When I was 22 years old, like anyone else, I wanted to learn to drive a car. I joined the driving classes, which usually spans for 10 days, half hr slot. Whatever skills the instructor teaches you, it is only the confidence in you that matters. That is what I was lacking confidence. I was so paranoid that I will run over the car in panic on somebody. I had deep fears in me. But, I wished deeply that I overcome those fears. After failure to learn properly in Bangalore, I gave up for some time and was busy with studies and exams. Then I completed my engineering in 2006 and got a job through campus recruitment, and was posted in Chennai.
Once I got settled there in Chennai, I joined the driving classes there too, but failed again because the problem was within me (low in confidence). I desperately wanted to learn to drive. Then I had to give up on driving in Chennai too. That is where I became a devotee of Sai Baba. I had a colleague at work, who was a devotee of Baba and she inspired me through her experiences. We regularly used to visit Baba Temple on ECR Road on Thursdays. I was praying for my transfer to Bangalore those days. Back of my mind car driving had become a challenge to me. It kind of was something that would change my character, change my image in front of my family, who always thought I am weak and give up easily. I have no confidence. I did not want to drag that image any longer. I wanted to show myself and everyone I can do what I want with confidence. And that is the reason car driving had become some sort of a benchmark for my personality improvement. I enrolled for classes again in Bangalore, when I came here for vacation. This was the 3rd attempt, but again failed to do so.
In 2010 my marriage got fixed. The groom lives in Australia and after the marriage, I was here for 8 months as I had to wait for my visa to join him there. At that time, his mom said to me it is better you to learn car driving. You will not have to depend on him there in Australia. She is a very stern lady, and she does not say something once and give up, but instead she will keep repeating the same thing several times till the other person has done the work she has asked for. I forgot to mention that I had got transferred to Bangalore that too by Baba’s grace. My roommate and close friend, who were living with me in Chennai, got transferred back to Bangalore with me.
I bought a car and now wanted to learn to drive. Her dad’s colleague was a car driving instructor as his hobby. His style of teaching is very different. He lets you to learn car driving in your own car provided. You have to trust solely on his instructions and perform accordingly. When he says break, we must apply break. When he says clutch 2nd gear, we must do it like a computer we must follow his instructions. He will start his class from 10 AM till 9 PM in the night. He will take you on busy roads, uphill, downhill, parking, highway driving. On the first day, my fears came back. I did not do well. That Uncle said to me, it is all within you. It’s your confidence that matters on the road. That evening after 8-9 hours failure in driving, I prayed a lot to Sai Baba. I said to Him please help me overcome my fears of driving. That night, all I dreamt was me driving the car, but the change was I was driving beautifully, without fear, on all roads. When I woke up, I was happy for few minutes that my dream was so good. But, I was feared that it would not be a reality. That day’s class was about to start. I applied UDI and prayed Baba again and asked Him to be with me. You don’t believe it that I was driving without any fear that day exactly like my dream. That uncle was surprised. He said no one has picked up this quickly that too on the 2nd class. I drove till Nandi hills. I took my parents on the 4th and last class, and my parents were so proud of me. My Mother in law wanted me to drive her around Bangalore. That was the challenge, she gave me and I did that through Baba’s blessings, and felt so proud.
I came here to Bangalore on few weeks of vacation, and drove the car again after 1 year break as I have to yet take a license in Australia. But even after a year, I have the same confidence of driving. The traffic here is crazy, but I still can drive without fear. I love Baba for helping me overcome my fears, that changed my confidence level altogether. Thank You Baba for helping me and not to give up. Om Sai Ram.