This life given to us is very difficult to traverse because at every step our bad karmas are with us. Even our shadow leave us in dark, but bad karmas do not leave us. But when we realise grace of Lord Sai Baba in our lives, intensity all situations seem to be decreasing and it becomes easier for us to bear. Following experience of Sai Sister Anu ji says so.
Sai Sister Anu ji from USA says: Dear Hetal ji, It’s a nice blog where everyone can share their experiences. Reading and assimilating these gems helps us to cross this worldly existence and to reach the path of self realization.
I couldn’t think of where and how to start speaking about My Lord (My Sai) as me being a mere human. He is our past, present and future. His bones in the tomb are still taking care of us like a tortoise looking after its children sitting on the other banks of the river.
Coming to my life, here it goes: I was a devotee to God since my childhood, but didn’t know that we can serve God only with pure devotion and self surrender to Him. I was like a regular human, didn’t know how to serve and help others, was adamant, selfish, craving for worldly things etc. Then He came into my life to teach me how to cross the seven seas and to lead me on to self realization path. The thread He used to pull me towards Him is my friend, where she was a great devotee of Baba. Then I started praying and serving Him a lot. Still I can say that my personality didn’t change. Then He made me go through hell out of problems, which made me die every day. That is when I realized that serving humanity is serving Him and being and doing good is pure devotion. It changed my life a lot. Now I try to be good, do good, serve people, do not possess feelings like jealousy, selfishness, being adamant etc. So one thing for sure is we’ll learn life only in a harder way.
I will let you know few of the miracles that happened in my life:
1) I was looking for Shri Sai Satcharitra vigorously when I went to Shirdi. But I didn’t get one. People laughed saying that you didn’t get it in Shirdi. I came back to USA with heavy heart, then immediately my friend asked me to take the brand new English version of it. Then my joy knew no bounds. Next, when I started to read it for the first time, I found $14 in it. On inquiry, I got to know that no one put them in it. I felt that He consecrated the book with His touch and gave me money while gifting the book. It resembles to stories in Satcharitra that money given at the time of consecrating books need to be worshiped from then on.
2) Whenever I am disturbed in life, He makes sure that I start reading Satcharitra to attain peace. Also, He himself makes the arrangements to ward of the hindrances in order to complete the reading. This went on till now and I wish it will keep on going. In that way He always render bolster saying that ‘I am here to save you, be calm and keep chanting my name. I will carry you over your problems.’
3) Next, The daily calendar of Sai Baba with sayings on it looks like it is customized especially for me. He will hint me how to face the problem that I will be going through at that moment. That’s it. I stop worrying and keep chanting His name.
In this way, He saved me through everything till now. But right now, I am in a life time big trouble, which is causing grievances to me and my family because of my past mistakes. The situation is that with the end result only One can be happy, either them or me. I want the result to come as per my wish because I tried very hard for it, sacrificed a lot. Don’t want to loose it, now after the entire struggle. But my first priority is that my family should be happy and so asking Baba to take decision, which makes them happy not me. But at the same time, I am asking Him to give me strength to handle that grief. Oh My Savior, please do take of this situation and will be waiting for your answer.