Devotee Experience – Anonymous Devotee

Anonymous Devotee from India says: Om Sai Ram Hetal Ji, I am Sai Devotee. Please do not disclose my email-id. Before I begin to narrate my experience, let me begin by congratulating you for taking up this noble task of bringing our Sai family together. You are much blessed by our Baba. You don’t know, but your blog offered the greatest support and our Sai’s answers to me, when I was going through a difficult time. Now, your blog is what starts my day.

I begin to write this on a Thursday after getting Baba’s blessings and His approval to pen down my experience with Almighty Baba. Where do I even begin narrating about the love and kindness that Baba has for us all? I must say I am fortunate enough to know Baba ever since I have known God. To me, Baba was and is God. My mom is an ardent devotee of Him and so I was introduced to Him, when I was 3. I had the good fortune to visit Shirdi, when I was 4 years of age in 1989 and consider it as my beginning of the attachment that I have with Baba.

Till about I was 17, I used to pray to Baba, but not with as much devotion as I have today. I went through a difficult phase and started reading Sai Satcharitra. Sai rescued me from the problem and put me on the right path. Though I was disappointed that I did not get the stream of graduation I wished for. I realised later that it would not have suited me. Hence, our Father did not give me admission in that stream. I didn’t need a bigger example than this to show that Baba gives what is best for us. Then, I started to pray to Baba, read Sai Satcharitra regularly, visit His temple on Thursday and think about Him whenever I had free time. But, as human nature is, I got distracted with worldly engagements and my devotion decreased though my love never did. Even in post-graduation entrance, I didn’t work hard and as a result, I got into an above average college. I did question Baba, but I came to accept His decision for me.

In post-graduation, I was not the topper and I didn’t have the desired graduation stream, but I was the first one to get placed in a batch of 56 state entrance toppers and that too, in one of the most-respected MNCs in India. After this, my parents, who were disappointed in me earlier, also started to believe in my potential. My marriage also got fixed with Baba’s grace. Though I met a few guys before meeting my husband, I did not like anyone as much as I liked my husband. And when we visited our husband’s house before the wedding was fixed, I saw a murti of my Sai Baba in my in-laws place in the hall. I thought this was a sign from Baba and got assured. My in-laws are not devotees of Baba, but they got the murti from another devotee from Shirdi and they placed it in the hall. I keep telling my husband that I married you because of Baba’s murti. I thank Baba for giving me a husband, who is also my good friend. My dearest Baba, I know You have promised to be with me always and will continue to do so.

Recently, we bought a good house in a location near to my office. Before that, for about 2 years I was travelling around 33 km (up and down) to reach my office, which took about 3.5 hours in my day. I must mention one thing here – I remember when thinking about buying a house, I prayed to Baba saying – “Baba, please show us a good house for a less price”. like a pampered child would say to her Father. And that too, Baba granted us. Our house was bought by us in re-sale (though that house was unoccupied) for about 14 lakhs less than what the original buyer had to pay. My sympathies lie with the original buyer since he had to bear a loss, but I can’t help but be amazed at the kindness Baba has shown towards in getting us such a good house. The most I can do is dedicate that house to Baba and treat it as His shrine. It will always be a part of Shirdi that Baba has bestowed upon us.

After shifting to the new house, I was going through a mentally distressing problem, and I turned to my Baba again. I must mention that after getting married, I became careless towards Baba and did not even read Sai Satcharitra regularly. But Baba forgave me when I begged for His forgiveness and now I am improving and better. One way of looking at the major problems in my life were that they made me stronger and also brought me closer to our Sai Baba since they acted as catalysts to increase my devotion.

About a month ago, on a Thursday, at around 5:30 am, I dreamt that I was doing Abhishekam to Baba with water mixed with Kumkum. I remembered the murti of Baba, which was not a big one or a small one, but about of medium size. I mentioned this dream to my mother and my team-mate, with whom I discuss about Baba. In the evening, I went to a temple, behind our new house, it was the first time I visited that temple. Though it was Shiva’s temple, there was a beautiful murti of Baba too. I felt very happy to see it and bowed down. Then after lifting my head and looking at the Murti carefully, I realised it was the same murti I saw in my dream!!! I had never seen a murti like that. Even the temple I saw in my dream, where Baba’s murti was similar to the one that I visited. I cannot explain what I felt at that moment. I had tears in my eyes and I was smiling too. I was overwhelmed with emotions. I sat there for a while and on my way home, I called my mom and friend and told them what happened. I feel so blessed and so lucky that Baba gave His Darshan to me. I felt that Baba has been holding my hand all along and it was I, who failed to see that He has always been there with me.

