My Experience – Anonymous Devotee

Anonymous Devotee from India says: Om Shri Sai Ram. Om Sai Namo Namaha. Shri Sai Namo Namaha. Jai Jai Sai Namo Namaha. Sadhguru Sai Namo Namaha. Hi Hetal Didi, pranams to you. This is Sowmya from India. I feel very bad for my inability to keep in constant touch with our blog. Still every time I enter our blog a new air, new hope spreads into my life. My heartfelt thanks for doing such a wonderful service to all of us.

First of all I start writing this experience with innumerable sorry. Please pardon me Baba for my senseless attitude, as a normal human being I prayed You with all dedication when I wanted something. But forget You all of a sudden, when I got what I wanted. Sorry sorry Baba, I know You will never hate Your children, but please forgive me for my disgraceful actions.


I request all Sai devotees to read my previous experience in our blog. As given in the experience, with Baba’s blessings I cleared 1st group of Chartered Accountancy and got exemption in one paper in 2nd group in May 2012. Then I started preparing for the remaining 3 papers in 2nd group and my exams were due in November. I prayed Baba with all love and dedication and worked hard.

The exam days started nearing. As no one can escape the madness of mind, I felt so proud of my preparations and was so confident of writing the exams well. The ego sprouted so fast and I started dwelling with it. November 12th, 2012 – Advanced Management Accounting started. I saw the question paper and I could figure out most of the questions in it. When I started writing, I could not produce what I am conceiving in mind. I struggled to finish off each and every question. I striked out the answers terribly and felt extremely bad of my presentation. I felt like shouting that I don’t want to write this exam and tear away the paper. I did not know what exactly happened to me during the exam. Somehow I managed to complete the paper and walked towards home with all disappointment as I took an oath that this is the last attempt that will decide whether my Chartered Accountancy career continues or ends here.

I cried before Baba as why it happened like this. When I started introspecting, I felt the truth as how I was filled with ego that I am going to do everything without thinking of Baba’s blessings and presence so far in my life. I moaned to my close friend Divya about all these. She patiently listened to all my foolishness. She said Baba will not punish you so severely for this. He just wanted to remind you that you are going in a wrong way at the very beginning itself. So stay calm and peaceful and have fullest faith on Him.

Then I realised all my mistakes and wrote the other exams well with Baba’s compassion. At the end of exams I felt that if I clear of the first paper, definitely I can get through the group. But I did not have the heart to pray that I should clear the paper. I got fixed that whatever Baba gives me I will accept whole heartedly. The results were supposed to be declared on January 21st.

Another close friend of mine – Shwetha, who is also an ardent Sai devotee, called me a week before results. She is such an optimistic personality. She asked me to visualise that I have become a Chartered Accountant and cherish and enjoy it as a powerful visualisation. I felt so happy and took it as Baba’s words and started visualising it every day.

On January 20th 2013, I went to a temple called Daadikombu near Dindigul, Tamilnadu with my close neighbour. Only very few perumal temples have Kala Bhairavar and this temple is one among them. I can’t explain the experience I got in that temple. The most beautiful perumal I have ever seen. In the dark sanctum sanctorum only with the light of diyas the perumal and amma looked out of the world. I felt all ecstatic and horripilate at the sight.

The temple, idols and sculptures are all so divine and lively as though they are standing and talking to us in a human form. At that moment I felt that I need nothing in my life, even if I die now, it would be a happy ending. Then the sun rose to January 21st 2013. Usually the results are announced around 2 pm. I got call from Divya around 12 pm that results were announced. I told my roll number and my heart started trembling fast. She shouted in joy that you have passed. Oh my god. I am a Chartered Accountant, my life’s wish, aim, career, joy. It has happened. The day has come. I cried in joy and danced like a kid here and there. She started telling the marks – Advanced Management Accounting – 67. Oh man, the paper I feared that would be a cause for failure. I got highest marks in it. My total for the group is 231 out of 400. It’s not just a success, a success with colourful marks. A success I have not dreamt off.

At that moment I realised, no one can understand what you are doing Baba. Only You know what is best for us. Even though we cry, pray, accuse, praise You for something, You know when, where and how to give it to us. The plan, sketch, screen play You are designing for each one of our lives are beyond imagination. I am a vermin, who does not deserve so much in life, still You shower Your unconditional love and blessings on me.

