Baba Healed My Wounded Heart – Sai Devotee Priyamvadha Ji

Sai Sister Priyamvadha Ji from Singapore says: I am 30 years old, currently in Singapore. I have had many mental sufferings, due to my family. I prayed to Baba to heal me emotionally and to relieve me of my burden. I am happy and peaceful now, and now focusing on my career. After failing for 2 years in preparing for IAS exam, I found the path for success through Sai. I am glad that Baba is with me in realising my dream. It was the most traumatic period of my life, but I have the courage with His grace to start all over again.

Dear Hetal Ji, I am following this website from 10 days only, and have found immense calmness and peace within myself. God bless your family and your team for spreading the divine grace of Sai.

I am a mother of 4 years daughter. I have a loving husband and a wonderful daughter with the grace of Baba. But I had lot of issues in my family and career. The pain gets more, when those, who have caused me so much mental pain and suffering to my family as Sai followers themselves. I couldn’t understand how a person, who worships Sai, could be so demonic inside. But I realised that there are corrupt devotees too, who only seek God for wanting worldly pleasures. My mother in law is a Sai devotee, but she was the most inhuman and cruel to me. Her behaviour at home was destroying the peace. In spite of have everything; I felt my soul always incomplete, because of the lack of peace at home. I yearned for a feeling that would be so blissful. I searched for happiness and peace in friends, family, and relationship. Even motherhood did not give me the bliss I wanted. But I am experiencing it now, with the grace of Sai.

For the past one week, I have experienced several spiritual signs and miracles. After years of suffering and holding on to family bonds, I finally found peace in Sai. I started preparing for IAS exam in May 2011. My family was not supportive wholeheartedly in my IAS preparation. Though I tried very hard and did everything to study and manage my family, I couldn’t be successful in 2012 and in 2013 I did not take the exam. I looked everywhere and expected support from everyone to cooperate for my studies, except God. For months, I struggled with myself and bore the mental anguish and pain. I finally see the bigger picture God has planned for me. I failed to take Shirdi Sai’s blessings before I commenced my IAS preparation. But I now start it again with all my new vigour and full faith in Him.

Though God helped me many times too, I was not serious and also stayed away from my goal. Repeatedly, God was giving me several signs that this is my purpose of my life. I gave importance to lot of petty issues and suffered. My cause of failure was my nature itself. Being over compassionate and caring, I derailed from my purpose. I was there for everyone in family, but during my crisis, I was left alone. In loneliness, I found only God beside me. I still wonder if being loving and compassionate is harmful, but I have realised that beyond a limit it gets exploited. Compassion, money or love must never be given in excess to anyone.

Now I am close to God than anyone. I have realised that I have everything for my studies, but without His blessings I cannot do it. He never left me anytime. I have been a Sai devotee from 15 years, but never had a personal connection with Him. I am experiencing the connection now and I am really very very pleased. I had a lot of pain in me that I couldn’t take up earlier attempts, but now I am glad because I wouldn’t have enjoyed the success if I never had the grace of God. But He revealed to me the purpose and how I should perform it. He guided me through a wonderful person and I thank Him with all my heart for it.

I take that all the suffering was my past bad karma. I cannot change what I do not know, but even if there are obstacles I believe that I will have the mental strength to tackle them, which I lacked earlier as I neglected Sai. He is the most merciful and loving person I have known. I have given so much love and affection to my family, but all I got was insults and humiliation. I prayed with all my heart to relieve me of this emotional pain. Now I have a very light heart. I do feel upset at times, but I have the courage to carry on my purpose. I couldn’t focus on my purpose with so much emotional pain and hurt in my heart.

God is relieving me slowly. By chanting His name, I am seeing a lot of change in myself. I am even spreading so much love, tolerance and peace at home. It’s true as He quotes that if there is peace in heart, there will be peace in home, and this will lead to harmony in nation.

It’s only been 10 days that I have wholeheartedly felt Him, but at the same time I feel bad for not realising His love earlier. If I had experienced it earlier, I could have been a much better person and would have been in a wonderful position by now. But I trust Sai. My spiritual instincts say that it’s all about timing. God wanted me to realise it at this phase of my life, which is not too late too. I am great full to God that He has revealed to me through my sufferings the real picture of those for whom I cared a lot. I do not hate anyone. I only pray that I don’t want to go through the pain of being associated with them. I don’t want any bad to happen to anyone. He has replaced my anger with sympathy for them. He has also shown me the way to progress in my purpose.

