realized that I am too immature to know what He wants me to do. Sometimes He gives me hope about a situation and other time that situation turned its worse which really pained me deeply.

3 yrs back, I placed into a good MNC company in Pune and had to leave my hometown. I was very happy to join this company and my Sai Maa really helped me to get this job at that time, no doubt. Before getting this job, I had dreamt about like I was in Sai Maa’s temple, very excited and happy being in temple as till that time. I never visited His temple. I realized that there was one more person with me. I couldn’t see His face, but I was able to see His back only.



After shifting to Pune, I had very good friends. We planned to visit Shirdi. Same things happened, I was very excited, happy and had tears in my eyes while in the Samadhi temple. After coming back, I realized that that person for whom I dreamt of is none other, was one of my friend. But I was really surprised, that Sai Maa, made me realized this feeling. One day, that person proposed me, I was not willing to accept it because I am elder to him and I know this will create problem in marriage and all. That person surely knew it, but he still wanted me to accept his proposal.

I was very confused and didn’t know what to do. He kept on trying hard for 6-7 months. In this time, I started feeling that he really had true feelings for me, so I should accept his proposal. I prayed to Sai Maa for the same. I always pray to Sai Maa, please let the right person be enter in my life because I don’t want to be a heart broken person. I know myself that it is difficult for me to enter into the relationship, because if once I enter into it, it will be very difficult for me to leave if that person is not right. Finally one day came, when I felt that Sai Maa too wanted me to be in this relationship after going through question answers book and also having the realization about the dream. I accepted his proposal.

Suddenly after 3 months, things started changing. He had to go abroad for 1 year and said no to me for telling parents about it. Also, he said that he could not able to marry me or do commitment about it right now. I was shattered and in tears. My parents were already in search of good match for me. I couldn’t bear this as I wanted to involve my parents. I could not imagine how he changed like this. I stopped talking to him and finally I told him that this was not expected from him and I said no to him. Things went on getting worse and my health too. I was heartbroken. He used to call me sometimes and tried to say like we should continue and will see the marriage type things later on. I said no because I didn’t want this and expected from him. I cried a lot in front of Sai Maa. After landing to abroad, he called me after 2 months. I realized that I was just an option for him. He was not serious for me as I was. I started feeling like being cheated as he knew that I was serious for marriage. I stopped taking his occasional calls and left everything on Sai Maa.

After a lot of sufferings and pain, I got a new job in north. I tried to settle things in my mind with lots of efforts. I stopped thinking about that guy and went to go ahead in my career. Finally, he came India after 1 year and in few months, he got a new job in same state where I am. He approached me through mail one day and felt sorry and told me that he was wrong at that time, but I ignored him as I knew he was not the right person for me. I don’t want to go through the same terrible pain in which I was.

He tried hard to get my mobile no and talked to me. But really wondered, at that time also, he was not ready to marry me. I felt so disgusted that I can’t tell you. Same pain came back and started breaking me from inside. I don’t know how to tackle this. But whenever I questioned about his comeback , Deva always gives me positive reply. So I thought maybe he came back for me. But I was wrong. At present, I am in deep grief from inside and depressed, don’t know what my Sai Maa wants. Please guide me all as I really need your help.


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  1. OM SAI RAM

    Baba You are great, Thanks for being with us always. Love you lot… :))

    Dear Devotee

    Stay away from this person, yes he is using you. Otherwise it is very hard for true Love to stay away without at least calling daily. This person did not bother about you while being in abroad.

    At least true Love try not to hurt one's love of life by saying I dont want to marry you, so why he wants to be with u-Just to use you.

    Other thing Baba is very mysterious, it is hard to understand Baba. it is hard to understand Faqir's ramaz if such person talk to us face to face, question answer are different thing alltogether.

    Love & Peace to you.

    Baba Bless All.

  2. Dear Sai sister, continue to have firm faith on Baba and leave everything on him. He will surely help you with the best. Om SaiRam.

  3. Hi there,

    I can say onething. Think of Sai and surrender yourself towards Him. Every events in our lives are pre-destined. It is us due to ignorance thinking that things change due to our thoughts and prayers.

    Sai shall definitely help us and give us enough strength to overcome all karmic matters.

