Sai Sister Bhavani Ji from India says: Hi Hetal Ji,
I am regular reader of your (our Sai’s) blog from India. I just can’t tell how much, the experiences shared here give me inspiration when my faith fumbles. They are like regular booster tonic drops of Bhakti. I would like to thank each and every person who is assisting and maintaining this website, devotees who are sharing their experiences and Lord Sai may bless all of us with His love. I can never re-pay the debt that I owe you all, for you have changed my life so much. What can I speak about Sai? I love to be indebted to Him for all in future births. I do not want to leave His feet even in my dreams or in false thoughts also.
He has done so much miracle in my life, which I can’t even dream about. I am very sensitive and extremely depressed girl, such a person like me was changed by Sai into happy and cool girl. He gave me peace of mind, which I always longed for. I cannot describe the miracles that Baba has done in my life to show that He is listening to me and will definitely fulfill my life’s most important wish. He taught me Shraddha and Saburi very nicely by working internally on my mind and got me rid to maximum extent from my negative thinking.
I want to share recent experience of mine with Baba. As I said I am regular reader of this blog, I read devotees saying that they saw Baba in dreams, talked with Him in human form etc. I thought why Baba is not coming in my dreams, though He comes why he comes only in form of idol and not in human form where I can talk with Him. Really Hetal Ji, I got a thirst so much extensive that every day before sleeping I used to pray Baba to come into my dreams and talk with me. I really don’t know what I want Him to talk with me, but it’s just that I want Him to talk with me. Before all this, I used to talk with Baba through Question n Answers links and chits, where I put two answers and pick one. But I want Him to come in front of me and talk with me. I just can’t say how much thirsty I became for that. I used to go to bed running after my dinner so that I can sleep early and see Baba in my dreams and talk with me. One day I cried in front of His photo also thinking that my Bhakti is still not accepted or sufficient enough that Baba can come into my dreams. Maybe I still have many bad karmas of past life due to which I am not eligible enough to see Baba. Some days passed, but I did not stop asking Baba daily before sleeping or some part of day to come into my dreams and talk with me.
One night in my dream I saw a chaos in a school and I was protecting some students and I am also one among students. Later I hide myself near a L shaped poll and suddenly the bad man, who is reason of chaos, turned into a good man and took me with him. I asked him are you going to Kill me now? He politely replied no dear. Later I took me in auto and after sometime I saw that in place of that man my dad was there with me. He took me to a small Sai Temple in auto (which we usually find in front of some shopping malls / complexes, where grills are there and inside it Baba sits, but a big idol was there) and I got down and proceeded further. I saw a beggar sitting just before the grills. I took Rs 2 different coins and gave to beggar thinking that Baba likes Shraddha and Saburi (2coins). While giving him coins, there were some more coins in my hand and I happen to see a coin of Rs 1.5 in my hand and I thought this is unique coin so let me store it for my coin collection (which I do usually). I opened the grill doors and saw Baba Idol, but in front of it was standing a old thin lady. She was trying to take out coins that are there in my hand. And took two more coins and offered them as dakshina in hundi of temple along with Rs 1.5 coin and applied UDI on my forehead.
Implicitly in my mind I was having feeling that “Ah, finally Baba has come in front of me in human form though a lady” and I was joyfully returning to my dad. Then my dad called her with some lady name asking her to apply UDI on his head too with her hands. She replied why you are calling me with a lady name, when I am Prabhu (Baba himself). And saying that, she applied UDI to my dad’s forehead as well.
My aunt told me that it means to say for you that Baba and Maa Lalithambika are one and same. I took this dream as a token or first step in fulfilling my wish that He should come in His human form and talk with me. Though she talked nothing with me, I was happy to see her. I really pray Baba heartily that the thirst to see Him is unappeasable and so I do have faith that You will one day walk into my dreams and talk with me, spend time with me. I love You Baba.
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