Anonymous Devotee from USA says:
This year, I was diagnosed with cancer. At first, when I was sick, no doctor could tell what was wrong with me. My blood report and all tests were normal. I am young, non-smoker, non-drinker, vegetarian, do exercise regularly and no prior health problem. So it was a surprise. When I was sick in the beginning, I was regularly praying to Baba to help me get better and was wondering, why He was not hearing me and stopping my illness. But when I was diagnosed, I realized, if He would have stopped my sickness. I would have never gone to a doctor and would let the cancer grow and kill me. Instead, whenever I would ask Questions at the Sai question answer Blessings page, I will get answer to read Vishnu Sahasranama. It happened three times at the same time, so I started hearing Vishnu Sahasranama on youtube. I also read online about a woman, who was in coma from chemo and came to her senses after her mother and mother-in-law read Vishnu Sahasranama everyday to her. I was sure Baba was saying something to me. I just did not know exactly what. But I knew He wanted to heal me. And I remembered how He let Shama get the taste of Vishnu Sahasranama. So I felt very lucky.
In 2011, I went to Argentina for Christmas. On my way back, my flight was delayed, as a result I was stuck in Chile, where I drank some water at the airport. I also had food on plane. As soon as I got off in Miami, I started having diarrhea. For 6 months, I was very sick with food-poisoning and I went to three doctors, who told me it was common to catch parasites from food and water in developing nations just like in India. Even my blood report came out normal. Because I am young and of overall good health, doctors were not suspecting cancer. But I kept thinking there was something and kept going back to the doctors to ask why I was not getting better. It was again Baba’s Leela that this third doctor gave me the card of the top colon surgeon and told me to meet her as she is one of the top surgeons in the state and can do colonoscopy and figure it out.
The meeting with her was after 2 weeks. I met her in her office and she checked me and put me on an emergency colonoscopy to figure it out, because she did not feel good. Her office arranged for it the very next day as there was no time to waste on these things. On my way back from her office, I clanged on to my boyfriend as I was very nervous and he kept assuring me they would find nothing in the colonoscopy. The next day, after colonoscopy, she told me I had cancer. She told me it was treatable and not to worry, she would cut me up and stitch me up and I had to do chemo and radiation. My mind went blank. My BF, who was at my bedside, asked her if it spread anywhere. She said they would do a CT Scan to find it out after the biopsy is done. That weekend my BF kept telling me that we would beat it and Baba is with us and since He found it out for us, He must be wanting to cure me. We went to both temples of Baba that we have in our town and we prayed to Him to cure me. I took UDI and ate it. We kept it hidden from all family members and told only a handful of friends and asked them to pray for me. I knew Baba will not leave me in the middle. I just had that faith. I was scared but also I knew Baba had plans for me. That night, I started reading the Vishnu Sahasranama instead of listening to it on youtube. The biopsy was done the next day and next week, I had a CT scan. The doctor's office called us with the report and told us to be there in an hour if we wanted to see the report as they were closing. Her office is almost an hour drive, but my BF drove so fast that we reached in 30 minutes. When we got the report, my BF went over it as I could not read it clearly and he hugged me tightly because it said the cancer spread to my lymph nodes (Stage III) but my pancreas, stomach, lungs etc were alright. We thought we were fine. But seeing us rejoicing, the doctor's assistant pointed to us the paragraph about liver where it said they are suspecting metastasis to liver (Stage IV) and they needed to do an MRI to rule it out. We came out of her office dejected. We went with the report to Baba's temple and I placed the report at his feet. I ate some UDI and asked Him to cure me and to make the liver not be cancerous. My friend called me from Toronto and told me to start reading Hanuman Chalisa at least 4 times. I have the Chalisa memorized from reading it for many years, so I started doing it. The next day was Tuesday. I was at Baba's temple and I thought I should do my Chalisa, when I went back home. There was one more girl at the temple besides me. I finished praying and was just about to leave, when she asked a friend of hers to turn the music on. He asked which song and she said Hanuman Chalisa. I could not believe it. I sat back in the temple and finished the Chalisa. Then I told her it was surely a Leela that Baba read my mind and you asked for Chalisa of all songs. Reminded me of the time, when Hemadpant wanted to do Ramnaam all day and Baba made sure everything that day had to do with Ramnaam. I felt very happy and she and I exchanged numbers and we became very good friends since that day. She is a Hanuman bhakta and we have a Hanuman Murti at Baba's temple. And we decided to do Chalisa again. I had meeting with oncologist the next day and she told us if liver did have cancer, it was still not a deal breaker, but I would have to go thru combination chemo and an additional surgery. We came home and I was writing my message to Baba like I always did and told Him again to do His miracle and let it be cancer free. The next day, it was my ultrasound with my surgeon. She saw the images and told us that I had cancer for eight years. She said some Divine power intervened, otherwise I would have never known I had cancer as the tumor was slow moving and by the time I would have understood it, it would have spread everywhere. Instead, I had diarrhea from my trip and that caused it to ulcerate, which made me go for a check-up. I choked up remembering how Baba made me take the trip and then delay my flight so I could stop over in Chile, have the water and then have diarrhea, which otherwise would not have happened had I not gone there. And I remembered how Baba did not answer my prayers to stop my sickness and diarrhea. Instead made me continue it till I finally got detected. She said it’s a miracle that I even could detect it so soon since it grows so silently. We went and thanked Baba for this miracle. Without Him, I would have never known I had a silent killer inside of me until it was too late. The next week was MRI. The nurse could not find my vein and bruised my whole arm. The place where the MRI was being done was very narrow and I am claustrophobic. When she put me inside, I looked for open space. I would not be able to breathe and luckily I found a place from where light was coming. So, keeping that in focus, I just kept chanting Baba's name and doing Hanuman Chalisa till the procedure finished. I called my oncologist's office the