    In your case, my suggestion (in Sai's words) would be "DON"T THINK OF THAT GUY! KEEP THINKING SAI! HAVE FAITH IN SAI! TRUST THAT HE KNEWS / SEES EVERYTHING"
    Whatever happens ACCEPT AS IS. So prepare your mind for everything by surrendering to our SAI.
    Keep reading Sai Satcharitra.
    All the Best
    Om SAI.

  4. Jai Sai Ram
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    LU BABA
    Bless ua all and forgive my mistakes Baba.

  5. Heartfelt experience and I am sure Baba would have given you an answer and guided you in the right direction by now.

    O Deva, Thank You for the wonderful possibilities that You create for us. Be with us while we navigate these possibilities O Sadguru and help us make the right choices please.

    Thank You for all Your miracles and all the Love & Happiness O Sai 🙂

    Jai Sairam
    Sharma

    • My Dear Sister,

      I can only share my experiences which were similar to yours. Baba had hinted that i would have to take a journey to solve my karmic issues with respect to relationships. I would meet 3 people and the third would be the best option. Like wise when i was in a foreign country i encountered 2 people with whom i was able to recognise the karmic connections. I had to go through intense testing times all by myself in a foreign country. My previous karmas pulling was so strong that i was helpless. All i could do was to pray that it gets over soon and amicably. Finally i was freed from both the people whom i had met sequentially over a period of five years. Good thing – everything was solved without affecting any one of us and i continue to be friends with them and have earned their respect. As predicted third person was the best for my spiritual growth. It was an arranged marriage and am blessed with a child now. These things are very difficult to understand at a mental level and your mind keeps playing all sorts of games. Best is to keep praying to Baba to carry you over these issues and then you will look back and laugh at it. I am not sure what is the divine's plan but keep praying to baba and whatever happens will be the best. Our prayers are with you

  6. om sai ram.Please solve this girl problem..and today ur day baba please make some miracle which is needed very much.

  7. Om Sai Ram,

    Dear Devotee,

    My heart goes out to you, when we think good for someone and give our 100% in a relationship we expect the other person to reciprocate the same way…when we do not get that in return or when we see that they faked it, we feel betrayed and shattered.

    Although, I would not say all that happened was good. But if you think of it there are so many things that Baba has done for you without you realizing it. Although you seem to be sad you are not bitter and cursing the world. We have all seen people getting bitter and boorish after such an experience. Baba’s true devotees know only to give love and have compassion. Baba is probably trying to teach you that ‘no matter what keep giving, keep loving have a pure heart. I am with you to protect you’. You asked Him for a job, He gave one close to Him so that you could visit Him which you had never done before. You have made friends, you have learned new things. You are educated by Baba’s grace, you have a job by Baba’s grace again, a family, friends and most of all Baba Himself with you. See, even your experience came through to all of us on His day (Thrusday) 🙂

    If you have read the Holy book of Sai Satcharita you would have read this story Where One day after dinner, Shama was rubbing Baba's wet hands with a towel when the latter pinched Shama's cheek. Shama feigning anger said, "Deva, is it proper for you to pinch me like this? We don't want such a mischievous God who pinches us thus. Are we Your dependents, is this the fruit of our intimacy?" Baba replied, "Oh Shama, during the 72 generations that you were with me, I never pinched you till now and now you resent my touching you". Shama, "We want a God that will give us ever kisses and sweets to eat; we do not want any respect from You, or heaven, balloon etc. Let our faith unto Your Feet be ever wide-awake".

    We question Baba as we know not where to go whenever our lame mind gets restless or our heart aches. All He wants you is to have Total Faith in Him. How can He who Himself feels the pain of His devotee put you through a situation that breaks you beyond your capacity. He tries and tests and shapes us all differently, so that we all come out shining.

    We all go through a lot sorrows and pains for some it may sound simple for some end of life. Keep chanting His name and if possible write His name everyday “Om Sairam” or “Om Sainathaya Namaha” (whichever way you lovingly address our Lord) 108 times. We all are sure that you would get the best in Life by Baba’s grace. All we devotees would pray for you.

