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Anonymous Devotee from India says: Hi accidentally I met your blog while browsing about Guru Poornima and spent a lot of time forgetting that I am in office. I spent 3/4th of my working hours reading the wonderful experiences of SAI devotees. Well I welcome, in fact, I need Sai family advice for my issue. A bit bigger story still I tried my best to cut short. Please do not post my name and ID.
I have become a devotee of Baba only since Jan2012. I am a very go happy girl kind of person. I have faced some bitter experiences in life in my childhood. Still I stood strong.
Later I have met a person and we were in love for 4 years. Everyone in college and personal life knew that we are happy couple (though misunderstandings were there) and will be getting married, once we are settled in life. Our parents accepted, but not from the other side because of Caste. We both were settled and that is the early stage of settlement, where misunderstandings crossed the normal line (all are about life settlement and marriage).
When this was going on, we went to Shirdi with friends and after a month we were departed. He said A big no to continue the relationship with me as he lost his patience and was so upset with our relationship. He lost confidence that we will be happy even if we get married. Meanwhile some discussions against this within the family also happened. I urged him and I tried convincing him a lot. I cried, spent sleepless nights, which went on for 5 months. From Jan - Feb 2012, I started worshiping Sai Maharaj and did Parayana 3 times. During the 1st two times, Baba came into my dreams. I did parayans to patch up, so that he will come back with lots of love, which he used to show. He and even I changed and almost back to normal like we used to be before, but he always used to say “No this relation will not work out”. But still he says I love you, but love alone is not enough for a better life mentalities and understanding should also match. He is a very good person by nature. During the 3rd parayana, my parents brought a match for me .When I said him the same thing, he became still strong and said “No still I am not getting confidence that this will be good for us”. It is better, at least at this stage, we should not be even in touch through calls or messages. I cried again, but even my eyes heart and mind also dried up. I am undergoing a deep pain but no tears. He completely stopped contacting me. I tried calling him twice later. I myself cursed “why I became like this? Why am I begging him?” Even now I became Silent completely. I don’t understand really what he was thinking in his mind and came to this strong decision. As Shraddha and Saburi are foremost things I am still waiting with patience and confidence on Baba that some day he will come and accept me. Please suggest what else I can do for the fulfillment of my wish (i.e. to get blessings of Baba). Will he come back and will speak with me again? Will he come back to relation to marry me? Today On July 3rd, in my dream Lord Shiva (as Shiva lingam in temple some holy place) and Baba (just as a kind of photo printed on paper, He gave His Darshan) in my dream. Sai Baba, I have full faith on You. Please I have vowed a lot. I am praying You daily. Please shower Your blessings on me. You know everything about me. When can I experience Your miracle. Really this would be a biggest miracle Baba. I am waiting Sai.
My First Trip To ShirdiSingapore says: Dear Hetal Ji, Thank you so much for giving such a great platform for all the Sai devotees to share our experiences. Let Baba bless you and your family always. It will be great if you can share my experience in this blog. This is my 2nd posting in your blog. Please do not share my email id. Feel free to edit wherever required. When I want to share my experience with our beloved Baba, I am running short of words. I don’t really know where to start. I am in Singapore. I am working for MNC as a part time employee on a contract basis. Everybody knows how difficult it would be to take vacation break for a contract employee. I wanted to go to India for one main reason to go to Shirdi. I prayed to Baba that if I am going to travel to India, then please call me to Shirdi. Otherwise I don’t want to go to India. Most importantly I have not been to Shirdi before. Being a Sai devotee, one can imagine how desperate I will be to go to Shirdi. So daily, I use to beg Baba to invite me. Unfortunately my contract is also getting over on 30th June 2012. I was so tensed to ask for leave to my manager. Once Baba blesses you and plans for you, nothing can stop you. I prayed to Baba and went and spoke to my manager about my contract extension and also about my vacation plan. She happily agreed for both. It was real surprising to me because practically it’s so difficult. I don’t know how she agreed with a cheerful face. I was so happy that I am going to see my Sai soon. I booked my tickets to Mumbai. From Mumbai, my sister said she will take me to Shirdi. I thanked her so much. As planned, we started to Shirdi on 9th June Saturday. Night 9:30pm, we reached Shirdi. I was so happy and tensed at the same time on seeing the crowd. I felt some butterflies on my stomach. It’s really mixed emotion no words to describe. Finally I was going to enter the Samadhi Mandir. My sister is a government employee, so she got a free pass for Darshan. She told me that I can accompany her. But something strange happened. The security guard allowed my sister and the kids, but he refused to allow me and he started shouting at me. My sister got really tensed and she requested the security to allow me. The guard strictly said no he was arguing with my sister and suddenly he kept the gate opened and he went away. My sister went and asked another guard, who allowed me to join my sister. Somehow I was not tensed at all on seeing the whole episode. I was so calm. All of a sudden, where did the security guard disappear? From there we went straight in front of Baba. I felt like I have done some good things in my past deed to stand in front of Sai. When you stand in front of Sai, what can you ask for? You don’t want to take of your eyes even for a second from Sai. The guard allowed me to have a peaceful Darshan. I stood there for 15 minutes. Tears were rolling down my cheeks. There is no word to describe my happiness. Thank you so much Baba for giving me this wonderful Darshan. One more thing, the day I came back to Singapore, I got a call from my manager that my contract has been extended till end of this year with a pay hike. Even though I couldn’t ask for anything at Shirdi, Sai knows what to give to His children. This life is really Baba’s Bhiksha to me. Thank You Baba for giving me this opportunity to share this experience. Jai Sairam
Sai Always Fulfills His Devotees WishesShalini Ji from India says: Om Sai Baba. My name is Shalini. I am a devotee of Saibaba. I love Saibaba so much. He is everything to me. Without Sai Baba, I am nothing. Hetal Ji, thank you so much for this blog. You are doing such an amazing work. Today is Guru Purnima and I really thought that I cannot go to the temple due to a reason. I felt that Baba, will You not allow me to come to our temple? Please make me to come to our temple have Your Darshan and Your Prasad. But I felt whether I can go or not and the miracle happened. Saibaba made me to have His Darshan in the morning and by Sai’s grace, I went in the evening and had a wonderful Darshan of Saibaba and also Saibaba’s Prasad. Thank You so much, Baba. You are amazing. You always fulfill Your devotees wishes. I relly love You a lot. Always be with me. Let me always have pure love on You. Please always forgive my mistakes and always bless us and save all Your devotees. OM SAI BABA
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