Today I started my 9 Thursday Sai Vrat. I will keep doing the 9 Thursday Vrat till I get into civil services. I want to become an IPS officer and serve the society, for God. I want to take care of poor and vulnerable children and women. For those, who need hope in life, I want God to use me to give them a hope in life. I believe that am living only for this purpose. Om Sai Ram.

© Devotees Experiences with Shirdi Sai Baba

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  1. om sai ram thank you very much i am feeling happy sai you are with me and with my family you hold my hand donot leave it om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram

    NICE EXPERIENCE.. Dear sister our Baba had different plan for us. To become IPS officer u must need much will power and strong mind. Tat's wat our sai doing to u. So be happy he'l take care of u. Baba im going for an interview please be with me.

  3. Wonderful experience. Thanks for sharing. Having firm faith and complete devotion, Baba surely will fulfil your wish. Om SaiRam.


    Very wonderful narration.

    Yes it is true, we Indians always get double personas- We bow down to God without realising the true meaning of it- What is the purpose of Bowing down to GOD, If we fail to love our dear & near ones?

    May SAI bless everyone- As SAI does not need any So called devotees, HE wants transformation- Transformation of Our Hearts, so that WE are able to see SAI in everybody.

    Love to all, Peace to All

  5. Om Sai Ram…Sai will be with you in your journey…have a good start…We Love You Baba…Always be with us…Om Sai Ram

  6. om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om airam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om saiam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairma om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam om sairam

  7. baba, i have full hope on getting a call for interview, please deva bless , need your raksha deva ………

  8. Om Sai Ram…. very good experience. Its absolutely true that we should not give MORE love, compassion & care to anyone in life…we should love everyone in limits without hatred & leave the rest on the feet of our father Baba…. He is there to take care all of us. we need to have 100 % TRUST & PATIENCE….. May Baba bless you to reach your goal….

  9. Om Sai Jai Sai. Very nice experience Sai sister. Deva thank you for guiding her for purpose of her life. Please guide us all to walk on the righteous path. Deva shower your grace upon cruel heart and mind , saiji transform them to a loving and merciful people so that they can also realized how beautiful this life is. Baba please bless us all and increase our shradhha n saburi by each passing day.

  10. Priyamvadha ji, I can slightly relate my personal life with yours. I am in Sai's fold since 2006. I am the only child. My father is mentally ill. He goes to work but is afraid of love and emotions, so restricts him from showering love and care. My mom and I suffered so much because of my dad. My mom sacrificed so much for her own family. But even then her siblings look down at us and have many times ill treated me.I did BTech and got a scholarship for MS abroad. I also did MPhil with scholarship only with Sai's blessings. I was in love with a person since college for 9 years. But in 9 year rship we were almost 5 yrs at distance. I trusted him so much and both the families were aware of. But I was unaware that he was into infidelity while I was abroad. Without knowing this, I arranged for an engagement and he too accepted for the engagement but he was into infidelity for fun. Knowing it I was shattered. I couldnt trust him when he considers infidelity for fun. But still he accepted that he did wrong. I couldnt tolerate as I was sitting pure for him even in distance. I couldnt prepare for PhD, give exams and write research proposals. I cried day and night, stopped eating, improper sleep and everything curbed my health. I went very weak with low Hb count in blood. I cry day and night why he did it to me when I trusted him so much. I sat at my home, weeing about it for almost a year. I visited Shirdi and it gave me so much solace. I craved for true love but i got it only from Baba. My mom is highly tortured by my dad. He abuses both of us and always behaves rude. Due to this she used to shout at me that she had to live only for me else she would have left him and gone to an orphanage. I craved for an emotional connection and I got it only from Sai. I visited Shirdi for new year and i did parayan at parayan hall. I had immense peace. I can connect myself better to Sai. I loved my relatives so much but all i got back was insults and humiliations. They used me and my mom to the very extent. I fixed my heart at my guy for almost 9 long years but he and his family behaves not bothered of me. That even more hurts. He was a chain smoker, drunkard. I got him rid of both. He was uncontrollable in anger and while at college i used to take part time tuitions and with that money i sent him to anger management and yoga classes. He met with a bike accident and suffered for 6 months. I nursed him along with his mother in hospital after college hours. I sat with him every evening in hospital reading his semester subjects, making him aware what is going on in college. He was very good in love in the beginning but he completely changed during the third year of college. I got him back clean in the forth year of college and his family is well aware of it. But they have no gratitude for me now. His dad was keen to stop the rship between us and he is looking for matrimony proposals for his son. I still cant take my heart from him. When I call him, he says his family doesnt like me bcz i am from a different caste. We both are tamil brahmins, i an iyer and he an iyengar. I ruined my health, career for him. I sat crying at home for one year, came off social networks, and hid myself. I know he did the mistake but still my heart craves for that true love he showered on me in the beginning. I wish he realizes my true love and returns whole heartedly. Life is total empty without love, happiness and meaning. I surrendered myself wholly to Sai. My only focus is to apply for PhD. I have nothing in my life other than expecting to graduate as a Doctorate in near future. I havent found that eternal bliss in any relationships but only with Sai. I dont want to leave Sai's feet. I sincerely please every Sai devotee to pray for my PhD admission. I shall also pray for ur civil services exam. My PhD is related to women development studies and completing it I will be ultimately able to serve the society. I will pray for you, Priyamvadha ji, to concentrate well and be focused and get through your exams. Om Sai Ram

