Saibaba – My Saviour
Sai Sister Sweta Ji from India says: Namaste Hetal Ji, this is Shweta from Bangalore. I am writing my experience for the first time. Hetal Ji, you can share my name, but please don’t share my mail id. Hetal Ji, I am very thankful to you for creating this blog. You are the Chosen one. This blog helps many devotees like me to strength their faith and patience on Saibaba in difficult times.
I am emotionally shattered. I have promised Saibaba that I won’t think of taking my life until November. But each day is passing with so much difficulty and so I have decided to pen down my experiences one by one to keep my faith going. Saibaba is the only ray of hope I have now.
Basically, I am from New Mumbai and my family is a great devotee of Saibaba. In everyone’s house, we have a big portrait of Saibaba, which we worship. Every year some or other from our family will visit Shirdi. My grandparents believe in Saibaba a lot. My late grandfather was very fond of non-vegetarian food. But only on Thursday’s, he used to eat vegetarian dishes happily. Every Thursday, whatever we prepare in the house, firstly we offer some part of meal to Saibaba. Even today after my Granddad’s death, we follow this.
When I was young I hardly used to understand all these stuffs. But when I look back, I realize that there is some connection between me and Saibaba. He was always around me, with me. There was a Saibaba temple in the long route to go to my school in Sakinaka, Mumbai. In the morning, in haste, we used to take short cut, but while coming back home especially during exams, we used to take long cut and visit this Saibaba temple. I was very fond of the Prasad, which they used to distribute on Thursdays. After exams, I used to talk to Baba that Baba, this question was so difficult today or today's exam was so easy. It was fun. But when years passed, I lost touch with Him. But He was always there with me. But I never noticed. When I moved to Bangalore, on Thursday's I used to go to Saibaba temple in Malleswaram 15th cross. As a girl, I used to pray to Him to give me a nice boy in my life, who will love me a lot. In the workplace, I fell in love with a guy. We used to talk, chat, but when finally we decided to meet as on our first official date. I asked him that we will visit some temple first and then we will go to restaurant, etc. He took me to Saibaba temple, which was very next to his office in Koramangala 7th block. Later during courtship, we used to visit a park. Next to that park also, there was a Saibaba temple, which we used to visit together. All the above incidents, I didn't realized when they were happening. But today, when I look back, I noticed that these meetings with Saibaba in every phase of my life, can't be a coincidence. There is something between me and HIM. He is always around me. I have many more experiences to share, which I will be sharing in coming days. God Bless All. Om Sai Ram.
Me, My Shona and SaiAfter one and half years of courtship, I felt that my boyfriend doesn’t love and care me, but he is using me. I felt really bad. I was hurt as I love him so much. I always treated him like my husband. He was rich and I came from a middle class background. He is a Tamilian and I am a Maharashtrian. I thought this relationship will never workout and so I broke up with him. But deep in my heart, I loved him a lot and always wanted him to be my husband. I broke up with him on August 27, 2011, I was completely shattered. I cried a lot and was sad. In the workplace, while chatting, one of my friends mentioned the miracles of reading Shri Sai Satcharitra. I had never heard about it neither I’ve seen it before. I was travelling to Mumbai shortly. So I wanted to buy it as soon as possible as I knew my family members will never allow me to go out of house as they doubted that I have a boyfriend and they wanted me to get married soon. Finally, I asked the priest in one of the temple, which I used to visit regularly in S.R. Nagar, Bangalore that where I can get Shri Sai Satcharitra. He told me that you will get in N.R. Colony near Raghavandra Swami temple. Same day, I went in search of that book, which I had never seen it earlier. I was desperate to get that book like a fish desperate for water. I knew this is the only hope to get my Shona back in my life. I went to N.R. Colony. After searching I got one. But I didn’t know that it was duplicate one and not the original one. As I remember told by my friend that it is a red color book and this was not one. I completed reading that book in one day itself. Then I started doing Saptah of Shri Sai Satcharitra to get married to my Shona soon. I was home for 15 days in Mumbai. In the meanwhile, I even decided to do Sai Nav Guruvar Vrat once I’m back to Bangalore for my Shona. I told Baba that I wanted an Idol of Him from Shirdi itself as I didn’t had any idol in my Bangalore home. And on the 9th Thursday, I will wear a blue saree and will do the Udaypan in the same temple where I and my Shona met for the first time in Koramangala 7th block as mentioned