Then the next phase of life began – job. I attended interview of a famous educational institution of a cement conglomerate and got through it. But due to some reasons, I did not accept the employment. After that in the campus interview and other interviews I attended, I could not succeed in it. I felt so bad of myself and was puzzled how my career is going to be. Then I was called for an interview from an international accounting firm in Coimbatore. On the interview day, I had this thought only, “Baba, You are going to talk, I will not bother as how I am going to perform, whether I will get this job or not. If You want this job for me, You will do whatever is needed.” I did the written test well. The HR was so sweet and made me so comfortable. I answered everything without any fear and inhibitions. Then I was sent for interview with the Managing Director.

The MD is such a down to earth human being. He shared all his life’s experiences and I got so inspired with the way he accepts and live life. For the first time, I felt so good of myself after attending an interview. He said that they are happy about my profile and wanted to put me in a leadership position. Some people around me discouraged saying that the pay is very low, you can try for something else. But I felt this is a place where human beings are respected for what they are. This is a place where I will find a new me. This is a place where I will grow and flourish. So I kept aside all the criticisms and joined the company. Now I have lived two successful months in the company and I am very much happy about the work culture and learning here. During my job search, I was fixed with Chennai and Bangalore only. But Baba had different plans and brought me here. The one, which is tailored for me, which make me understand myself better and better.

After all these happy events, I totally forgot that I promised to write my experience after I clear the exams. One day my sister asked why did not you write your experience still? I felt it as a slap from Baba “Idiot you have forgotten me.”. I can’t do anymore like this Baba. Every minute You assure me that You are with me always – Antharyami. I need not search You anywhere outside. My heartfelt and sincere thanks for giving me beautiful persons in my life. Without them I am not what I am today. Koti koti pranams Baba.

I would like to specially mention about my friend Shwetha here. Her devotion and pure bhakthi on Baba is un-comparable. She is the one who always reminds me that I have a long way to go in bhakthi and it is not just prayers alone, it is the highest form of love. The pure love runs in the entire family. Her cute daughter Ananya – 2 years old. I always feel like prostrating before the kid. When she wakes up in the morning, she opens her eyes before the portrait of Sai and always chant Om Sai Shri Sai. Even the hardest of hearts melt on hearing the little one chanting namah. Whenever she is taken to Sai temple, she dances with joy and run all around there. She will cry like anything when leaving out of the temple.

I don’t know what Baba has done to the cute kid. I don’t know what exactly Baba means to her. Such a pure love is a salvation for all of us. It is beyond explanation. Such an unconditional love without expectation. You choose Your devotee Baba. With all devotion and respect I bow before You Sainath. You are our way. You are our life. You are our destiny. Without You, this life is just a vacuum. JAI BOLO SAI MAHARAJ KI.


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  2. Blessed to be reading this.. Had tears in my eyes… "You are our way. You are our life. You are our destiny. Without You, this life is just a vacuum"- This is so true..

    OM SAI RAM!!

  6. Dear Sai Devotee,

    Very well written experience. Congrats on Passing the CA exam, I know how difficult it is. Its all BABA's blessing. All the best with your new job!

    BABA, PLEASE bless my husband and me with a child soon. The wait is just becoming unbearable. Please shower your blessing.
    JAI SAI RAM

  8. Dear Sai Devotee,

    Very well written experience. Congrats on Passing the CA exam, I know how difficult it is. Its all BABA's blessing. All the best with your new job!

    BABA, PLEASE bless my husband and me with a child soon. The wait is just becoming unbearable. Please shower your blessing.
    JAI SAI RAM

  9. OM SAI RAM

    VERY NIce experiences….Every kid must be raised like Ananya…SO Sweet. It all Baba's blessings…

    Love you Deva. (h)

  10. Om sai ram. May Sai Bless you in your future. Beautifully Explained. Sai Please shower your blessings to all your devotees.