    • Dear Sister don't worry..all ur worries will come to an end..have faith in sai,have shradha and saburi..he will definately ans ur prayers…may my sai bless all his devotees…Om Sai Ram!!!
      Sri SatChit Anand Satguru Sainath Maharaj ki Jai!!

  11. Baba im one useless creature.I had a good job but quit it due to politics and due to a man who came into my life and spoiled me.I suffered for an year without a job,with your blessings and after shedding lot of tears i got a job in abig company but my health and that atmosphere made me quit that job within months.Now im sitting at home for more than 6 months and suffering with loneliness,defeat,without money for my expenses.I wanted to achieve something in my career being a woman but now??I dont even know how to search for a job i have applied in all job portals and company websites but no response at all.I havent attended even a single interview in this period.Im very afraid losing all my hope.Have i failed pa,tell me.Will i get a chance to grow up or not?I dont know what to say if the recruiters ask me why i have these many breaks in my career.Will i get calls for job,will i attend the interview,will i get selected,will i stay in that job atleast without any mental tortures?will i prove that even i can do something and reach places among people u put me down or treat me like shit?Please tell me appa.Please be with me and bless me.Show me a way.


    Sai Daughter

    • You are jobless for six months and is that much broken ..i can understand your pain very well coz i am jobless since 9 years now and 36 years old still not yet settled down.inspite of good looking i am always rejected and am highly qulified still could not get job.I read almost all literatures and books of sai the whole day.I am the only source of unhapiness for my family.I am just useless person.Even sai is not listening to me.Cant bear the pain anymore.Whenever i go through this website i feel all the devotees are so lucky to have sai with them and bless them.I m going to shirdi since 2004 but everytime i come empty handed.See how unlucky i am.Poor me.

    • my dear please dont feel depressed sure u will get a job with blessings of baba have faith on him.chant sai name.dont allow ur brain to get all these doubts what u have mentioned above

      our sai will give u all what is good for u
      in free time prepare for interview quetions and apply jobs in different websites ..
      make ur self srong
      do ur trails sincearly and leave it to baba he will give u in correct time

      all the best dont leave faith on baba
      om sai ram

    • dont be heart broken surely baba will bless you with job..9 years of wait i know is really painful and definitely baba knows your pain he is waiting fo a right job at right moment…please have faith and try for interviews..try this just a small suggestion from my side
      1.have udi daily.
      2.Read satcharitha in shiridi in dwarakamai…and feel that baba is with each chapter..and just see the miracle..
      3.donate as much as possible and feed dogs…which is most dearest to baba..
      his blessings are on the way dear..
      donot worry your good days will come soon..i pray baba to bless you..
      om sai raam
      do not worry and lose hope..

