We are always stuck to our plans of our life and never ever pay heed to what plans our Lord Sai Baba has for us. We unnecessarily get anxious and start asking fulfillment of our plans from Him without even thinking reason why we are not getting our prayers answered. This message is received from following experience of Sai Sister Riya ji from USA.
Sai Sister Riya ji from USA says: Hello Hetal ji, My name is Riya and I am posting my experiences for the first time. You can publish my name, but please do not publish my email ID.
I have been reading a lot of Sai devotee’s experiences and I got encouraged to post mine too for the first time. I have been a Sai devotee for 12 years now, and His miracles in my life only seem to be increasing. I would not be able to mention all His experiences, but I would like to describe the experiences in the past 10 months.
I lost my job due to recession and I did not have a job for almost 8 months in US. When I actually lost my job in Feb 2010, I was not much tensed since I knew that Sai was there and He would take care of it. But I think that Sai was planning to test my faith and patience. I started applying for new jobs. Months passed, but I never got a call from anyone. Even, if I got a call, it did not turn into any offer. By June/July, my work permit was also in a problem. I was getting very frustrated. I also did Thursday vrat; during that time, but nothing seem to help. Things were only getting worse and I had difficulties paying my bills and my car loan. My friends were only helping me at that time. I started to do small part time jobs, but that was never enough. At one point, I was so much down that I questioned myself if Sai really existed. My situation was so much horrible. I read Shri Sai Satcharitra, but that also did not seem to help either. I was completely devastated, since more problems came one by one. At one point, I even stopped praying to Sai feeling completely hopeless. But I tried to assure myself, and only started to pray to Sai. I stopped all vrats and reading religious books. Since I did not have patience anymore and I was begging Sai to help me. Then I have started using the question/answer website of Baba online, and did everything He asked me to do. For example, if I was asked to break a coconut, visit temple etc, I just went ahead and did it.
Baba said in Satcharitra that what He said will happen in spite of how circumstances were and He would help His devotees even after death. I did not have any more patience by September and had only a small ray of hope and faith. I was so much discouraged that I even stopped applying for jobs. The only thing, I did was to talk to Sai and do the instructions given in the question/answer book. Most of the times, I used to get one common answer that things would change in November/December. I had my faith, but I still had my doubts. Things were the same until October. It was October ending, and I faced with a very bad accident (details of which I do not want to mention) and barely saved my life. I was in a complete shock of why all these things were happening to me and why was Sai not responding to me. Slowly, after two days, Sai’s grace started on me and I realized that it was Sai who saved me from death. I have only taken His name in those moments, to save me and He helped me right on the moment. In November, after some weeks, I got an interview call for which I never applied. They saw my resume online and called me. I got interviewed which was very difficult. I had my doubts if I would get the offer or not.
Still I prayed to Sai and finally I got the job offer with a very good pay. I had my work permit reissued also.
Today, I am very happy at my work place and this is the best place I have worked for till now. Even though, I was Sai devotee for a long time, these last few months have taught me a lot of things which I would like to share with all of you:
-All of us will sure have some problems in our life at every time since no life is perfect. If we could really appreciate what God has given to us already and thank Him from the bottom of heart, it will build a lot of positive energy in us. That would only attract more good things in our life.
My problem was that I have taken most of the things as granted given by God and was only feeling sad for things not happening. But now my attitude has completely changed and I thank God even for a small beautiful thing, since I really feel that this is my second life.
-When you really want something to happen and Sai is not doing it. It only means that we are being anxious unnecessarily and Sai will surely help us when time comes. We do not have to do big vrats or read Satcharitra in a week to get something done. Sai only wants us to anything for Him with utmost faith, and He will even bring you from the jaws of death.
Whatever circumstances are, as long as Sai is there with you, and as long as our wishes are true and good, Sai will never ever forsake us.