Just a couple of days ago, I was thinking I will post my experience on this blog, but I need approval from Baba. So, I said to Baba, “Baba, If I see You in my dream before Thursday morning, I will post my experience. Even in the form of a picture or a Murti will make me understand that I have your approval”. This was on Tuesday, the same day I saw Him in my dream. He came not in the form of a picture or Murti, but as Himself in His white garb except in my dream. He had a black cloth covering His head. I have never seen Baba in black head cloth and white garb, even till now. I was inside a building which was in the form of a square and the middle portion of it was open to sky. However, there was a grill separating me from the middle portion. I saw Baba in the bright light of the open portion. He was looking at me and smiling. He raised both of His hands in a blessing and asked me without speaking any words – “You are fine, right? ” and how can I describe that beautiful smile! I asked Him raising my thumb – “Do I have Your permission to write my experience?” again, silently without any words. He smiled again expressing His approval. That was the most auspicious blessing I have ever had! So here I am, penning down the instances, where Baba has shown His unbound and unconditional love for His devotees.

How can I thank Baba enough for His love and kindness? Thinking about Baba gives me bliss and I only wish it stays with me forever. I consider it as my accumulation of merits in my past births that has brought me to the ever-holy lotus feet of Baba. My prayer to Baba would be – “Oh most merciful and loving Baba, please do not leave my hand, which is in yours. Please guide me and help me become a better person every day. Please give me the strength and wisdom to carry out my worldly duties as You have decided for me. Kindly press down my ego and my vices whenever they arise. Please give me Shraddha and Saburi, so that I can destroy the Teli’s wall (of difference – the grill I saw in my dream). So that I can reach Your feet in this life. Bow to Shri Sai – Peace to be all.

© Devotees Experiences with Shirdi Sai Baba

Anil Gupta
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    Dear Devotee

    You are very lucky- that grill represents VEIL OF IGNORANCE, that make syou think you are separate from BABA. Babai is always with us, in us, around us.

    It is just like a FISH does not have a choice to be away from water, it is all engulfed with water, so we are always surrounded by BABAJI.

    Love you DEVA

    Love to ALL, Peace to ALL

  2. Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram
    Jai Sai Ram

    Baba please forgive me for all my mistakes. Baba i can't bear this pain more baba please i need you baba please help me out baba.

  3. Thank you Baba,for all the signs you had shown…………………Be with us Deva, we cannot exist in this world with you. Please never make me to doubt you.Sai Ram

  4. What a lucky girl you are? Baba never come to my dream. But doesn't matter I still love him a lot. I am feeling his presence in my life which is more than enough. May be my sins are more than my good deeds so I still need to wait to see you Baba

  5. Beautiful experience and another one of the few lucky devotees to have Baba visit in their dreams 🙂

    O Deva, we seek forgiveness by surrendering to Your lotus feet and pray that our sins be burnt away. Bless us O Sadguru so that we may think, speak and act only good.

    Thank You for all the Love O Sai 🙂

    Jai Sairam

  6. Om Sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram,om sai ram,Om sai ram,Om sai ram.

  7. I request all my sai devotees please suggest me and guide me. After 17 years of suffering , there is no one for me. I have lost my everything. Each & every moment i prayed my sai please help me but he is not listining me. My mind is restless. My mind is totally disturb. sometimes thinks to kill myself. Baba please help and shows me the rightpath. Baba please only you are the only hope. There is no one for me Baba. I'm alone .please be with me baba.Baba………….

  8. Wonderful experience.
    Baba please bless me with a good job. Please dont test me like this Baba. Be with me always.

  9. om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam oms airam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam oms airam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam

  10. Om Sai Ram.

    Lucky ou are dear Sai Sister ! BABA bless you and your family immensely.

    I have been praying to BABA for a house of our own and by reading your experience, i am sure that we will also get a beautiful and affordable house soon. BABA please come in our dreams also, we are all longing to see you and talk to you and seek your blessings.

    Thanks a lot BABA for everything , may you keep blessing us all always.


  11. Om sai ram…
    Wow! very well explained experiences… having fully content by ur experience…. amazing is our Sai, amazing is the experience….

    OM sai ram…..

  12. OM SAI RAM
    such a beautiful experience. You are very fortunate to be blessed with his darshan in your dreams.

  13. indeed ur a blessed girl of baba..i can now surely say that baba treats us all equally and i was really thrilled to read about that dream of yours..i mean it goes without saying that baba takes care of our smallest of wishes in such a beautiful manner..thanku baba thanku so much for being with us all the time..thanku thanku so much for my sister's dream job baba..thanku so much for blessing her with such a wonderful job..really thanku baba thanku..

  14. Om sai deva forgive me.
    My mind is not at peace.
    I feeling some kind of fear.
    Please show me a sign to clear all my fickle thoughts.
    I know you are there always besides me.
    Still my mind is filled with doubt and fear.
    Our new home should bring us peace prosperity and good health above all your merciful hand on us.
    Please let this be my permanent home.
    We should not become a laughing stock for others.
    You have saved our honour.
    Thank you baba.
    I love u.

