Many times we are tested by Almighty. Some conclude that it is due to past bad karma or call it bad fate. At some point of time when Lord Sai Baba enters silently in our lives, we get peace admist storms and a favourable turn in seen ahead. Such is experience of Sai Sister Nisha ji. Below is her mail in detail.
Sai Sister Nisha ji from Kuwait says: I have been a reader in your blog and find so much happiness when I see devotee’s happiness and emotions. My post is little big, sorry for that but it’s all what I have been through. I wanted to add more, but I do not want the readers to get bored. This shows my small life and how I became a devotee of Sai Baba and how He is with us.
I was born and bought up in Kuwait and did my schooling here itself. I went back to India for higher studies and completed them with God’s blessing. But I had to wait for two years to get a job. Then I got married in early 2008, and since he was working in Mumbai he left for work early. I also came back to Kuwait and continued working. My parents wanted to bring my husband to Kuwait immediately. My company was providing visas, I requested them (begged them in a way), I got Visa for him and said,”I will pay all the expenses”, as to get a visa to Kuwait is very difficult and has to pay huge amount of money. He came to Kuwait with lots of obstacles in between and we took a sharing house and started living.
When he reached Kuwait, I was caught up with Pneumonia and was under heavy medication. My relationship with husband started to spoil for silly matters which I never took it seriously but he did.
We tried hard to get a job for him and God heard my prayers. Before a week for him to leave, he got a good job and joined in a reputed company which no one could believe. I thanked God and he resigned his job in India. I became pregnant at that time. By this time, his residency formalities were going on and one day, my company said he failed in medical and has to leave Kuwait. I said he is not sick and try for one more test. My company helped me and did 2-3 times test. We consulted many doctors and said he is not sick. It’s just a patch in his chest. But God rejected him all the time he did medical and he had to leave Kuwait and got blacklisted. I was pregnant and got bit frustrated. I tried many ways to get him back but no one did anything. All were saying that so many obstacles in his matter. I did not know at that time why God did this to me. I used to cry day and night and wait for something to happen. Slowly I started to concentrate on my child and pregnancy and left that matter for some time. I delivered a baby boy with God’s blessing and my whole family was happy. I could see their lost happiness back. But we were worried whether I could get my baby’s residency done and keep him with me or else I had to resign and leave. In Kuwait the rule is kids sponsor should be the Father. In my case, my husband was not here and we made all legal papers from India.
Each time I had to run for my baby’s work and felt very bad the way they treat us ladies as though we are illegal. All I suffered silently for my baby not knowing why all this happened to me. But in spite of all the struggles, small and big, God was with me and my child each time and the residency work was done. I was so happy and delighted. I did not know how to thank Him for His blessing on me.
When my baby was 6 months, I planned to take him to India to show my husband and family as at the time my husband was jobless. The decision was sudden and all went well as planned and we traveled. My son did not trouble us at all during traveling and was always bubbly. I get asthma attack when I am in India due to climate and dust, so this time also it happened to me and could not do the needful. My son became stubborn and so playful, and he did not eat anything nor sleep. I used to get irritated as nobody cared for this child food and health. Without my knowledge my in-laws gave him food which was eaten by elders and spicy food which resulted in diarrhea and fever.
Whenever I used to get angry, I keep quiet and was worried for my son’s health. But again during this vacation unnecessary problem aroused. I never said anything to my In-laws or even spoke very badly to my husband. I was just waiting to get back to Kuwait with my Son and family. After my bad vacation, I reached Kuwait and my son was very happy to be back. He started to eat and play well. After coming here I came to know the true color of my husband. He went and told his parents about me when I was not there (do not know what) as we never had major issues/fights and his parents complained to my parents and my parents was eating my life. I could never imagine my husband doing such a reckless thing and yet again I kept quiet. I said sorry to all of them and I kept a distance with all. After coming to Kuwait my mom understood why I was angry and irritated. I started to think of my life with my husband, and understood why God had separated us. In spite of He is giving all blessings, my husband had ego and not a strong mind to face difficulties. I am thankful to God showing me the true face of my husband as, if I had stayed with him more, my pregnancy time would have been horrible. He once said to me “He prayed to God to send him back to India” and God did it, making him live without work for 2 years and not see his child’s face. He even said to me that thinking of son he cannot give me a divorce so he is suffering. From that day, I understood he cannot manage a family nor he will be able to understand what a family life is as his mother and family has bought him in that way. But I found happiness with my son and kept life going on in Kuwait.
In due course the anger, I had on my husband for what he did to me decided to get him down. I used to discourage my parents not to spend money and get things done as here if you pay money to localities to get things done. The funniest part is that the localities are greedier for money and no mind to help poor people. They enjoy taking money from poor and some of them get the work done. I searched for people who does illegal work inside ministry and clear the blacklisted name (Only localities can help and to get these localities, we need to get an Indian who works with them). To my bad luck or good luck, don’t know, his matter no one could do.
I got an Indian person and he asked me a huge amount of money as his localite is asking and I believed him, arranged the money and gave him. He cheated me and it was a big shock in my life. Again my father paid a huge amount of money to another localite and he too did not do the work. At this time, we were suffering mentally and financially very badly. I prayed to God, to help me find that fraud. God listened and I could get him caught. Since there was no proof and no one helped me, he slipped again. I found his house and details but still no one to help me to get hold of the money. This fraud too was a victim and is staying in Kuwait illegally. All those, who were there to help me, dropped hands. Even the localite was not ready to pay back the money.
At this time, I was mentally down and cursed myself as of why this is happening to me. Seeing my condition, my colleague who is very good told me about Sai baba. I started to learn about Sai Baba and read His Shri Sai Satcharitra. I got mental peace from that time onwards and kept a hope that Baba will surely help me.
After that whatever small small things I ask Baba, He gave and I realized that He is with me and my son. I again had asthma attack recently and I drank water mixed with His UDI and I got relieved so soon. But since I am a Christian, I cannot pray or worship Baba openly as all are against me. But I do utter His name and pray in my mind as I Know He is with me. Love you Baba.
After a year my parents were forcing me to visit Dubai as my husband got a Job there, after a long wait. Small small problems aroused between us and I had to adjust a lot of things with my husband and he never cared for me and my son’s happiness. Then also I did not fight openly and kept quiet. Again he complained, I got angry ended blasting him. But I lost my respect towards him and now I worry about my kids and my future.
I believe that love is not only by saying, but it should be followed. From then on my in-laws do not call us nor talk with their grandson. So I understood that love is just in words for them. I am not saying I am right all the time nor am I a perfect person. I have my own weakness, happiness and needs. I don’t mind for what they do as Baba is there for us at all time. Don’t know what my future will be. But sure Baba will help me and my kids. I just hope now to get back my lost money and remove my burden from heart as my parents are hurt and they have suffered a lot in their childhood without food and money. God has bought them up to a level and all this happened due to a person. Not blaming anyone as I have to go through all this in life. Hoping Baba to help me at all times.