    See even though we all don’t know you personally, because of Hetal ji, and our Sadguru’s blessings we are able to pray for each other on this portal . Don’t lose heart dear. You will come out as a strong person and a true Baba’s devotee if only you have unwavering faith in Him and in yourself 🙂

    May Baba bless you. Om Sairam 🙂

    • dear devotee ur such a good and blessed soul…. its through u that baba has responded to the above devotee…… dear sai devotee this person has spent so much time to write for you….please do follow his advise as baba's….. may sai bless u….om sai ram…

  8. Dear Sai Sister,
    Sai Ram. Don't be disheartened in this situation. Keep firm faith on Sai Maa and pray Him to solve this problem once for all as He is the best judge of this Universe.Tell this fellow to wait and forget about him. Rest Sai Ram will do.
    Jai Sai Ram,
    R.A.Raju

  9. Om sairam,dear sai devotee plz dont believe that person ,he doesn't deserve u and have faith in baba i am sure saimaa will choose a better person for u:)

  10. Om sairam,dear sai devotee plz dont believe that person ,he doesn't deserve u and have faith in baba i am sure saimaa will choose a better person for u:)

  11. Om Sai Ram.

    Baba please guide your devotee and bless the Devotee with a good life partner soon. Please help BABA, we all are your children and need you always. Dear Sai Devotee, try to read 'Sai Satcharitra' one chapter daily and try to do some food donation to poor old people, street children and even animals (cows, dogs, cats, birds etc) . You can donate biscuits, fruits, etc. It will help to remove past bad karma and will fetch you BABA's blessings. Just surrender to BABA and he will choose the best life partner for you.

    May your blessings reach all of us always and may we become good human beings and deserve your grace. Please bless us all with good health, long life, peace, prosperity, wealth, joyous relationships and happiness. DEVA, many many thanks to you for everything.

    OM SAI SHRI SAI JAI JAI SAI.

  12. LOVE U BABA………….PLS TAKE CARE OF MY SISTER, SHE IS GOING THROUGH HER HEALTHPROBLMS BABA……PLS CURE HER AND HELP HER TO HAVE FAITH AND PATIENCE ON U……..BLESS ME WITH GOOD JOB SOON………….PROTECT MY FAMILY AND CAL US TO SHIRDI SOON………..

  13. Oh My Lord sai Deva today is my last day of prayam…..pleas bless me and my family.

    Please guide and direct us while making desicion ….we never made right desicion in our life …..please be with us always.

    Babaji help my brother in his studies and making right desicions………he is very hyper and too young to understand anything……..Help him in appearing again for 12th examination and succeed this time.

    Baba ji i shall start soon Sai satchartira again for my job and i have already completed my 9guruvaar vrat.So please bless me good job till next month………as i dont want to sit idle at home anymore….i suffered a lot being jobless for very long and unhealthy.

    Love u so much.

    OM SAI RAM.

    • Om Sai Ram.

      Baba bless you and your family always. Prayers for you and best wishes.

      OM SAI SHRI SAI JAI JAI SAI.

  14. Saima pls bless the girl & show the right way. Pls give her a good life partner.

    Saima bless every one in this world & be with us. My parents are looking for a groom long time. Parents are worrying saima. Pls bless me with a suitable groom as u like. Bless every one with good life partner who are all searching.

    Saima bless my parents, sister & family. Sister's groom is ok but family is not that good, pls save my sister & her kutty.

    Om Sai Ram

  15. I have gone through same experience one and half year back. He was even came to meet my parents twice with marriage proposal. He took me to meet his parents. I was always with him in his loneliness and sorrows. He always claimed his love for me. I tried my best to be with him as i was posted in different town . At last i took transfer to his town to be with him forever. But he got married to someoneelse without even informing me. He wrotie me about his marrige on same night when marriage alreday took place. After that he has never tried to contact me or to see how i am doing without him. He is happily married with another girl. So its better you take advise from this and just be away from this guy forever. Otherwise you will also suffer like me emotionally and physically.

  16. please its my requesst to you dont go to that guy again. whatever has happened to you i have faced but baba didnt help me and the person whom i loved got married to other girl. he left me in lurch and enjoying his life. pl ignore that boy.om sai

  17. baba today is my 18th sai guruvar vrat for my husband.what i will ask more, uknow bettr so today m not telling u nything except onething plzzzzzzz bless me and my husband a blissful happy married life.make him a nice gentelman and a responsibele husband..om sai ram….thank u to be with me always and thank u to allow me to go to my parents palce on 5th oct .rest u take care baba.sab accha karna ,aap hee ka sahara hai .om sai ram…….

