Sai Baba Arranges For My Visit
Anonymous Devotee from India says: Om Sai Ram!! I am my Sai Baba’s daughter who often commits mistakes and fails to live up to His instructions. Nevertheless, my Baba has never failed me and has been with me always through thick and thin. I know I am my Guru’s most favourite child. And I really hope one day I live up to His expectations. My life has been very dramatic and it’s by His grace only, that I got a new lease of life. During my tough days, I used to think that why all those bad things had happened with me after all. But now when I look back, I realize that all those events were just an art of my dearest Lord, to make me a better person. I learned so many truths during that bad phase of my life and I emerged as a stronger person. But during my worse times, it was my Sai Baba who was always carrying me in the palms of His hand. He never let me slip to doom. Thank You Baba for being my eternal parent. Even now I am full of vices, and I feel ashamed after committing that mistake, but then I know one day His grace will purify me and make me His true disciple.
A few days back, I read another Sai devotee’s experience where she beautifully explained how to do Naam Jaap. And I have been advised by Sai Himself to do it, but I fail every time. I get engrossed in my household duties and all chit chatter of my family members. And I forget all about Naam Jaap. I really feel ashamed of this. But I really do not know how to help myself. If any Sai devotee can help me out with this, I would be greatly thankful to him/her. I certainly feel that probably I do not love Sai Baba enough, and that’s why I lack in determination and I always fail in this pursuit. But my Sai Nath has always helped me out in spite of all my shortcomings. I want to share an experience of mine which I promised Sai that I will post in this forum.
My in-laws stay with us at Bangalore. My father-in-law recently faced an issue while trying to sell his car in his native (Kolkata), and somehow the deal became very cumbersome. Lots of troubles cropped up and he was running from one RTO office to another to resolve the issue. This issue went on for few months and last month, my mother-in-law also accompanied him in this venture. Mentally she had vowed to Sai Baba that if her husband succeeds this time, then she would visit a Sai Baba temple and offer Pooja. So they headed out to Kolkata and it was decided that it would be the last attempt at selling the vehicle. My in-laws are not that very spiritual. Hence, I cannot worship my Sai as per my free will. Even going to Sai Baba temple is a rare fortune for me. So I always keep looking out for special occasions, so that I can get permission to go to Baba temple. In absence of my in-laws my mother had come down to stay with us.
With Sai Baba’s grace, the problem got duly resolved and my in-laws were very happy. And as per her vow, my mother-in-law said me that she would go to Baba temple the very first Thursday after her arrival in Bangalore. Since my parents were also there in Bangalore with us at that time, so she had hoped that both the families would go together and have Baba Darshan. And she had asked me to speak to my husband about making arrangements for the same. I was very happy as I would again get the privilege of visiting Sai temple. But my husband (who doesn’t believe in idol worship and believes in being a good human being and working hard), got very angry at this request. He somehow didn’t want to take both the families together. He said me that he would take his mother to Baba temple later, after my parents had left. My mother is a staunch devotee of Sai Baba. I wanted her to get this gift of visiting Baba temple before she left for her native. But seeing my husband’s refusal, I was very pained and left all on Baba. I silently prayed Him to work this out and change my husband’s mood.
2 days had passed and both the families were together. But none spoke a word about visiting Baba’s temple. I was mentally praying Baba to arrange for the visit. With Baba’s grace, or I would say it is His miracle only that last Wednesday, my husband himself spoke about his change of mind and that he would take all of us to Baba’s temple. I was so happy. I mentally prostrated before Baba and thanked Him for this miracle. But I could not share my happiness with my husband and tell him that I knew that my Baba would sort this out, since this would anger him again. So the plans were made and next day, we went in the evening to Baba’s temple. It was Thursday and my mother was so happy and I thanked Baba for arranging all this. Had He not done this, my mom and me, would not have got the opportunity to visit Baba’s temple. Before we went to the temple, my husband asked me to get all the Pooja done fast, as he had some other commitments. Now this created a stir in my mind, but I thought that let Sai Nath decide the course.
When we went to that temple, Sai Naam Jaap was in a concluding phase at that time. We had a very good Darshan and we sat there for some time enjoying the Naam Jaap. It was 8:20 pm and I knew that at 8:30 pm, we would have Shej Aarti. And I knew that if we attended the Aarti, then it would get late and my husband would be very angry. My mother wanted to attend the Aarti and so did I. But my mother-in-law and my husband wanted to go back home earlier. I prayed Sai Baba that I have come to Your durbar, now whether I attend Aarti or not, it would be Your will. To my amazement, at 8:30 pm, Sai Naam Jaap concluded and there was a small Aarti of Baba (instead of the Shej Aarti). With this miracle, not only my Sai Baba satisfied mine and my mother’s wish of attending Aarti, He also made it sure that we don’t anger my husband.
With these 2 miracles of Baba, my heart overflowed with joy. I could not share my agony with anyone but Baba, and He sorted out all of them. We all had a very good Darshan of Baba and I was very contented with the events of that day. After the small Aarti was over, the priest announced that Shej Aarti would commence shortly afterwards. We left during that interval after taking handful of Baba’s tasty Prasad. Really Sai Nath is the eternal mother, who takes care of all needs of His children. Blessed I am, that He enrolled me in His durbar. Thanks Baba for making me write these miracles!!! Last but not the least, I would like to thank the admin for creating such a wonderful platform wherein all Sai devotees can come together and experience bliss together. Also, thanks to all the readers, for reading my long description with patience and devotion. May Sai Nath bless all of us and be with all of us till the end of time.