Lord Sai Baba’s actions and deeds are always unique and heart piercing. We never come to know when we are accepted by Him. Such is below experience of Sai Sister Sudhamayee.
Sai Sister Sudhamayee Ji from India says: Hello all, I am Sudhamayee. I posted two of my experiences previously.
One was published at Jan 18, 2012 and second was published on Feb 22, 2012. Please don’t reveal my mail-id. But I am really amazed at the response I got for the experience I posted for the first time. Thank you one and all. Here is one more experience of mine. Indeed this is the first experience of mine with Baba.
I don’t know how it started, but I have been praying Baba since 7th class (12 yrs old). I was not at all aware of Baba and His Leelas. I used to pray Him just like that. But when I joined intermediate (16 yrs old), it happened that one of our classmates by name Divya is an ardent devotee of Baba. In a conversation about Baba, she said that Baba appears in her dreams. It was the first time I listened such kind of experiences. She said that these kinds of experiences are common to almost all Sai devotees. I was disappointed by this because I haven’t got such an experience from past 4 years. That day, I prayed to Baba with tears in my eyes and asked Him to forgive all my mistakes and appear in my dream. In the night, I got a dream. Baba in His bodily form came to our home and asked for donation. My mom came out with a bowl of rice to serve Him, saying me “Sudha, look Who has come to our home”. I came out and saw Baba. Out of excitement, I went to Him, caught His hand by my hand and humbly said Him, “Oh!! Baba, You came. I am very happy to see You. Why are You standing at the gate? Please do come inside my home”. To my dismay, Baba plunged His hand from mine and started shouting, “Did you come to serve me? Leave me. Get away from me”. Saying these words, Baba started walking fastly away from me. I followed Him and I kept shouting loudly “Baba, please come”. But Baba walked very fastly saying “Get away from me”. He turned to the lane beside our neighbor house and disappeared. I woke up and was not in a position to understand whether to cry or feel happy.
There is an original photo of Baba (taken in 1916, along with Booti Ji, Nimonkar Ji and Bhagoji Ji beside Baba) in our prayer room. I prostrated before it. And I cried asking “I am happy that You came in my dreams, but You rejected me. Why? Please forgive me for all my mistakes I have done. Please don’t be so harsh to me. Pardon me please”. I haven’t seen any response for 2 days. But I kept on praying Baba for His pardon. Later on the third day, I got another dream. I stood before Baba’s photo in our prayer room. But black paint was applied to it, so I could not see it. I went to the photo and cleaned it exactly at the point of Baba’s face. Suddenly a terrific radiant light appeared from it. The light was so intense that unable to see that light. I closed my eyes with my hand. I cried “Baba, why are You doing this every time? I want to see You, please”. Suddenly light reduced and all the black paint was cleared from the photo. I could see Baba clearly. He was alone. No one was beside Him in the photo. Then I heard Baba’s voices from the photo asking, “Now, are you able to see Me”. I said “Yes Baba. You are clearly visible”. Early in the morning, when I woke up, I felt very very happy and thanked Baba a lot.
I explained this experience to my friend Divya. She too felt happy and suggested to read Baba’s history to gain His blessings. I never knew about any Parayan (reading of holy books). But somehow, I managed to borrow a book by name “Sai Leelamrutham” (meaning nectar of Sai Leelas written by telugu author EKKIRALA BHARADWAJA ji) from one of my schoolmates for 10 days. My friend suggested reading it by sitting properly in the prayer room. But I neglected her words. I simply used to read it just like any other novel at whatever place and whatever position I feel comfortable.
One day in the afternoon, I read the book in the sleeping posture on the bed, read one chapter, and slipped into a nap. Then I had a dream. That was a big room. Baba sat on the floor there with Kafni on His body, but cloth was not tied to His head. His hair was long and set free. Some devotee was massaging His back. One more devotee was standing beside Him. There was a chair in front of Him. I came there, and noticed Baba but ignored Him and recklessly sat on the chair. Baba pointed towards me and said to the devotee beside Him, “Ahh!! Look at that girl. How carelessly she sat on a chair before me. How disrespectful it is”. On listening to these words, I looked at Baba. Baba was speaking something more, but I could not hear His voice. Slowly, I moved far away from Baba and could not see Him anymore. I woke up immediately asked apologies. From then, I used to sit on floor in the prayer room and read the book.
I felt satisfied on reading the book and wanted to own that book. My friend said that she bought it at Tirupati (200 kms away from our home town). I could not go there on my own. That’s why I requested Baba sincerely, ”Baba, I liked the book a lot, but I could not find it on my own. I don’t know how You will manage to do so. But I want a copy of it within 10 days, so that I can start Parayan. It is up to You now, whether You want Your devotee to do Parayan or not”. 7 days passed. Those days, my sister was pursuing medicine away from our home in a town called Nellore. On the 8th day, my sister came home on holidays. To my surprise, she gave me the book “Sai Leelamrutham” by Ekkirala Bharadwaja Ji and suggested that I should read it regularly. I never said to my sister anything about my experiences with Baba. But how come she brought that book?
This is how it happened. My sister’s roommate is a devotee of Baba and gave my sister a copy of Sai Satcharitra written by Hemadpant Ji. She liked it and started praying Baba. We family members were not aware about this matter. She wanted to explore more unaware Leelas of Baba and started searching for that kind of books. Once when she went to an exertion arranged by college management, she came across a series of books by name “Sai Leelamrutham”. She felt that those books may furnish some more Leelas that she has not read in Sai Satcharitra. She was very much attracted by the cover page photo of a particular book and selected it. It was the one written by Ekkirala Bharadwaja Ji. See, how Baba made her to select the exact book. While she was about to open it, time ran out and she had to leave from there immediately. Hence in a hurry, she bought the book even without opening it. After coming to her room, she has gone through that book expecting some new Leelas of Baba, but she learnt that it is inspired and is almost same as that of Hemadpant Ji‘s “Sai Satcharitra. She got disappointed but she wanted us to pray Baba and hence brought the book to home. I astonished by this Leela. I thanked Baba a lot and started doing Parayan from Thursday as I promised. Jai Sai Ram.