  11. Very nice experience and very well narrated…I has tears while reading your experience…thanks a lot for sharing with us…:Om Sairam….Love You a Lot Saima….:):)

  12. Om Sai Ram.

    Dear Sai Family, i came across a request floated in my company regarding help for a small kid suffering from Cancer. Thought of posting it here, so that the child can get all of our Prayers and Good wishes along with any monetary help. This is a genuine case and the contact details is also shared. Let us all pray for the speedy recovery of the small child. Baba bless us all always. Baba please cure the child soon and bless the whole family. May all of us be always blessed with good health and a happy and long life by your benevolent grace. Loads of love to you dearest BABA.

    Sir
    I am Magesh I work in automobiles company, the name of my company trident Hyundai no – 111, 124/ 125 'b' Narayanapura k.r pyramid Bangalore. I work here as Sr finance executive car loan department. As my son is undergoing treatment for Neuroblastoma stage 3 type of cancer. He is 6 year old. We are in Manipal hospital from two months. It is,a long go treatment as per doctor advice we have to do 6 chemotherapy & surgery & bone moretransplant. It I'll cost around 15 lakhs. Since we had some insurance covered from hdfc ergo up to 4 lacks which is already is been used .on 24 of September we r taking for is 3 chemotherapy we are praying to god for is miracle to heal completely. I am seeking help from you as much as you can.

    My bank account detail

    Bank Name: Oriental bank of commerce. Sadasivnagar branch Bangalore.
    Account no 10842041026444.
    IFSC Code : ORBC0101084 (5th character is zero)
    Account holder’s name: Magesh d.

    Thanks & Regard
    Magesh
    9880962422

    OM SAI SHRI SAI JAI JAI SAI

    • Iam a daughtee of sai ma.i wished i had the amount of money u need right now.iam not even earning.but still whatever little i can offer i will do it.and i hope everyone else out here does a little bit.maybe baba is asking from us.
      All the prayers with ur son
      Om sai ram

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  13. Jai Sai Ram
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    LU BABA

  14. Very beautiful experience….. u r so blessed child… loved the way u described ur friends daughters nature…may sai babas blessing remains always with his children.. om sai ram

  15. Hey Baba..Hey Deva… my parents are crying to see me.. but I cant go home because I am a jobless man. They even dontt know this. Since March I am trying hard for job but all efforts are in vein. Every Day I have to cheat my parents about my home coming. Now I am unable to handle this. Baba give me a good job as soon as possible so that I can go home. Baba just care for my mother's tear. I need job urgently..
    OM Sai Ram…

  17. Wow what a delightful experience , very well written, I could feel the power of your bhakthi flowing inside me too. Baba please bless your children . Thank you deva , for making me write different comments for this blog postings……….

  18. Hi Sowmya thanks for sharing wonderful experience. As u mentioned how the kid is loving Baba unconditionally, hope even I too start loving Baba unconditionally. Baba please help me to make "AnthakaranaShuddi" with your chanting, so that I can be in bliss all the time irrespective of situations. Baba please help me to meditate.

  19. wonderful experience..made my day….baba please take care of my job, u know i did everything Sincerely in last one month .please make my bosses happy about my work….
    Om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram.

  20. Wow! what an experience….even i do feel the same feeling when i got sleected for Mtech in JNU. Really, its only sai… my guru, my god, my everything…who can make it happen…
    Om sai ram….

  24. hey Sowmya congratulations for ur success in ur C.A and in ur present job..feeling very happy for u and a beautiful post i must say..very well written sowmya..BABA has been really kind to u and given u the place to work.. i can really feel ur sentiments coz not only baba blessed me the best job but also a very positive and harmonious work culture and some wonderful people to work with just like u have explained..Thanku Baba for our jobs and success thanku

  29. BEAUTIFUL……………LOVE U BABA………….PLS DONT LEAVE ME…………BLESS ME WITH GOOD JOB SOON………PLS CAL US TO SHIRDI SOON HELP ME BABA……..PROTECT MY FAMILY N HUBBY

  30. Very nicely explained by sowmya….May sai baba bless us all.

    Baba ji please be with us alws.

