Baba And His Kind Blessings
Anonymous Devotee from UK says: Dear Hetal Ji, Jai Sai Ram. Thanks for all your efforts for bringing together all the Sai devotees. We all are blessed to have you, helping all the devotees to seek Baba’s blessings. May Baba bless all. I wish to share my experiences due to our beloved Baba’s grace .Kindly keep me anonymous and post it when possible.
Baba has been very kind to me always. This time Baba solved my biggest problem. I have lost my parents and after them I consider my paternal uncle as my father. He has loved me a lot an always been like a father. 3 months back he had gone to Chennai for a liver transplant. Everyone was scared, but I believed in Baba that He will always be there to protect him.
I immediately started Nav Guruvar Vrat and prayed Baba that my uncle should be fine and his operation should be a success. We waited for another month for a donor, but no success. I wanted the operation should happen on a Thursday and prayed Baba for that. Every day I used to get an inner feeling that Baba is telling me don’t worry. I am here. Every day passed with anxiety and one day I asked Baba on questions and answers that when the operation will take place and Baba said that your work will be done within 12 hours.
The time, when I asked the question, it was 12 noon. I was waiting that the operation should start before 12 AM Indian time. Finally I got a call from my brother that the operation has started and it was 12:30 AM in India. I thanked Baba a lot and thought that it does not matter that the operation did not start before12AM. I prayed all night, but my heart did tell that Baba is there with him. And my Baba’s grace the operation was successful and doctors asked to wait for 72 hours for the body to accept the organ. After the operation I had a word with my aunty to ask about the operation and she said that the call for operation came at 11:45 AM. Look at Baba’s Leela. He did keep His promise. I prayed Baba a lot and He did answer my prayers and finally my uncle was fine and was discharged after a week.
I wanted that before my fasts end, my uncle should reach home. During fasts, I had to skip 2 fasts and I finished my fasts on 24/10/2013 and they reached home on 23/10/2013. It was Baba’s Leela and He made sure they reach home before I finish my fasts and because of this I had delays in finishing my fasts. Baba blessed me by fulfilling my wishes. I can’t thank Baba enough. If one prays with clear heart all the wishes are listened. Baba has been very kind to me and I pray that this kindness is showered on all. I love You Baba. May Baba be with all and bless all always. Jai Sai Ram.
Sai And His Abundance Miracles
Anonymous Devotee from India says: Dear Hetal Ji, Kindly keep my name and email id anonymous while sharing my experiences. My faith in Sai grew after I started reading Shri Sai Satcharitra. My relatives used to believe in Sai and I used to listen a lot of miracle stories about Sai from them. After hearing so much about Sai, I started reading Sai Sat Satcharitra just to know more about Sai.
As I started doing Shri Sai Satcharitra parayan, after 1 or 2 parayans, whenever I used to read Sai Satcharitra, I used to feel so emotional that tears used to fell from my eyes and it was like that I could not control my tears. I could not understand why such a strong urge to cry used to come to me and I could not control my tears. Slowly I could feel Shri Sai’s presence in my life.
Once I was doing Shri Sai Satcharitra parayan and it was Saturday during parayan and I was sleeping on my bed. All of a sudden I heard a huge loud voice shouting “Baba” and the voice was so loud that it woke me up and I ran to see who the person was. As I saw, there was a fakir looking man begging alms. To my surprise it was during the week, when I was doing Sai Satcharitra.
After few months later I again started doing Sai Satcharitra parayan and during that week one of my parents plot in one of the unauthorized colony was sold at a huge profit. I was looking for a job very badly as I had completed years of studies and I wanted to get a job. It was Wednesday night and Thursday morning (dawn time of Thursday). I could not sleep due to job’s tension. So I played Sai Bhajan “Sai Reham Nazar Karna” on my laptop and heard it 3 times with strong faith in Sai. To my surprise that Thursday morning, a sadhu came to my house when I was going to temple and took dakshina from me. I thought it was none other than my Sai, who came to take away the debt.
After few weeks of this incident, I got a job in a very high profile organisation and to my surprise when I joined the organization, I came to know that as one of my colleagues told me that I am very lucky since many other people had applied for the job, but only 4 came for the interview that day due to some reasons or the other and after defeating 3 others I got this job. But I am on contract in this job. It is second year on contract in this job. In this second year a lot of issues have come up, but I have faith in Shri Sai. I pray to Shri Sai that all my misdeeds are forgiven by Sai’s bountiful unreasoned grace and I am made permanent in this job.
I ask all readers of Shri Sai, who are reading my experience, to bless me and pray for me so that I am made permanent in this job. Om Sai Ram!
