Referring to the first experience, I had to share one more thing. I didn’t get a chance to see Chetan for the last time after his death due to some reasons. I was upset regarding I couldn’t see him. Few months passed and I got a chance to visit Shirdi along with my parents. At Shirdi, after Darshan, as we were walking at temple premises, I have seen a person very similar to Chetan. For a moment I was confused and shocked. I thought it was all Baba’s Leela. I just followed him for some time and then later I had to go back to my parents. I felt happy after seeing him and from that day there was no more pinch in my heart because Baba has given me an opportunity to see a person resembling him. Thank You Baba. I would like to share few more experiences here.
Experience – 1
One day, I was preparing for my final year exams. I got a phone call that my friend’s brother has died. He was suffering from some kind of disease from long time. So I went to meet her. I sat there for some time and later all were getting ready to go for cremation grounds. They asked me to join them. I hesitatingly accepted, as in my family girls don’t go to cremation ground. My friend and her family left first and later we started. We had to go by walk as there was no proper transportation. The route, in which we were walking and the area, was totally new to me. It took ten minutes to reach there but I didn’t remember the route. After reaching the place, I stood outside and I felt like calling my mom once before entering the ground. I called her and she said to return back immediately. So I told her friends that I don’t want to come inside and I would leave.
Now the thing was that I don’t know the way to go back and her friends are also are new to the area, and all other relatives went inside. I didn’t know what to do as there were no autos also. I have just prayed Baba in my mind to show me the way and started walking. As I was walking I have seen a very big painting of Baba on the temple wall. I have told him “I trusted You blindly and now it’s your responsibility to show me the way”. I continued walking and to my surprise after walking for 3-4 minutes, I came to the road which I was much familiar with and also it leads to the main road and I was totally wondered how it was possible. The thing is that I didn’t ask anyone on my way about the route. Then I remembered Baba and I smiled at myself.
Experience – 2
There was a guy living in his relatives home next to my door .He was also as same age of mine. We spoke couple of times. He was good and I treated him as a friend. Nearly two years passed we spoke occasionally, and from one day he started flirting and was trying to misbehave with me. I avoided him maximum, but as he was living to the flat next to mine, we had to face each other sometime or the other. One day, my mom and my brother were out of station (went for my cousin’s marriage). My dad was with me. Being the exam time I couldn’t attend the marriage. In the evening, my dad went to the office and also he had a party to attend in the night. He said he would be late. I was alone in the home preparing for my exam. My neighbor aunt came to speak with me for sometime as I was alone and she was the relative of that guy.
Even he came to my home later, as I and aunt were speaking. He was just staring at me, smiling at me weirdly. I started feeling uncomfortable. Later aunt was leaving and she called him also. She just left to her flat and this guy was standing at the entrance itself, giving an evil smile and was not moving. I didn’t know what to do. I just closed the door on his face. After an hour, he came again to return me something that aunt wants to give me. He was continuously knocking my door. I thought for a moment, if I open the door, then I don’t know what would happen. So, I decided not to take any chance. He was ringing the bell and he stood there for a long time, but I didn’t open. I was very much tensed and I was praying Baba. I thought of calling my mom, but dropped the idea as she would worry. I called up my friend and told her everything and she advised me better not to open the door. After few minutes, I called my dad that when he would come home, he said he is going to the party, and would be late. So I couldn’t say anything, but I was praying Baba deep inside my heart.
That guy left after sometime and I was disturbed little bit and I was thinking that he may return back. After half an hour, I heard the bell rang. I went near the main door and peeped out of the hole, it was my dad. I felt happy, opened the door and I asked why he didn’t go to the party. He answered me “there was a discussion with my colleague about the party and also about you, and he advised me to go home and accompany you, as you was alone” . My joy knew no bounds and I thanked Baba a lot in my heart. My dad for the next few hours cracked a lot of jokes and made me laugh as much as possible, not only that he also took the pain of preparing dinner for me and it was the first time I had tasted dad’s food as my dad never cooks. The thing is I didn’t tell anything to my dad, but still as Baba, my guru, knows everything. He gave what I required at that moment, (1.assurance, that nothing will happen, 2. made me feel better by making me laugh, 3. filled my hunger) by coming in the form of my dad. It might be a small issue, but it means a lot to me. Baba we all love You a lot. Please bless everyone.
Experience – 3
One day there was a lot of pain in my both legs below my knees. I didn’t find any reason for the pain. The pain continued for 3 days. I couldn’t concentrate on any work properly. At the end of the third day, I was praying Baba about my pain. I closed my eyes to sleep, than I saw Baba. He sat on my bed. He took my legs on His lap and He started to press my legs. He told me, “I am the one, who is going to reduce the pain of your leg and I am the one who is going solve the problems of your life”. I then opened my eyes, my pain started reducing. Within few minutes, there was a great relief and by the next morning the pain totally vanished. I thanked Baba for giving me such wonderful experience. The word, which He told me, that He is the one who solves the entire problem, is not only meant for me, but for all devotees here. Om Sairam. May Baba bless everyone here.
Experience – 4
This experience happened recently. I had a very close friend. We were friends since years. One day I realized that I had feelings for him and also he was in love with some other girl. They had a relation for some time, but meanwhile they got broke up. In this time of consoling, I had fell in love with him. I know this would be quite embarrassing to share. A year passed, but I didn’t let know my feelings for him. One more thing is that he used to never spoke about his girl with me. I only knew that he got broke up. I asked many times he never told anything about her. He used to say that I would not understand. Even I stopped poking him and felt that he would open up someday. Day by day my feelings got increased, but I never told him. After completing of our B. Tech, he left for USA to pursue MS. I started asking Baba to let me know whether this would happen or not. I have put a time of one year and asked Baba to let me know in this time.
Few months passed, nothing happened and I was growing restless day by day. I wanted to tell him, but I was felt aback that if he didn’t like the proposal, I may lose the friendship with him. So I kept quite. One day I was thinking about him and was trying to sleep, and then I saw Baba approaching me. He told me-“He is only your good friend, speaking to him once in a while is not a mistake. When I am protecting you all the time, how would you think that I would leave in this issue? It is my responsibility to take care of you”. I only remembered those words. Baba spoke more, but I forgot. I thought again it was the trick played by mind just to pacify my heart.
After one month, he came to chat, as we both were chatting, a topic about marriage arised. He then told that he is still in relation with her and he wants to marry her, if everything would go fine. Later I thought this is all Baba’s Leela because the person, who didn’t open his mouth for nearly two and half years, had now told about his relation. Baba just made me to know through him that it won’t happen. Baba had actually told before in that dream, but I didn’t take it seriously. As days passed, I started accepting the reality around me. Sometimes I used to cry near Baba, why this is happening to me but slowly I came out of it and felt that Baba words are more important than anything else. I started sticking to those words. I reduced my feelings towards him and now I am fine. The thing is no one knows about my love towards him. I told only to Baba, but today I felt like sharing in this blog.
I had two love failures, but I had to go with my life. I cannot stop at any case, as life is not about sacrificing ourselves for a person that I understood later. I left everything to Baba. I had put my entire life at His feet. Now it is upto Him where to take me. I just want to follow Him without
questioning. I just wanted to tell to the people here, who are praying for their love to succeed that please if Baba says no to your love, then please accept His words. Because He knows what the truth is. He is just taking care of everyone like His own kids. Please listen to Him. Om Sri Sairam.