One fine day I was riding my bike very fast, when I tried to overtake the bus before me, unfortunately another bus was parked which was not visible to me from behind the bus I was following, in high speed I applied brake but bike got stuck and my head got it on the corner of bus, before hit I was not sure how I called that name “Baba” and I went to unconscious stage, blood started flowing out from my forehead on the left eyebrow. I was there on the road for almost 30 – 40 min with no body help! May be people would have thought I am dead! but I believe that Baba will not end until He wish to do that, some fireman ( He must be Baba) who was going in opposite direction on Auto stopped and enquired and he immediately took me to nearby hospital, in spite of his busy schedule, great Man! After checking, hospital nurse told that this needs stitches due to deep cut injury and there was no doctor now to do that but they did some emergency first aid to stop the blood flow, then fireman (Baba) took me in auto to my home, whereas I was still in drowsy situation, as I was not aware of anything happening around me, he brought me to home where I have not even cared about to ask his name and whereabouts just went in to my room and slept. I felt bad, ashamed and worried lot for not knowing about him, it seems he informed about accident to my parents and left, even my parents did not get his details! I missed Baba! Since then I started believing Baba.
Days passed, later I fell in love with my Uncle’s (Mom’s, brother’s daughter) it was almost 4 years of love there was lot of ups and down but whenever I am down My lovely Mom was there to console me, bring me back to normal, many times after visiting her home, I used to come late night say about 12:30 AM, till then my Mom would be waiting for me and she made me to eat something, only then she eat and go to bed in spite of her early morning duty at 6 AM, she awake for me because she loves me that much! I Miss You Mom. In Month of Nov, I got engaged and my marriage got fixed in Feb. There is another uncle of me, who was not interested in this engagement as he wanted his daughter to get married with me. In month of Dec 7th, unexpectedly a worst, terrible, bad thing happened in my life. My Mom met with an accident on the way coming back from her work. She was working in ESI hospital as house keeper and the job was like, she has to stay there for entire week and will be with us only in weekends. Whenever I wish to see her, I will be going to her work place.
In fact on that day Dec 7th she applied for 3 months leave for the sake of my marriage, but she left once for all from this earth. I was totally shattered and almost Mad, My Mom used to say if I am not there, no one is there in this earth would be favour of you, same thing I am facing now! What she said is 100% true. When we checked the astrologer he said this soul is not meant to die at this age, she had to life for another 30 years. This was due to someone within our family very closely related has done black magic to stop this marriage. He also said that this was done for bride but it was almighty plan to switch over to my Mom! Poor soul she died for my goodness! People said that either we have to stop this marriage and reconsider after 3 years or you have to execute it as per schedule fixed in Feb as My Mom fixed the date her soul will be around here to bless the couples. We checked astrologer and he said you can execute as per schedule as my Mom is there with us and she wish this to happen and also she will reborn again, in my point of view I thought that if I stopped this for next three years anything can happen and girls reputation would get spoiled and in case if this proposal get cancelled she may face some future life problem like people saying that this girl is unlucky person! So I decided to get married as per schedule, the other uncle came to marriage hall, drunken and made some worst scenes, now we all got doubt that he is the one who would have done this black magic to stop this marriage, somehow the marriage was over. Since my wife was doing her education, we planned not to have kids for next 3 years.
Later Baba blessed us with beautiful girl baby. She is same like my Mom’s character. I remember astrologer’s word, I felt very happy that I got my Mom back. My mom had many desire but I could not fulfilL all those at that time because of my poor income but now I wish to fulfil all desire of my sweetest mom through my daughter! After my Mom’s death my father brought in another women which I am not comfortable, as I don’t wish to see any other women in the place of my lovely mom. My father is very cunning and greedy for money, he transferred home in his name and took all gratuity, PF which has been shared by government for 3 of us (me, my brother and father) also since my Mom was government staff, my father is eligible to get pension but only when he is not getting another marriage, by knowing this he did not brought this women legally so that he can enjoy pension without any struggle, how cunning these humans. I prayed to Baba and cried a lot of time to overcome all these sorrows, and then I left my home. Now it’s almost 7 year, i have no contact with my father as well as brother as he is comfortable staying with him. Now I am all alone without any relation but one and only Baba.
For past 12 years after getting my salary, I use to donate every month to temple (Lord Ayyapan temple in Anna nagar), whenever I am jobless I could not do that. I am MBA holder and My Job Profile is US IT recruiter and all the company till I switchover there won’t be any growth. So again in next company they assure me with growth and make me to start as recruiter again, some company I left due to non growth and others due to politics. At that time Baba blessed me with work from home option, the company is really too good and they are very transparent, I loved working there because there is no bothering of politics, which I am more comfortable, in fact our company owner is staunch devotee of Baba. I felt very blessed and thought that Baba has brought me to right place, we use to share many miracles of Baba often and Baba developed our spiritualism in official manner, in fact I became more and more close to Baba and Staunch devotee after joining this company.