  15. BABA you are giving darshan for every one except me. Why BABA? BABA I am confused whether I really have faith in YOU are not. BABA is not your duty to show me a path and clear this confusion. Until few days back I though I am your daughter but now I feel may be not as YOU are silent. Please BABA please clear this confusion. I don't want to move away from YOU. I agree I don't have patience. I became dull thinking YOU are watching me suffering from past 20 years with this health problem but YOU are not curing. This time by YOUR grace its not severe like before. But BABA I am suffering and suffering and YOU are watching and watching. This is hurting me BABA. YOU know that very well. Please tell me BABA if I really have faith on YOU are not. BABA I want to be your loving daughter BABA. Please help me to become your loving child.

  16. BABA you give darshan only for few people. I know we have to suffer as per our karma. But BABA even your darshan is as per our karma only? Why YOU do this BABA when YOU love every one equally. I have been waiting for YOUR darshan but YOU didn't give. I saw in my dreams 2 times. But I am not satisfied with that. I want to see YOU, hug YOU, kiss YOU and talk to YOU. When will YOU fulfil my wish. Why only for few people? Don't I love YOU wholeheartedly?

  17. excellent experience
    i thank my sai ma thank u ma thank u ma thank u ma
    he has been kind enough to bring me to shirdi
    waiting to go for darshan and cry my heart out at my maa's lotus feet
    maa please please help me to get back to my usual self
    please pull me out of this fear and discomfort maa please

  18. Jai Sai Ram ji ki to all,

    Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai
    Sai Sai Sai
    Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai
    Thanks a lot Sai Ma

    Love You Baba ji
    Sabse ZYAADA ji


  20. BABA please this is hurting ,my health and your silence. Please BABA talk to me. I don't want to lose YOU BABA. Why are YOU cold with me? Please forgive my sins and mistakes and please talk to me. Please BABA I will be waiting to see YOU tonight in my dream. Please come nana.

  21. Om Sai Jai Sai. Thank you Sai sister for such a blissful experience. It brought a big smile on my face reading your experience. Deva thank you for everything. Saiji please bless us all always and increase our shradhha n saburi by each passing day.

  22. Dear Sai Devotee, very pleased to read your blessed post. Isn't it amazing we get dreams of our Beloved BABA! But that happens only when BABA wishes to appear in our dreams. I too had such an inexplicable vision of BABA, /I would say, it was NOT A DREAM! But let me tell you at that time I knew BABA as one of the several GODS that people worship. I did not have any specific GOD that I would say ,I had faith in a particular one. But just as our parents would care for us, BABA stood by me at my most frightful moments of my life where my husband was told by the cancer specialist that he has only 6 months to live looking at his stage of skin cancer. When this information was disclosed to me almost after almostONE WEEK, and for the first 2 weeks of my knowing this dreadful news, I was in a stage of denial. But slowly I got succumbed to realize the future reality. I was so scarred to even think my life without my husband.
    But BABA was smiling as HE has brought my husband in to my life, HE would not let that go in vain! HE came to me in my vision at midnight, the night I was crying nonstop for hours thinking and fearing of my future without my husband beside me!
    Oh, it was so gorgeous scenario how HE descended from space, everything was eye-blinding bright, several fairies were circling around HIM… I could not see HIS face but the standing posture of a very powerful figure, HIS gown was floating in the air, I could not see HIS facial features, I heard a voice, "Don't cry my child, everything will be alright. Sub-kuchh achchhaa ho jaayega, It is all for family unity." And slowly that vision dissolved making everything near me normal. Next day my husband's CAT scan was to be performed. The test result came normal and since than, every six months various tests were performed and the results of those tests came normal (to make sure cancer is not there for 5 years), ….This happened in 1996! My husband was declared Cancer FREE patient and he is living a healthy life even today.
    BABA is there to give us opportunity to grow and yet is there to protect us from dangerous situations. This is not just one , there are too many experiences that has happened in my life making me believe in BABA like a constant companion walking with me always.
    May we all be protected by BABA and progress in wisdom the way BABA wants his children to reach higher goals in spirituality!
    Jai SAI RAM.

  23. om sairam,om sairam,om sairam,om sairam,
    om sairam,om sairam,om sairam,om sairam,
    om sairam,om sairam.

    pls help me and save me baba…pls guide me baba…pls take of my kid saimaa, who is also ur kid…..whatever is best for me,make that happen..jai sairam..

  24. Very well written experience! Baba has shown you many wonderful signs throughout your life (and I am sure will continue to show) that He is there with you and even gave you a wonderful dream about writing these nice experiences here. Om Sai Ram!

  25. I too had similar experience of judging my self. Baba called me to shirdi on feb 18,2014. I didnt like buying unwanted things. Some thoughts were coming like whether the thing is worth to buy and wil I use it fulfledged. When I reached shirdi tears rolled down my eyes. I was crying…..when ever some one says they going to shirdi I think they are going to meet him directly.

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