I am basically from South India, came to USA in 2008 after my wedding. My husband and me were trying to conceive a child from 2010. We were trying for almost 3 years and there was no luck. I prayed so much to Baba, did Nav Guruvar Vrat many times, read Sai Satcharitra Parayan many times, but Baba was taking His own time to bless us. Since things did not go favourable to us, we went in for medical guidance. The Doctors checked me and my husband thoroughly and said everything was normal. But the wait was killing us. Those were the toughest times in our lives with Baba being the only support to rely on. We then went to see Fertility Specialists. They also did couple of more tests and said the same thing that everything was normal. They suggested that we go to the next step of doing IUI (Intra Uterine Insemination). I really did not want to take medical help, but Baba had something different in His mind. I was constantly praying Baba to conceive naturally without any medical intervention. We went ahead and did IUI, for 3 cycles and I did not conceive. I cried a lot to Baba and was asking why He was punishing me like this. Those were the toughest days of our life. When I think about it now, I really feel how I passed that phase with so much courage and faith if not for Baba. I sincerely owe it to Him for taking care of me and husband during those times. The feelings and stress that an infertility couple undergo is the toughest.
We alienated ourselves from public life, we stopped talking to our friends, stopped attending any kids birthday party or baby shower. We were just the two of us, with the just Baba as a support. We were not able to share everything completely with our parents also because they were in India and they would get really tensed. But both my parents and my in-laws did their full part by devoting their entire time praying for us. After 3 unsuccessful attempts, the doctors said that there was no use doing another IUI, and we should consider IVF. I prayed to Baba that I would do the Nav-Guruvar Vrat every Thursday till I conceive. I really did not want to go for it, but Baba had a different plan. After lot of thought, fight, prayers, questions to Baba, we decided to go ahead for it. The treatment is very expensive in USA and we did not want to pay from our savings and we took a loan for it. We had already spent a lot of money for the other treatment. We took couple of months break between treatment and I was mentally making our mind and body to undergo the IVF treatment. I have asked Baba number of times if we have to go for an IVF and He said Yes. So I made up my mind.
We went ahead and did all the pre –work required for it and we started the treatment. With the blessings of Baba, after our first embryo transfer I conceived but that was a chemical pregnancy. I went to Baba’s temple the next day after I heard from the nurse that the pregnancy test was positive, Baba gave me so many good signs, gave me a flower, but next day my blood test showed that it was a chemical pregnancy (that I was miscarrying). I cried a lot, scolded Baba so much that why He gave me the flower the previous day. Then I consoled myself that Baba probably was indicating me that this was not a good pregnancy and please wait. We took a break from the treatment for a month for my body to get back to normal. The next month, we went ahead and did the second embryo transfer with the blessings of Baba and my parents (my parents just then came here to support us). I had done the Nav Guruvar Vrat for almost 6 months by now and I conceived and I am now 23 weeks pregnant. The journey to get pregnant was definitely a roller coaster journey with so many emotions, feelings, crying and pain. If I think about it, I just wonder how I had so much courage to face everything. If not for Baba, and my parents we would not have been able go through that phase.
To all couples trying to get pregnant, don’t get stressed out and leave everything to Baba. He has a plan for you and He will show you the right way. My experience is not to disappoint any one ( or to support for medical treatments) but to instil confidence that there is definitely a bright side at the end of the tunnel, just that we don’t know how far we have to travel in the tunnel to see the light. My pregnancy journey has being going well so far with few anxieties sometimes. This journey is also like a roller coaster ride with so many feelings in the first trimester. I prayed to Baba that I will do the Parayan till the end of my first trimester, and I did it. I also it did during the first few weeks of my second trimester. But the second trimester is better with not much of worries. My doctor has said that it is a semi high risk pregnancy as my placenta is low lying and one of my hormone level is little elevated. Doctors are doing a good job monitoring me well. From third trimester I will be monitored more frequently and have to undergo non stress test to evaluate Baby’s growth every week. I have full confidence in Baba that everything will go on fine. I am expecting my Baby in couple of months. I request all the devotees to give in your wishes for a smooth pregnancy and healthy and normal baby and a normal delivery. Baba, Please bless me, my family and my baby to be born for a smooth pregnancy and delivery. I really Love You Baba, and if not for You, this would not have been possible. Jai Sai Ram Ananta Koti Brahmand Rajadhi Raja Yogiraj Parabrahma Sri Sachidanand Sadguru Sainath Maharaj Ki Jai.