Feeling Helpless And Rejected With Life
Anonymous Devotee from India says: I would like to thank the person, who is taking the pain to post people’s experiences. Some post are for their happy moments and miracles. Some are for their pains and suffering. I am one such person. Mine is going to be a big post sorry for it, but I really need some help and guidance from all brothers and sisters, who read this.
I seriously don’t know whether God exist or not. Sorry to write this way especially in this blog, but I am badly and totally hurt in almost everything. I am standing in the middle of a road like a deaf, dumb, blind and l am a person not knowing which direction to go. I am 32 years old female. I am very very lonely. I don’t have a good family or relations to stand by my side. All are selfish including my parents. I am unable to share certain things it will sound very bad and shocking for people, who read, so I don’t want to speak about my family.
From my childhood I am thirsty for love, affection and care, but I am not getting it. Just because of many disappointments in my life, I became a girl with loads of anger and hatred. Till date three men have come in my life. I was very very innocent and sweet. I don’t speak much with men. These were the only men, whom I trusted and spoken with. But a guy made me suffer, insulted and hurted me almost for 6 years. He spoiled my name in my family and friends. Finally he got married settled and leading a happy life. Then immediately a guy came. I said about my family and my past love. He was with me just for 3 months, used me, very little one, and left me without even saying a reason. Then I completely surrendered myself in work.
I stopped going to temples and praying. At least that time I was ok. I didn’t suffer much. But later somehow I got to know of Saibaba and started praying Him for my job and personal life. You know what both got collapsed now. A married man came into my life, did many little little things made me fall for him, used me completely and then left me saying his wife knew about it. At least if he had been true to his wife, I would have felt ok. But he didn’t change. He just cut me, but I was able to smell him being after another woman for years even before coming into my life and even after getting connected with me. I was gone completely. Still inspite of knowing everything I loved him and do so even now. He was my boss. He stopped my promotion inspite of me being eligible for that. Then I was not able to work there anymore, daily seeing him having fun with another woman. Above all he used to insult me through his behaviour, action and words. I left my job just because of him.
I thought I will get another job and this gap will change my mind. But nothing happened till now. I know I am a fool and all would speak badly about me, but unable to forget him. I was happy with him only for few months, but I am suffering from his insults, pains, hurts till this minute from past 3 years 2 months. Once he will call, I have to speak with him normally without tears, but if I call him, he will not answer my calls or give reasons and hurt me to the core. I am getting mad day by day. I don’t have a job. I am not married to anyone. I don’t have even a single person to listen to my pains and give me shoulders above all I can’t say this to anyone. All will think badly of me no one knows in what situation all this happened.
I don’t even have friends to divert my mind. All married and settled. I don’t have money to go check myself with a psychological doctor or go to gym or learn new skill. Even if I try to go help some NGO, they want money not physical support. How will I divert my mind? How will I come out from all pains (family, relations, career, education, health, friends etc). Already I got admitted in hospital few months back as I was about to collapse due to anemia just recovering. Again he came into my life and spoiled my mind completely. Now I am unable to be without thinking about him or calling. I call and text even for 100 times, still he ignores, but he is happy with all and everything.
I am unable to eat, sleep or do anything, just crying crying and crying. I have done many Vrats on Sai’s name, read Sai Satcharitra many times; still I have not got peace. Now I got fed up going to temples even. I was a very very good and innocent girl. Why did God spoil my character, my education and my career? Why did He make me fall for wrong men? Are all men like that? Are women only to be used and thrown? At least the other two guys I forgot within months and was able to carry on with my life. But this man I am unable to forget. I don’t know why I still like him. He has hurted me to the maximum. Why is my heart this very dumb? Not even a single tear of me has any value? I am afraid whether I will become mad completely.
Daily waking up with hatred, eating just for a sake and sleeping for few hours after 3 or 4 am. People say karma if they don’t answer for something. If a person suffers to the core because of past karma won’t they do mistakes again in the present karma out of pain? Above all every Thursdays Baba is making me cry for something or the other why is this? Does He hate me that much? I have tried suicide many times, but not succeeded even in that. Not even a single birthday, new year, diwali or for any festivals, I have been happy or at least ok. Always tears tears tears, but people who made me cry are happy, succeeding in personal and official life. I want Sai Baba to answer me at least now, at least after reading this. You people know only my bad things as I have narrated only that but Sai knows the other side of me, the Good part of me. So I want Him to answer me. If He doesn’t answer me and keep me shed tears, I would say that God is just a stone. It’s upto Him to show me path, guide me and cuddle me or throw me in dustbin. Bye Baba.