Sai Sister Swati Ji from India says: I am Swati from Lucknow. I am here to offer my prayer to Shri Sai Baba Ji. I am very much disturbed with my life. I had very unusual life to lead. It was different from others. I had mild depression for 15-16 years and it’s very difficult to be happy with the things as they are. I have been wondering how people stay happy and satisfied with themselves. I always make myself understand this fact, but it’s not that easy to be like that. I am very sensitive by nature and get hurt easily and fall prey to depression easily every now and then. I have been to doctors and they feel that both natural tendency and fate are responsible for my depression. At the moment, I am in a relationship and again things are not in my favour since boy’s mother and father do not approve of my caste, my complexion and my age, since I am almost one and half year older to him. And my family is also very much against this relationship as it would be an inter-caste marriage.
I got inclined to this guy because I was very depressed and lonely and he was very loving and it’s his love and affection, which drove me towards him. But as things went ahead, I found him to be aggressive, abusive and having a lot of desires, which irritated me a lot, but he loves me a lot as well. His parents called me and were very harsh and rude to me, since I do not belong to upper caste and I am not as beautiful as they wish their daughter-in -law to be and above all I am one and half year older to this boy. I am working in Delhi and they want me to leave my job and get settled in Lucknow, which obviously I don’t want to do. Seeing their temperament, I do not want to marry this boy, but it’s been a year in this relationship. I feel guilty since I got intimate with this guy and have this fear that no other good guy would accept me, when he would come to know about this.
I have been a devotee of Sai Baba Ji for 3 years and I know I got my job because of His grace only and I have been praying to Him throughout in this relationship so that He protects me and guides me. But only thing I regret that I got little intimate with him. Why didn’t Baba prevent me from getting intimate with this guy, since I got to know this later that his family wants a girl from only upper caste and a very beautiful girl. I went to Sai Baba Ji’s temple with this boy twice with the feeling that Baba would reform him and make him a better human being and will curb down his sexual desire and make things fine. I owe my intimacy with this boy to my depression. Had I not been depressed, I would never have gone so close to him. It’s because of his affection, I stayed with him otherwise I got fed up with up his intimate talks and I would often rebuke him for that which led to constant fights. See, I have been a depressed girl since my school days and I have been not a very social. I would keep to myself and my character has been very good throughout I would not even talk to boys much. I had very few friends. This is my first relationship which started at the age of 29. Now I am 30 year old. I do not know what to do. I didn’t eat food for 10 days, when his parents called me and talked to me very rudely. I continued to cry for 5 days at a stretch and didn’t eat properly as a result I suffered from Intestinal infection (a lot of blood came in loose motions for 2-3 days and it continues to come till today). You know I was really happy that I would die and escape all the mental tortures. Will Sai Baba Ji help me die easily? My life has been very tough as compared to my friends. I have Mild depression for 15-16 years. I saw my father’s death, when I was 25. Now I have this problem. When will I be happy Sai Baba Ji? What karmas I did in my past life that I am suffering so much? Why me? Why me always Baba? Help me Baba! Please help me. Please convey my prayer to Sai Baba Ji. I will be really grateful to you. Om Sai Ram.
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Sai Sister Priya Ji from USA says: Hello to all my fellow Sai devotees. My name is Priya and I am in high school. Sai Baba has helped me in so many ways throughout my life. I would like to share one of my experiences with you all.
I am taking a public speaking class in school and it is very tough for me because I get scared to talk in front of people. We had presentation coming up and I was very nervous. If I didn’t do well, my grade would drop in the class. The night before the presentation, I wrote a letter to Baba explaining my problem and pleaded him to help me. I placed the letter at his feet near our life size photo and went to sleep feeling confident and satisfied. The next day in school, I was gave my presentation with ease and flow and everyone praised me. I thanked Baba again and again. I love Baba and he is helped me in many ways. If anyone is going to Shirdi, please give my Namaskars to Shri Sai Baba. Thank you.
Sai Helped Me To Achieve My Target
Sai Sister Vidhya Ji from India says: I am Vidhya working in a software company as a HR. Thank you Hetal Ji, for this wonderful blog. Everyday I read your blog about the devotee’s experiences. It gives me lot of strength and happiness. Lord Sai gave me lot of experiences. This is the first experience which happened today. It was just a miracle. Hetal Ji, please correct in case if there are any mistakes. Hetal Ji please do not disclose my email id.
In 2008 due to recession, we lost lots of customers and the company was not doing well. The director insisted me to motivate the sales team to achieve their target. I was finding it very difficult to produce the report to my director as the sales team was not able to achieve the target. I pray to Sai to help me to overcome this situation as I have to submit the report by the end of the day. A miracle happened immediately, our Sai answered my prayers. You know what happened. One new customer deposited his payment from Sai Baba colony (By cash – Saibaba Colony).
Sai will always help His children. Be with us always Sai.