    Love u

    OM SAI RAM

  31. Dear Sai Devotee….
    Your experience clearly indicates that baba takes care of his devotees all the times….whenever we face any pblms… Its Baba's way of teaching us to come to the right path….he tells us always not to loose faith and patience….he will solve it through his own miracles as what happened in our case….I was puzzled abt my Palm..suddenly reading ur experiences..feels like baba telling me not to worry…and he will make the impossible possible by his Leela's…. Thanks heetal ji, sister soumya and all devotees……Om Sai Ram

  32. Hi Baba,

    Bless all your childerns

    Evey body looking for your Blessing

    Please give Patience and Faith on you

    Om Sri Sairam
    Om Sri Sairam

  34. Dear Sai Devotee Sowmya,
    That is how i would love to call you for this post da… Tears in eyes on reading the experience and the way you have narrated it… I ve not done anything much.. When I forgot Baba you remimded me about him by gifting the BABA's sticker with green dress… When you forgot him he made me to call you and remind da.. Its purely his wish… And yes Ananyaa has some blissful connection with Baba… Let Baba be with her and bless her always…. Let Baba's grace fall on you in every step of your life da..

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      OM SAIRAM,OM SAIRAM,OM SAIRAM.

      PLS SAVE MY LIFE BABA…I LITERALLY NEED UR HELP, SINCE 2 YRS WAITING FOR UR MIRACLE TO HAPPEN BABA..PLS SAVE MY LIFE . PLS SOLVE ALL MY PROBLEMS AND MAKE MY LIFE BEAUTIFUL WITH GOOD HEALTH, LOVELY ,CARING ,TRUSTWORTHY HUSBAND AND KIDS. PLS CHNAGE HIS MIND AND MAKE HIM AS PERSON WITH GOOD QUALITIES.

      PLS SAVE ME BABA…JAI SAIRAM

  36. baba bcoz of u m living my life everyday n thanking u .but now its unbearable for my husband's behavior towards me.what is my fault i don't know.what mistake i have done in my last birth tht m facing such kind of problem in my married life.i too want happiness baba,if its not there then take my life.

  37. hi,
    i had a darshan on 28 september 2013 in shridi. this was my firrst and might be the last visit to shirdi. Am ending my voyage of sai journey here . Am totally fedup of what ever happened in last 2 years of life being a sai devotee.Its all ended there in with this shirdi tip i had on last saturday. Hopefully and surely i wish to forget this difficult phase (Sai phase) and moveon like any non- sai devotee. feels better only once am away from his path . Whenever i see him it will remind me this difficult phase of life and nothing else . Thanks a lot Bhramandanayaka for your generous blessing for past 2 years of my life.

    • devotee pls dun lose hope. think that u are pssing away all ur past karmas.
      see very soon a miacle ll take plabe and you will get all the happiness. there will be look back for u .
      one day difinently you will write your experenice in this blog.
      om sri sai ram
      allah malik

  38. Jai Sai Ram ji ki to all,

    Dear Sai sister your experience left me spell bound. My tears did not stop for a long time. May Baba ji guide you and stay with you forever. I would also like to mention about your friend and her little one. I am sure they both have special blessings of Baba ji. May Baba ji bless them too.
    We are all very fortunate to have Sai Ma's Divine shade on us.

    Baba ji many thanks for calling me to the mandir today. I thoroughly enjoyed sitting in front of you and praying.Many thanks for everything. You are our everything. Please keep us in Your Divine shelter always.

    Sai tere baare mein kya main kahoon
    Jitni bhi koshish kar loon
    Asmarth main hoon
    Lekin apne baare mein main ye keh sakti hoon
    Meri aukaatye hai ki main
    Sai ki beti hoon

    Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai
    Love You Babaji
    Sabse ZYAADa ji

  40. Such a beautiful experience. Baba bless you and the little one, forever 🙂

    To the devotee in the comments, I am sure that He decides when you should come and when you should leave. I still have faith and will hope to see you post a good news here, someday, soon.

    O Deva, bless us so our hearts are filled with love and our desires are vanquished. Bless us O Sadguru so that we may see divinity in every person who crosses our path.

