After reading this experience i am speechless as to how Lord Sai Baba takes each devotee in His fold.
Sai Brother Naveen Ji from India says: I am Naveen. I do not want to disclose my mail id. I live in Karnataka. These writings are from Baba Himself and not by me. I surrender to Him. I am going to share His love and miracles. I feel it’s the same with every devotee. He does not discriminate between His children and bless them accordingly. Everyone is same and every one will experience the same love.
Alright, I fell in a love with a girl. I was restless to succeed. I thank that girl for making me go near Baba. I knew from my childhood visits that there was a book where Sai Baba’s answers were present. It was in our city’s temple. So I did go to Him for asking about love.
Now I will tell you how my lifestyle was before. I was very filthy. I was involved in all the bad activities at the age of 16. Everything from women wine and I did steal a lot, lie a lot and ego was overwhelming me. I think I was ignorant and it was my previous karma and Sai Baba knew even about it. I used to kill and hurt animal ruthlessly. I was non vegetarian against my caste.
But as my love was real, I started going to ask Him about my love often, once in a week or twice. The first answers were not to steal and lie. It was the first experience when he controlled me that when I had the feeling to steal something, my heart said I was with Baba and stealing was of very low vibrations and I did stop outright.
It was a miracle that she came into my reach. I changed the college miraculously to her college and her class. Everything was going fine and I wrote three letters. But the third letter was seen by her parents and they brought police into the college to cub me. By His blessings, I did not attend the college. (I don’t know why I was absent that day till now).
I failed in maths in my 12th exams. I am very poor in maths and I can’t multiply or divide complex examples. I did pass and got an engineering seat, which was nightmare to me. Now, I have cleared all maths subjects in engineering with His grace, and I do not have an engineer’s caliber, it’s His blessings that made me till here.
My father is a conductor and my seat was a management quota one. But with His blessing, even I failed in 12th and even if my percentage was only 52%, I got the bank loan.
I started to go to His temple in my second semester holidays every day. Then, He said in His answers to go to Him every day. I, from the last three years, go to His temple every day. Later He thought me to live in His way. The feelings were just like He held my heart tight in His warm hands. Even now I have the same feeling. I started reading His books, of course beginning by Shri Sai Satcharitra. The miracle was each page I read had something to teach me. I used to read whatever I got to read in a random way, but still the stories were like made for me on behalf of that day. Even now He teaches me every day as I read one or the other holy book every day. The spiritual teachings He taught me are wonderful. I now do not lie, do not steal or deceive someone. I do not think or talk bad of others. I feel Him everywhere. I now do not kill even a mosquito now and I have pity in every living being. I learnt forgiveness. I am not attracted towards money or material life that much, but I do enjoy material life. I do see sisters mother or Goddess Durga in women. I used to drink occasionally and smoke ganja. He warned me in His answers, but I did not listen.
One day, I was about to die due to drug overdose. I prayed to Him that I was alright. I would quit everything. Till day, I do not touch those things. Now the miracle is He warned about my death. I did not worry much by His blessings. While I was walking on the roadside a bus rushed within a few inches by me, and then a photo of Sai Baba attracted me telling that I escaped death. Till this day, my eyes are automatically made to see His photos and names in the road or wherever (even in TV). I learnt hypnotism by His grace and I am good in past life regression and Auric Clearings now. And now when there were negative entities, He Himself come and saved me from harm.
I went to Shirdi two times. Both times, I had experienced His miracles. I did not reserve tickets, but I still got the seats and the tickets were taken exactly till where I spontaneously alighted. One day, I did not go to His temple and in my dreams I got His Darshan.
I used to hit my mentally handicapped sister before. Now I do not even touch her (my karmas are cleared). And the most beautiful part is, the girl, I love, came here for revenge and not for love. I love her for the last 7 years, but still she did not talk to me (the letters were kept in her bag by me). She came here to spoil my entire life as I did spoil her life in previous brith by raping her. Now, she just plays with me. The way, she acts as if she loves me and when I go nearer she just insults me by not even caring about me. I came to know this by hypnotism. I was rather hurt every day for last four years. I thought of suicide. And one day, when there was a negative entity (Rakshas), Baba appeared and He spoke to me and my friends, who were involved in hypnotic activities. I asked Him about my love and to marry her. He said that too much of lust is not good. I asked His forgiveness for the sins I have made, He forgave me. I think my bad karmas are cleared now. Now I am all right and I do not find grief in my heart. I failed a year in my engineering course because of her and had no interest in life. Now I am very active and back to normal.
My ego was very irritating. He even once warned in hypnotic sessions. From that day, I learnt to surrender to Him. Even the ego played a lot. I was fed up. He appeared in the dream and said not to worry and to chant His name always. I am all right now. His name or Ram Naam is very powerful as He taught and gave me the experience.
I am still 20 years of age. And only after 4 years after surrendering to Him, my vibrations are really matching Him. He is acting through me now. My only goal in life now is self realization. He is guiding me now. I am lucky and blessed as you all are for being His devotees.