in my first experience ‘Sai- My Saviour’. On the last day, of my Saptah, a boy came to see me for marriage. I was reluctant. I didn’t want him to choose me, so I didn’t paid attention on how I should look. I decided to go in front of him and his family in simple chudidar itself. But my mom wanted me to wear a saree. Finally, she told to wear Blue color saree, which I have never worn it before. I had completely forgotten about this saree. For that I thought, for the completion of Nav Guruvar Vrat. I have to buy a new Blue color saree. Sai Baba completed my one part of my wish. This meeting ceremony with the boy was held in my Mama’s (maternal uncle) place. There was a photo of Sai Baba in the hall. I thought, yes, my Baba is with me. The boy liked me and our family decided to get as married soon. I was surprised and shocked. This was the last day of my Saptah, I asked my Shona from Baba, but why Baba gave me this boy. I was confused and thought, fine, as per Baba’s wish. I was packing my bags to leave for Bangalore. I saw an idol of Saibaba kept very behind in our showcase wrapped in a plastic cover. I asked my Dad, from where he got it as I had never seen it earlier. He told he has bought it in 2001 from Shirdi to give to his Boss as a gift, but I was not able to give. The Saibaba idol was so beautiful, white made of marble, same which I wanted to do my Sai Nav Guruvar Vrat. So Saibaba completed both my wishes of blue saree and His idol from Shirdi. I took both the things and came back to Bangalore.
Sai Nav Guruvar VratWhen I came back to Bangalore from Mumbai, my to-be-husband started calling me, messaging me. We were supposed to get engaged in March and married in November. But while talking to him, I felt something somewhere was wrong. I don’t love him and can neither will. I love my Shona. I am cheating this guy. He deserves a girl, who will love him purely and truly, but not me. I was unable to connect to him. I used to not feel compassionate toward him, when he was ill. But in the same way, if my Shona was ill, I would have gone to the end of world to make him feel better. I had also started doing Nav Guruvar Vrat to get married to my Shona. Meanwhile, I was also sending a prayer to Shirdi through Hetal Ji’s another website ‘prayerstoshirdi’. I had prayed to Baba that if Shona comes back in my life, I will help one crore strangers. All their thank you will be my way of saying ‘Thank You’ to Saibaba for bringing my Shona back in my life. Finally, after having no contact with Shona at all since 27th August 2011 after Break up, My shona mailed me to wish Merry Christmas and Happy New Year on 28th December 2011. I was happy, but sad. My marriage was already fixed with someone else. At the same time, in the pretext that I want to prepare for my upcoming MBA exams. I started avoiding talking to my to-be-husband. I was feeling guilty. Shona started mailing me that he misses me, etc. I told him every single truth about my marriage, my family background, my status and everything. Shona told that he doesn’t care about my background. He only knows that He loves me and I love him. Everything could be sorted out if we stay together. After listening to him, I cried with happiness and felt that I haven’t chosen a wrong person. He is the one for me, chosen by Saibaba, as I’ve mentioned in my first experience ‘Sai- My Saviour’. On 29th January 2012, we met for the first time after breaking up on 27th August 2011. I was happy, but sad, uncertain about our future. Everything was in Saibaba’s hands now. On 2nd February 2012 (i.e. 9th Thursday, the day of completion of my Nav Guruvar Vrat), I went wearing a blue saree to the same temple where me and my Shona met for the first time of Saibaba temple in Koramangala 7th block as promised. I reached around 12 pm, did puja and started distributing food along with the lunch, which temple authorities give to people on every Thursday. In the evening, I went to Malleswaram 15th cross Saibaba Temple. I told Baba, I think, this is the last time I’m coming to your temple. I sat there in the proximity of my Sai for a long time. When I went back home, my dad was sad. He told me that he got a call from my to-be-in-laws stating that they are not interested in me because of my behavior toward their son and so they are cancelling the marriage. I was so happy. I asked my dad at what time did you get call. He said around 12:30 pm, that’s the time I was in Saibaba temple distributing food. My Sai Guruvar Vrat completed successfully. I am happy for that boy also. I hope He gets married to a girl, who will love him. I think, bitterness for a short while is better than spoiling somebody’s life. I wouldn’t have been able to give even 2% for the relationship, but I can give 200% to the relationship of me and my Shona. Sai Guruvar Vrat does work. I’ve seen it myself, the biggest miracle of life. Just we have to do it with complete faith. I’ve more experiences to sharing. I’ll be sharing next time. God Bless All. Om Sai Ram.
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