During this time my wife got conceived and it was Twins but she and her parent are not comfortable and they wish to abort it which I am not interested I told that it would be biggest sin in this earth and can’t payback at any cost, unwillingly they agreed and I prayed to Baba that if twins delivered safely we all come to Shiridi to invoke Your blessings. I also shared this with my owner and they were very happy and they also said same thing that it would be sin. My owner taught me about Sai Nav guru Vrat and I started doing that whenever I feel down, also my Owner helped me to get Satcharitra book from Shiridi, so nice of her and I thank her from bottom of my heart for helping me to get this precious book . During the pregnancy month, there was lot of cold war with my wife and her parents, but I prayed to Baba as He is the only one Who is with me. Once my wife was feeling pain and I dissolved some Udi in water and gave it to her but she refused to take and spitted out. I got very angry and left the place and felt sorry to Baba, like this lot of incidents happened until delivery. Then in month of Jan, twins got delivered, and as promised to Baba, we have planned to go Shiridi and in month of April we visited.
We had a tough challenge in flight with twins, all passengers got annoyed in flight due to their nonstop cry! it was only two days trip and it was heavily raining when we went to temple, when we went in line, Security said that Darshan will be closed you can have it only next day morning so better go back to room but we requested saying that we came in heavy rain that too with twin babies finally he agreed and left us in (Baba plans for us). I was wearing yellow T-shirt. I was praying that Baba should wear the same colour dress of mine, when we pass by line we can see the Baba in TV hanged there, when I saw that Baba was wearing green colour dress. I felt sad and continued in line. When I went close to Baba, I saw it was green with Yellow Stars, OMG Baba listens to my small prayers, Hurray I am blessed, my joy knew no bounds and tears flowed out! Jai Sai Ram. Then we came out to Dwarkamai and Bhajan was going. We sat there for a while then came out to Baba’s Gurusthan, but I was unable to get Neem leaf! I felt very sad. We collected some Udi and returned back to room, due to handling Twins we were unable to enquire about Prasad counter too! I read in Satcharitra about Bharit (roasted Brinjal mixed with curd and spices), Kacharya (circular pieces of Brinjal fried in Ghee) and meat balls. I wish to taste all three but didn’t get chance to enquire, next time surely I will check and taste this. I thought of going alone, again in morning for Darshan but due to Twins the plans had not been executed.
When we came to Airport something was not feeling ok for me, I felt that my Darshan was not so good so I decided to come again in peaceful manner and stay with Him for long time without any hurry in returning back, to invoke more blessings. After coming back all was well in my company and they even helped me with interest free loan to fulfil my needs. I worked there for almost 3 years and I asked them for US sponsorship but they refused to do that due to that I got de-motivated and my performance came down month by month, owner was very nice to me and they use to tell read Satcharitra as that should not be idle, also to do Sai Nav Guru Vrat. I did Parayan too to fulfil my US Sponsorship desire but company denied! Meanwhile I did master health check up and came to know that I am having hernia which has to be operated ASAP to avoid worst case scenario. I checked and had multiple opinions with several Dr but all said Surgery is must and no other go! I goggled to check whether there are any alternates without surgery but all end up with same! Dr said it is going to cost me 1.5 L for traditional cut and 1.8 L for Laparoscopic. I informed the same to company they said that can help with partial amount but due to my other commitments if I take remaining loan from private sector I would be getting in to troublesome situation so I asked full loan 1.5 L which company is unable to help, I prayed to Baba to help me.
Every Thursday I use to go nearby Baba temple and light Lamps there. I requested my company with two options please help me with US sponsorship, so that I can take care of surgery expense or else relieve me with 3 months pay which will help me to take care of surgery expense. I am shattered. They said today is last day for me with them, i thought that they will help me with 3 months pay but I got only 15 days pay! I am worried and cried to Baba, now somehow I managed with surgery but with more loans and struggling day by day, jobless nightmares, having dependant of 4 and lot of commitments and loans, I realized my mistakes now, as I should have submerged my US desire and taken that partial amount to compensate my surgery expense and report back to work after break but I feel that it is too late! I have to fulfil my (Mothers) daughter’s desire, have to manage EMI’s and other commitment and new issues my wife wants to go away from me as I am jobless! She is pinpointing the past arguments regarding twins! I am almost dying day by day without Job, Baba please help me ASAP, Please guide me to re-begin my life or help me to end once for all! I am surrendering myself on the lotus feet of Baba. Dear Devotees thanks for reading, please Pray for me to lead happy life