Dear Sai Readers, yesterday night i received a mail from anonymous Sai brother from Delhi. He filled up experience form from this blog and shared his problem seeking advice from readers. Each time any mail of experience is received, it goes directly into experiences folder in my mail box without reading. Somehow something urged me to read the mail and i thought it should be posted soon going against policy of “First Come First Serve Basis”.
Readers, an option to share your views/opinions about experiences is always open for you, but there was no compulsion for it. Today i request you all to leave your valuable comments here so that this young champ can come up with full energy and confidence. After reading below mail from him you all will understand why i am saying so and why i went against our blog policy.
Sai Brother from Delhi says: Please do not disclose my name or email id. I do hope this gets posted as I really do need the prayers and blessings and good wishes of all my elders. This post is kind of long so kindly bear with it.
I have done BBA. I am a fresher and joined this sportswear company on the 14th of March 2011. It’s a sales profile. Usually this company does not hire fresher, but due to some contact and reference, I got a job here, thanks to Baba. I am a social anxiety patient and am under medication for the past two years. I had lost my confidence, suffered from problems of assumptions, fear etc. However there is a lot of improvement in that regard thanks to Baba. I must say that I have very loving and supporting parents and sister. I love them a lot. Even my counselor is very helpful, supportive and has helped me a lot through her teachings. Whatever improvement I have shown, I owe everything to my parents, to Baba, to my uncle who is a big devotee of Baba and to my counselor. Since 2002, I have gone through various problems including poor health.
Till now, I have been in a cushioned environment at home, under the safe and secure shell of my parents. Plus I am very sensitive, emotional, loving. I cannot hurt anyone. I respect my elders. I try my best to follow Baba’s advice i.e. to see God in every creature and that is what I do. I give respect and that’s what I want in return. The kind of person that I am, I take some time to open up.
Anyways coming back to my job, as I had mentioned that I am a patient of social anxiety and I am an absolute fresher, absolutely raw and fresh, I am finding it a little difficult to adjust in the company. It’s only been 3 weeks, but since it’s a sales profile, so I have to move around a lot, have to listen to a lot of abuses and curse words which is not easy to digest. He tells me to treat my distributor as a dog and be after his life to get the work done, but the problem is that I cannot abuse or be rude to my elders whether he is rich or poor, black or white. I am scared of my boss; he abuses a lot and is kind of rude. As a result I am scared of going to office now. I did not go today i.e. Thursday 7th of April 2011 and don’t know how I will go tomorrow. My hands and feet sweat badly, get a headache, there is a lot of fear in my mind and heart, feel extremely uncomfortable. Even right now, while writing this, I am feeling all this. I have been quiet and have been crying since the past 2-3 days.
I want people to be patient with me, take time to teach me, treat me as another human being; I am a fresher, but still I understand that it will take some time for me to adjust. I just want their help, support and guidance and patience. Work and grasping is not a problem for me. I might be 22, but owing to my previous history of problems, I am a kid at heart. I can’t live under fear. I do listen to Bhajan, read Hanuman Chalisa, Ram Rakhsha Strotra and Shri Sai Satcharitra to overcome it. I want to love, like and enjoy my job, enjoy it and be free from stress, pressure or tension. Be happy and confident.
Is this the Real World?
I know Baba says have faith and patience and those we need bear the fruit of our past karmas so it’s better if we face it in this birth. I do love Baba a lot.
I guess most of readers over here must be elder to me and this post may reflect my inexperience and immaturity. I am sharing this as I want the guidance, love, support, advice and help of all the Sai devotees because I know that each and every one of you will understand. All I ask is for your prayers. Thanks.