  18. Dear sister…I pray to Baba to bless you and keep you strong. From what you have written it really doesn't look like that person deserves you. Baba is very clear in what he wants us to do, but it is us fools who can't understand it properly and our mind will think whatever we hope to think. So as another devotee mentioned the best thing to do is to surrender yourself completely to Baba and try to stay away from that guy. The best way to let go of a guy is to ignore him…whether negative or positive any response encourages such people to come and trouble again. If you ignore strongly for a while he may go away.

    Just keep your faith on Baba and I'm sure he will bless you with a wonderful husband and a happy life.

    Om Sai Ram

  19. Hi,

    Please please and please … the way you are telling me it clearly shows that he is not correct for you at all.. please i am in that kind of situation and dying like anything facing that kind of problem..i feel hell is far more better than this pain.. please sister… telling you .. i dont want anybody to be in that kind of situation..

    If he is not willing to marry you and not ready to stay with you life long with a secured relationship then please i am putting my head on saibaba's lotus feet and begging you dont ever go for this person… this pain is more than cutting our heart with a see saw…. i dont even want my enemies to face this problem….

    please take decision wisely….. baba please save us…same this sister… i really dont want her to be in a heartbroken situation again.. i beg you..

  20. see my dear friend, i am also one of the small devotee of saideva. And he is my gurudeva.

    Please don't think about the wrong things what happened past.
    Baba is their leave everything to saideva and sit silently. Baba knows what to do for his devotees. May be baba given chance to you to know about that guy's behaviour. That's why he called you again when he returned from abroad. So think positively as baba wants you to be carefull always. Baba gives you good guy, so marry the person which baba choosen and be happy always. Remaining baba will take care of you..

  21. pray to baba always … your problem will be sloved …in this time practically try these this my dear friend.if u dnt want this guy 1.totally go out of contact ignore him, 2.develop some new interesting hobby, 3. always be busy, 4.spent time with kids specially 1-2years they tell us lot abt life.5.spend time with your pet and take good care of them and feed them. 6.connect with your family and hang out with friends….. these things help i have gone through same .. and most important BE STRONG. KNOW YOUR WORTH AND BE CONFIDENT. AND FINALLY IF THE GUY IS MEANT FOR YOUR DESTINY WILL TAKE CHARGE …. till then you heal your heart …. i sincerely pray for you to get a lovely partner whoever it is and also if not this guy i wish you totally forget him and be happy … never loose hope .. ALL THE BEST … with love another sister 🙂

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    PLS BLESS ME BABA…PLS SAVE MY LIFE . I TRUST U BABA AND WAITING FOR UR MIRACLE TO HAPPEN IN MY LIFE. PLS SAVE ME BABA.PLS FORGIVE MY MISTAKES.JAI SAIRAM.

  23. Madam loving person baba is there and he takes care of you when time comes and in the instant time baba is giving you hand to help, these all things we seen in our lives … So why to bother about love , person , …Keep on praying baba and show your love towards baba , sure baba will give you wright person when time comes to take care of you in this world.

  24. Dear Sai Devotee confused sister,
    In this world there are various types of human beings. Among them some are like this guy who are not sure what they want to do in life. They want to hang on to one thing and back of their mind, wishing for better option. So if the other option becomes available, they will ditch the string they were hanging on, if not, they would try to climb up using that flimsy thread they were hanging on!
    You do not want to be his "flimsy thread" , would you?
    Keep your relationship to him on a level of just being a well wisher. Do not succumb to his emotional black mail. When a proper person comes to your life, you surely will get some hint from BABA as BABA has already saved you from this guy even without your knowing!
    Wishing you a better life partner and a happy life to spend in BABA's name.
    Jai Sai RAM.

  25. Nice experience! Don't worry, it was good that Baba showed you how this guy really is before some true commitment, and see Baba was with you the whole time through this ordeal. Baba never leaves us when we are going through tough times, even though it may seem like we are alone, we are never alone, Baba is always there right next to us. Om Sai Ram!

  26. Sai Please, Stop testing my parents and sister. Please bless her with a good and loving and caring person. Please get her married soon with a good alliance. Please this punishment is enough for her mistake. Please bless her and my parents good health.

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