Anonymous Devotee from USA says: Dear Hetal Ji, Thanks for this wonderful blog. You are doing a great service to mankind by consolidating all the experiences of various devotees. This is my second experience in the blog. I am from USA. Please do not disclose my name and email id. This blog has been a big supporter for me in times of big difficulties. I really wanted to write my experiences only after certain things fulfilled in my life. But I am writing this because I need blessings, good wishes and support from other devotees. If possible can you post this immediately, because I am desperately in need of blessing and wishes?
Things are not going properly. I am married for 4 years now. Husband and I are trying to conceive a child for the past one and half years. I have been praying with all heart, but nothing seems to work. My husband is not a very positive person. He is not brave and often feels that all difficulties come in his path and nothing works for him and he is unlucky. This is not the only problem that I am facing through. For the past 6 months, my husband is not having peace at work. There was couple of layoffs and budget constraints at office. They are not hiring any one. There was lot of reorganizations. His manager changed, and the new manager is not an efficient person to support his team in times of need. We are just hoping nothing goes wrong in his team or for his work. We were so much worried because of this as his green card process is going on through this company. When all this was going on, I started 9 Thursdays Sai Vrat. After the 9th Thursday, our green card date got current and we could apply for our third stage in the process, which means I would be eligible to work with the EAD. I was also finishing my masters around the same time. So everything seemed to just have come in the right time.
But after 2 months of applying for the third stage, the US government decided to retrogress the dates back to 2007, which means we would not get GC till we get our dates current again. Also, Our EAD was getting delayed, it was more than 60 days (usually it comes around 45 days). There was some confusion with our finger print appointments. I was also not getting any interview call. Lots of things at the same time.
My husband was just shattered because his hopes of getting GC by this month, was less likely now. He was very dejected. He stopped praying to God. He started to abuse everyone around him. He started to think himself as unlucky as he felt nothing was happening for us – no child yet, no GC, no EAD, no work for me and tension at his work place. He started talking of suicide. I am a very positive person, and I believe that BABA will take care of us. But when you hear talks of suicide, I just could not control my tears. Last week was hell. We didn’t sleep properly at nights. He used to just get by suddenly from sleep and shout. I am generally a brave and supportive person, but in this situation I didn’t know how to comfort him as I was disturbed a lot emotionally and mentally. I just used to cry, when he was away for work.
Times like this, I just pray to BABA to give more strength, faith and patience to my husband to face anything in life instead of sitting dejected as if life is over. I request all Sai Devotees to pray for us and wish us the best. Your prayers and wishes will definitely bring miracles in our life. Also please advise me how I should be more supportive to my husband and handle him and the situation. I should tell one thing here- my in-laws are really proud of me that I am able to understand, adjust and support my husband in times of his unexpected behavior without fighting and adding more fuel to the burning fire. They often tell me if it would have been any other girl, she would have left him now.
I am just waiting for HIS blessings to conceive soon. Please pray and shower your blessings for us. If we start seeing some results in our life, I am sure my husband will become positive and develop faith. I really wanted to post this last week, but I was all crying. This week has been going good with few interview calls set up for me. We also got our EAD approved. I can see Baba’s blessings on us. I just hope that I get a job soon and we get our GC and I conceive. Because of all this, I didn’t travel to India for 3 years. I feel guilty that I have not completed my duty as a daughter to my parents. I want to celebrate my father’s 60th birthday (Shastiapthapoorthi). It is the chance given to the children to repay part of what they have done to us. Hope I am able to travel soon and do this for my parents.
Dear Devotees, please pray for me and my husband. I was very dejected last week, but this week I am much better and after writing this I feel a lot better. It is all because of BABA and His blessings.