In His eleven assurances, Lord Sai Baba has said, “If you cast your burden on Me, I shall surely bear it.” This has certainly proved to be a truth in life of every Sai Devotee. The same is the experience of Sai sister Aradhana ji.
I really do not know how to start the story. We are followers of Satya Sai Baba and Shirdi Sai Baba. My only son, who was born as a lactose intolerant baby and had to suffer a lot since day 1 after his birth was miraculously cured by just a darshan of Sri Satya Sai Baba. We started reading and finding out more and more about Baba. A friend of mine gifted me a Shri Sai Satcharitra and told regarding the parayans. And that is the point where my journey towards Baba started. I did the parayans one after the other and every time I got my problems resolved to a large extent. This strengthened my belief on my Sai more and more. Nitya parayan is a part of my daily pooja now. Things were going fine until 2010 July.
One day we got a call from my mother in law saying that my Father-In-Law has got jaundice. Though we were upset to hear this ailment at the age of 67 is definitely not a good sign. But we never apprehended anything worse than this. My husband who is the only son, flew down to his native with the intention to get his father to Bangalore, so that we can take better care of him here. The day before they were supposed to come back to Bangalore, the scanning reveled FIL’s critical condition and confirmed that he was having Gall Bladder cancer, which was already in the last stage and doctors were predicting his life span in days that to not more than 1-2 weeks. My husband helplessly took him to the bests of doctors in TATA Memorial and then consulted all possible docs in Bangalore also. But no one had any different opinion. Our prayer to Sai that time was not curing him, but to not make his suffer much and just to delay his separation for some days, so that at least we can do our duties for him and serve him to our heart’s content. This prayer was accepted and to the surprise of the doctor, challenging and defying all the medical reports he stayed with us for 4 more months. And he breathed his last peacefully.
My husband, who was very attached to his father, could not take it very easy and till date he is not out of the shock. This was getting him mentally sick and his self confidence was sinking day by day. He always had the feeling that something very bad is happening to him also. And he was sick. He had developed a back pain somewhere around September, which was not getting cured even though he had taken many medicines for that. This was there always at the back of his mind and somehow he developed the fear that this is something very wrong in his body. This fear had started affecting out small family to a large extend. This family, which was always busy in singing Baba’s prayers happily, was drowning into unknown fears. Not even a single day after my FIL passed away, I would have prayed Baba with dry eyes. I could cry out helplessly where ever I see Baba even in the temple, home or any photo outside. I was feeling so depressed. Our friend started pitying on us. The only rescue to me at his point of time was no one other that my Sai. We started visiting Shirdi more often, which really boosted him up to a large extent. After the loss of my FIL, our first visit to Shirdi was in Dec 2010, and we could get many miraculous experience there. As if Baba Himself was guiding and prompting us to come out of all these mental blocks and surrender ourselves completely in This Holy Feet.
We reached Dwarakamai by 4 AM, we could go inside Dwarakamai stepping on the 3 steps had very nice Darshan of Dhuni Maa. And surprisingly a person asked my husband to clean some places in Dwarakamai where Baba used to sit. Our joy new no bound. We felt as if Baba Himself is asking us to sweep away all our bad karmas and get rid of it forever. We had Kakad Aarati Darsan sitting on the steps of Dwarakamai and to our surprise no one was stopping us from doing that. It was all Baba Himself, who blessed us and fulfilled our long stand desire.
We reached the Samadhi Mandir Shrine around 7.30 AM and there was a big rush. We were eventually pushed to a line which went close to the Samadhi and Charan Padukas and we could touch them and prayed. I could not control my emotions at that time and I was crying. Tears were flushing down non stoppable. We had not got any flowers with us as we had started very early around 4 AM in the morning to Dwarakamai and then straight to the temple. We were walking out of the temple after Darshan for few minutes in confusion and feeling bad that we did not have even flower to be offered, and suddenly a security guard called us from behind, took us to a pillar just in front of Baba and told us “Stand here and pray how long ever you want”. In front of Sai those minutes were like getting breath back into a lifeless body. I wanted the tears to stop as they were blocking my view.
He also got a bunch of fresh rose flowers and asked us to offer them to Baba. The Pujari from the pandal sitting nears Baba’s paduka called me and told loudly “Don’t cry Baba does not want His children to be sad. Be happy always”. HE will take care of all your problems. Saying this he took a big garland from the Samadhi and gave it to us. By this time I was already in some other world. Forgetting the crowd around us, absolutely unheeded by the physical and material consciousness I was just holding the garland very tightly to my heart and praying Baba to always be with us and guide us through this rough phase of life. “Baba forgive our sins and Help us”, was my only prayer. We also got some ladoo Prasad from the pujari there.
After we came back from Shirdi, we could now gather the courage for going for the comprehensive body check up for my husband which was all fine. But still the back pain was there. Yesterday he had been to the doctor and he had taken the MRI scan to rule out all possibilities. We will be getting the reports this evening. I am holding my faith in Sai and praying HIM to be with us and take us through again. Praying Him to shower His blessing on people like us, who are suffering for some bad karma done in past life or knowingly /unknowingly in this life and cure our suffering.
Jai Sai Ram.