Sai sister Sheetal ji from India says: Om Sai Ram. My Name is Sheetal. I am posting my experience for the first time, I am basically a student, hence my experience is also related to my study (i.e. how Sai Baba can help His devotees in whichever situation they seek His blessings).
Since I was in 12th std, I always had a horrible fear towards my exams. It is not that I am dull at studying; in fact I make my best preparations for exam because I know I won’t be able to handle the pressure. If I am unprepared, but inspite of all I used to breakdown as my exam approaches. Till I completed my graduation, I was not that much inclined towards Sai Baba. Then I took admission for professional exams. I used to work also side by side, so it became very difficult for me to handle both simultaneously. It happened and started from there when one of my colleagues planned for Shirdi trip in December 2010. I was very excited as I always wanted to go there and even heard that unless Baba Himself wants you to visit Him, you can’t go there. And to my astonishment, everything happened so quickly and even my parents didn’t interrupt even once. I had wonderful experience visiting Shirdi. Still I will say that I visited there because I also wanted to pass. It is a human nature that we usually do something because we want something.
I slowly started getting inclined towards Baba, but my devotion still was not the ultimate one and this is how Baba tested me. Slowly my exam neared and I became more particular taking Baba’s name. I used to pray Him, please help me to clear my exams as I was not well prepared for it this time due to my job. I went for two papers. Initially I didn’t even sleep for 2 days continuously and suddenly before the 3rd paper evening, I got painful headache. Next morning, I have to go for exam and no leave for the next paper. And I didn’t study even a word. Fear struck in my mind and heart. I can’t even recall what I studied. Time was passing like air. I cried and cried a lot and fell sick. I didn’t go to write the paper as well. Now I blamed Baba that why didn’t You made everything correct? Why all this happened? I left praying to Him and I know this will sound very absurd, but I used to think that everybody says Baba helps the one, who seeks Him. But why this was not happened with me. Slowly I forgot about everything.
One fine morning, Baba made me realize that how selfish we become when it comes to devotion. I just woke up in the morning and saw that my brother and everybody in family were watching cartoon. It was Sai Baba’s cartoon especially made for children to see with different small Sai Baba’s stories. There Sai Baba was saying that my devotees always want me to help them. And if I delay in that, they think I forgot them and won’t help. And they leave me and go away. But I never leave the one, who prays wholeheartedly to me. Now hearing this, I realized my mistake and whole day thought about this. I regretted what I did and immediately apologized Baba that it will never happen again and I will not blame Him ever in my life henceforth.
After the above incident, I made firm decision that whatever the situation arises, I would never doubt Sai Baba. He has His own way of helping His devotees, which we people at times don’t understand. And you know what? Due to His blessings, now I managed to clear stage 3 in first attempt, which was much more difficult to one referred above and you know this time without any hurry and worry, I just left everything to Baba and He stayed with me all the time, when I needed Him.