    • Sai has great plans for u. Dont say ur unlucky. He is calling u to shiridi since2004.ur the luckiest and most loved by sai.

    • Though all of you have given suggestions to the other devotee i feel happy and consoled on reading the replies as i was the one who actually posted about job.I will pray for you also sister dont worry.You are lucky to see baba and touch the sand of shirdi since 2004 i dont know whether i will be lucky enough to step in there one day!

    • dear devotee this is for you also(one who posted it..)
      1..have udi daily.
      2.Read satcharitha in shiridi in dwarakamai…and feel that baba is with each chapter..and just see the miracle..
      3.donate as much as possible and feed dogs…which is most dearest to baba..
      his blessings are on the way dear..
      donot worry your good days will come soon..i pray baba to bless you..
      om sai raam
      do not worry and lose hope..

    • Thanks a lot bro/sis for your response and advice for me also.You are really sweet for taking time to reply.Baba's blessings are definitely for you no doubt as u r selfless.


  13. Experience very well shared… May Baba bless you with all the strength required to succeed in your divine goals of serving society, Wish you Good Luck

  14. baba
    , why in this world evil people live more and innocent or young people
    die early ? will any body tell me ? why this things happen ? why wicked
    cunning selfish people have long life and innocent people die ? please
    tell me baba. i am much depressed .

  15. baba please give my son avik happiness. he is going through though time.make him to forget and move on in life. send him an angel.pull him towards you.
    please dun allow any bad thoughts or satan to come near him

  16. Baba – I give up. Maybe I don't have patience. But you know what is happening. It's not like I have all the time for being patience. I used to think my parents love me and I should keep them happy. Now I feel it's best if I'm not there. They'll be happy without me. I'm just a source of pain. I've been praying so much. I've always accepted whatever happened as my due. This time it's important for my life. But apparently no one cares. Anyway, I give up. I wish I could run away somewhere, but then my mind still won't stop thinking. So many devotees are so lucky with their experiences. I wish I was one of them. But I no longer have the patoence to wait and see.

  17. Om Sai Ram.. thankyou Sai Baba for blessing me with so much love 🙂
    love you too Sai Baba!! Bless us all always 😀

  18. Dear Sister….Thank you for sharing ur experience…you past karma consequences have come to an end so you have realised his presence in your life. Nothing can stop you with him by your side. Baba will surely bless you to achieve your goal, especially when your goal is so selfess and helpful to the society. No matter how many obstacles you face in your future, remember that it is Baba who is taking you forward and looking after you so relax, with firm faith go forward in life. Everything will be good from now…

    Om Sai Saranam

  19. Beautifully narrated experience, don't worry, if baba has taken you into his fold, he is sure to rid you of pain and fulfil your wishes…Om Sai Ram

  20. Baba, you really cheated my parents and me…..that I will never forget in my life time. And now you are asking to celebrate for other's sake. what is this siksha for me at this stage? why you are sitting in a laughing pose and sattiring me. Are you a god? Do you have any feelings for your devotees? You are definitely a demon and acting as a god. You have become a rich man's god now. What papa have we done? Why did you screw up our lives like this? Make it reverse, she should not have done that. This should all be acting to make us afraid. She should come back with out doing that wrong. She should say that she did wrong and never leave us and object us. Please ask her to come back soon if you are a god baba, otherwise don't ever come into our lives again.

  21. Very nice experience! It is very good that you have such a noble ambition to help people who are suffering and despite going through a lot, you don't bear ill will towards others. There were many who came to Shirdi and in Shirdi itself who spoke mean and hurtful things to Baba and His devotees, but Baba wasn't affected by them in the slightest. Baba will surely show you this path and Baba will help you pursue this noble ambition. Om Sai Ram!

  22. Dear lady, I am sure that now you have surrendered to our Deva, He will guide you to your dreams 🙂

    O Deva, Thank You for blessing us with a wonderful family and friends that care for us. Help us be ever gentle and well mannered to the people that we come across O Sadguru.

    Thank You for a beautiful life O Sai 🙂

    Jai Sairam

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