next day for report, but they did not get the report. Then I called my surgeon's office and heard that she had the report, but it was yet to review it since she was busy in operation all day. They told me on Monday I will get a call with the result. On Saturday, I went to the temple and my new Hanuman bhakta friend and I did the hanuman Chalisa again and my friend did a puja to Hanumanji before my report on Monday while I prayed to my Sai. On Monday, the surgeon called me in the morning and told me the MRI report was in. It was a cyst and not to worry about. My BF was still sleeping, but when he heard me say "Oh thank God". He jumped off the bed and hugged me tightly. My surgeon said you sound really relieved. I said yes, I was very worried. She said now you can relax. When we hung up, both of us were in tears at the kindness of Baba. He said a black cloud just passed us. Now we will only get good news. Baba had removed the obstacle and made me ready to face chemo and radiation. I had the best doctors in town to do that. It was a struggle to get insurance to approve it. I had my chemo pills already, but radiation was not getting approved. My BF was calling the hospital everyday as time was running out. I was praying to Baba everyday. Then on Wednesday it was approved. My chemo and radiation started on Thursday. I knew it will go okay as it was Thursday. They ended on Thursday also. After that, I had a surgery. When the surgeon took the tumor out, she took out clear margins and found no cancer in the lymph nodes. It was so much better prognosis unlike some people who find cancer spreading when they are cut open. She came to me and told me I had cancer, but I am cured. Although I still have to do 6 more months of chemo to stop recurrence as a precaution. This is only possible because Baba has been my guide and my doctor's. The healing time from the surgery was the hardest. I was very depressed as I was stuck at home and my intestines were all sore and inflamed. My BF was cooking for me, but I could not eat much. I lost more weight. And I needed the second surgery to put the intestines back together to make them function normally. Without that, I was sick half the time. I had fever, needed to go to nurse every week, was emotionally down. So I prayed to Baba to do it soon as my insurance was ending and if I did not get it done, then for 6 months I will have to stay like this. My surgeon said a second surgery was not possible before 6 weeks as it takes time for the scar tissue to settle down. But I did not have six weeks. I had 4 weeks only. I begged her to test me to see if I have healed and explained to her that my insurance denied me extension as I have cancer. She is the best surgeon and a wonderful person. She agreed to do a test on me before taking me back to surgery. The test was less than a month from the initial surgery. It was the most trying time of my life. I read online about how people, who went for these surgeries sometimes ended up with perforated colons and colostomy bags. I was nervous and scared thinking of that. I also learned about these brave people, who fight so hard for their lives and thanks to my disease I have so much respect for them and would like to do something for them now. But I personally am unable to deal with such a courageous change of life. To me Baba's grace is everything and I prayed to Him to make the surgery go ok and that no such problem happen, where I have to end up with a disability. I started reading Sai Satcharitra in one week time before the test. I finished it in 4 days. The next day, I went for the test. It was last Monday. If I failed the test, it meant I would have to go thru another surgery to fix the leak. The surgeon did not call me on Tuesday. I called her office and they did not get report. On Wednesday I had meeting with her to decide surgery date, provided I passed the test. I went there. I only had my faith on my side. My BF and I were both very nervous. Then I was called inside. When she came to see me, I asked her about the report, she said she did not know I had a test done. They went to find the report. It was for thirty minutes that they tried to retrieve the test report. Meantime from her window, I could see the open sky and imagined Baba's face there remembering Him saying "come what may do not leave the bolster of your guru". I held on to Him. After thirty minutes, she came back to the room and told me I passed the test, everything looked ok. I told her to do the surgery on me as my insurance was ending. She said it was too dangerous to do it before 6 weeks. But because I kept pushing, she agreed. That night, when I came home the Baba blessings said "I never leave my devotees midway". I cried. I had my surgery on Friday. It was supposed to be a keyhole surgery, but because of the scar tissue from the first surgery, which she was worried about, she could not see the inside of my abdomen, and had to cut me open. But everything went okay. It could have been a nightmare if in the hand of a bad surgeon, but with Baba's guidance my surgeon did a great job and in three hours took me out of surgery with everything working normally. Yesterday, I dreamed of Baba as a portrait, when I was sleeping. The night before I had fever and the hospital made me go thru blood work, xrays, ekg etc. It was as if to tell me not to be afraid. The reports came normal and I was released today and came home. I am in some pain, but nothing that I cannot bear with Baba on my side. Now that my first chemo radiation and two surgeries are done, I am left with the last step of this fight, which is 6 months of chemo. But without my insurance, my chemo will not be able to be done. All these days, I was not worrying about chemo as much as I was about surgery. But my BF was only concerned about my chemo. Three weeks back, he met a guy suddenly at a grocery store, who was selling insurance. When he told him my situation, the guy gave him info that my hospital has a branch where chemo is done for people without insurance. We applied and the hospital got back to us. I was assigned an oncologist, who happened to be Indian and whom we liked a lot from our first meeting and she accepted me as a patient and has appealed on my behalf for chemo to the hospital. My BF thinks that guy was Baba himself. I think so too. Otherwise, how suddenly someone would cross his path and guide him to information like this? So I know, by Baba's grace, this last step of the treatment should be done too. And in June I will get my new insurance. So I can go for checkups after that. I will post it if the chemo gets approved by the hospital because that will be another miracle. But for now, I wanted to share the miracle of Baba about how He detected and cured my malignant tumor and did two surgeries without any problem within such short span of time by appointing the best surgeon for me. Baba never leaves His children. We are very fortunate that we have found Him in our life. Without Him I am nothing. Om Sai Ram.
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