    Thank You for being with us and for all the Love & Peace O Sai 🙂

    Jai Sairam
    Sharma

  41. Devotees i need ur help..
    i got a dream today morning as udi is falling from my ceiling and try to draw some picture. the picture was incomplete it was like S sign .
    wat does this tell.
    om sri sai ram

  43. By reading all the above comments i feel that everybody has problem in life , but ever heared of any peson who has problem as life . thats me only. Right from the day i started devoting myself to him , within two months he gave me suprise "I lost my job".Right from that till now i dint get a proper job. Simply jobless for almost 2 years being elder son. Even in that situation not only me, my whole family prayed with full faith and patience to him.sai charithra prayan, vrat almost continuously till now Result he again gave suprise" my brother lost his job". even after all this we dint stop our prayers or ourpayan or vrat.

    But after all this sai has gave a double damaka suprise "my dad lost his job". this is where, particularly i got fed up with him. he fooled not only me but my whole family by downplaying in everyone's career and personal life.At the time of losing my job , my parents were looking for bride. As everybody knows what people speaks, in our locality if someone is stopping such activities in between(bride hunting). Being an well known couples for kind hearted and dignity , they lost everything slowly.
    Now the height of height is Baba is calling to shirdi. After all the pain and suffering that we had gone through ,particularly myself never felt (happy or sad) about this baba's call. what ever we have earned (respect, dignity, good name etc) is totally vanished. nothing is left now in our life, except loneliness and frustration. but my parents feel that he has called to end the suffering and to give a wonderful life.
    Now they have booked ticket for both myself and my bro just one month before.But whole heartily i would say that am not convinced with that. whenever i think of him, i feel frustrated,betrayed.Even i feel that he is the only main reason for the downfall of my family.I will never ever forget this phase (Sai's phase) of my life till my death.when ever i think of it, my tears rolls down my eyes.
    Latest news is that i have decided to cancel this shirdi trip. Will try to accept this phse of life and move on.
    For every pian there is a gain. Due to family circumstance i had to join my pervious company where i had been kicked out 2 years back. Its a really a great feeling that Sai has left from from where i had took him. As every body say Life is a circle, mine a best example.

    One more ritual things is left now , The Shirdi Trip. For the sake of my parents i had to go there on coming friday(27-09-13) and put an end to Sai Chapter in my life. I really really need to start a new life right from scratch, Where there will be no prayers, no prayan, no vrat., nothing.

    i had my darshan on 28 september 2013 in shridi. this was my firrst and might be the last visit to shirdi. Am ending my voyage of sai journey here . Am totally fedup of what ever happened in last 2 years of life being a sai devotee.Its all ended there in with this shirdi tip i had on last saturday. Hopefully and surely i wish to forget this difficult phase (Sai phase) and moveon like any non- sai devotee. feels better only once am away from his path . Whenever i see him it will remind me this difficult phase of life and nothing else . Thanks a lot Bhramandanayaka for your generous blessing for past 2 years of my life.

    • I appreciate that you have visited Shirdi inpsite of all the odds. Please leave everything to Sai now and do what you can at your best. Baba is there with us. So, dont worry. Om Sai Ram

  44. Om Sai Nathaya Namaha
    Wonderful and well drafted experience.
    Baba Help me in getting my ticket confirmed.I want to go home and help my mother.Please baba help me.Now every thing is in your hand.Do some miracles.I also want to do navratri.But here it is not possible.Please send me home tomorrow.Plese listen to my request.I have faith in you baba.
    Om Sai Ram

  45. hi all,
    i do strongly feels that gender really makes a huge difference for saibaba. coz, most of the experience are from female devotee , it shows he has more grace and mercy on them than the other. i do have expereinced it from the day i started following him. Does really gender matter to him a lot?

  47. Dear Devotee………….for our beloved baba evryone is one d same….gender doesnt matter but it is your faith that really matters
    OM SAI RAM

  48. Very nice experience! Although you never thought you would pass the exam, Baba had other plans for you and always reminded you of His presence through your friends who were Baba devotees. I'm sure you will do well as Baba has planned this for you and Baba will make sure you are successful as a CA. Om Sai Ram!

  49. sai ma i will never hate u even though toughest situation came in my life i will have hope that my baba will never leave me.

  50. THANK YOU EVERY ONE..Accept my sincere pranams all sai bandus..All of you make me realise the presence of baba every second in life..JAI SAI RAM..JAI JAI SAI RAM..

    Sowmya…SAI KI BETI

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