Shirdi Sai Baba Miracles and Leela in this Post:
As a normal human being, I began to believe in Baba fully only after few situations in my Life. My father joined me in a hostel during my Intermediate. Some of my best friends from my school also joined the same hostel. We were in the same room. I trusted them but I don’t know why some people change so easily. They one sided me and formed a new gang and started harassing me for no mistake of mine. I was always lonely and scared. I could not tell anything to my parents. They started spreading rumours about me around the college and soon everyone started to give me a different look and treat me with disrespect. I lost my peace and concentration on studies. I had a book with me which I bought it from Shirdi and started reading it every night and kept it with me always. It has been 8 years after this crazy situation has passed away but I still remember how reading Baba’s book made me feel. I was happy with in myself, peaceful and even concentrated more on studies than usual. I also got back some friends saying they were Sorry for what they did and did not realize that it’s the other person who was on the wrong side. I did not care about it anymore because I got few very nice friends who were very caring. I know this sounds a silly issue and I don’t want to share everything here as Baba knows what exactly happened but He gave me a lot of courage during that time to handle.
I was married at the age of 22 in the last year of my bachelors. It was on a Thursday that my father made a decision in marrying me to my husband. Whatever important decisions are, they are usually taken on Thursday in my family. Everything was so fast, my husband and I had a virtual engagement on Skype (as he stays in U.S.A) and we met only days before our marriage. He was very kind and loving person. Ours is an arranged marriage and also I am not a person or a girl who thinks so much of how things have to go in my life. I guess my father over pampered me and maybe I thought I don’t have to worry about the person as he was chosen by my father. Never did the thought that how this person was going to treat me or would this person understand me enough had crossed my mind. I left everything to my dad and we always believed that Baba always does something which was always good for us. After the marriage we had some time to spend together. We went to Shirdi immediately after the marriage to take Baba’s blessings. My husband went back to U.S.A after 12 days of our marriage. After few months, I came to U.S.A. Now I can say that I cannot be happy with any other person other than him. We had our share of fights but they were not really anything before our love. I thank Baba even today for making him as my life partner.
After a year or so, my husband had lost his job due to some layoffs in his company. Also I was not working at that time and had a plan to continue my studies. He applied for many jobs but there was hardly any response from any of them. There were some calls but nothing was going forward. We were scared inside but something kept us looking forward. For his technology there were not many jobs in our area so were open to any place. After a long wait of 2 months, he got a call to attend an interview from a so called big company. After 2 rounds of interview, they informed us that they found someone else more efficient for that job. We had only one other option in our hand which was 50-50 as they were not sure of anything. We almost lost hope and were worried. I had never seen my husband in so much distress. He is usually so calm and courageous all the time. But that day when we had no option in his hand, he was really in a lot of pain. But on a Thursday we received a call from that big company saying they wanted to hire my husband and that too a full time employee. We were very excited and happy. After 3 long months, we were relieved and moved to new place. We came to know that the person who was previously selected rejected that offer as he did not want to move to different place. But I still don’t understand why he had attended the interview and then said no to moving. (Usually companies specify the location of the job right). I think its Baba Who did the change of plans. We still feel lucky to be hired in this company. I really thank You Baba for Your kindness towards us.
After coming to this new state, I joined my masters and life was almost perfect with Baba’s blessings. I went to India for 4 months during my summer break. I became pregnant and it was unexpected. We were happy to proceed further. One day I had a casual call with my husband. He said that he has having some debts (10 lakhs) to some banks and all these debts were because we did not have job and some visa expenses which came up when he did not have job. I usually don’t involve much in financial matters of my own family which has become my biggest mistake. So we decided we pay some money every month so it will not be a burden.
I came to U.S.A during my second trimester. My studies were going on and by the end of my 9 month my last semester of my college started. I was blessed with a baby boy and life was so busy after that. I did not have much time to speak to my husband about anything. My parents were here to take care of me and my baby. When my baby was 4 months old approximately, I was going through my husband’s phone and found something related to someone else’s bank account details. Why will we have someone else’s bank account details in our mail who is not part of our family? When asked repeatedly he told me that he was in debt with the other person. I questioned him why he took the money for as I know that we did not invest our money anywhere. He was so hesitant to reveal everything out. I almost said that I will kill myself if you lie to me. He then said that he had somewhere around 80 lakhs debt and all that was because he was addicted to Casinos. I knew that he likes to play in the casino but never knew that he was addicted to it. He said that he had borrowed money from many of his friends and played and lost all the money. Every time he went there he thought he would get the lost money with the money he had and then would lose all the money he had and also swiped the credit cards, maxed them out and borrowed money form the lending companies. This had happened ever since I went to India. The thing he said about having 10 lakhs debt was also from playing casino. He was lonely and went there once in a while which gradually became his weakness. I told everything to my parents. They were not able to digest what just happened to their daughter’s family. I was scared to death and did not understand what to do. I didn’t have a job and we have a baby to take care of and his salary won’t be enough to pay the min balances and also to manage the family. I was so enraged that I wanted to kill him for the thing he had done to me. I mean I had loved the person blindly. He had cheated my love towards him. Just imagine being cheated by the person whom we loved like anything. I thank Baba that it was good that my parents were there when I found this otherwise I could not imagine what would happen to my family and my baby because my father gave me strength and support to handle the situation. Now I cannot love my husband like before. It’s not because he lost so much money, it’s because he never bothered about the baby, never bothered to lie to my face and never bothered about our future. Trust once lost cannot be gained back.
I now have working visa and had to search for a job for which I have to leave my baby in India with my mom. I left my baby in India when he was 7 ½ months old and came back to U.S.A. I had to stop breast feeding which was most difficult situation in my life. There was not a single day I was not scared and missed my baby and also there were hardly only few days which we did not fight. It is not that he is not good character wise or anything. He is the same person like before, but I am not able to tolerate that I have been cheated by the love of my life. He asked for forgiveness many times but I don’t have the heart to forgive him. The thought that my marriage is over has come to my mind many times. But only after 2 months, by Baba’s grace I was hired for a company as full time employee. I think I am the luckiest person on the earth as of now. Now we both pay the bills together. But I can never forgive him and be normal to him. I wish Baba gives me the lost love and trust I had on him. Baba is always by my side giving me the strength to handle the situations. I always comfort myself saying that I thank God, It’s not some health issues I am dealing with, it’s just some money which I never gave much importance. I thank Baba for all His blessings on my family and pray Him to give me the strength to handle any situation and see that everyone is happy. Baba, please give me the heart to forgive my husband whole heartedly. Thanks again for this life Baba.
I got a new job because of which I had to move to an entirely new city. I went to the temple to meet my Baba and to serve Him for the last time in the temple. However, I wanted to leave early as I had lot of pending work to do. But deep down inside my heart, I was feeling bad that I will not be able to stay for shej aarti. But, Baba read my mind and heart, and He made me stay at the pretext of talking to people about my new job. I got the chance to attend shej aarti as I had wished and also to put Baba to sleep (as per the temple's daily rituals). Baba blessed me with a saree, a wall clock and calendars through a member of the temple board. I like to think that it was all as a token of appreciation and good luck wishes from my Baba.
Another time, I also had gone to an Ashatalakshmi Devi temple where I secretly wished to see Baba in some form. The main temple premises did not have any Baba idol, so I was dejected. My happiness knew no bounds when I went to canteen for prasadam and there was a photo frame where Baba was there along with other Gods. This was another miracle that I can never forget. There have been days where I have felt angry on Baba on not fulfilling some of my wishes. I guess Baba has been testing my devotion towards Him and I have failed miserably. I bow down with humility and submit my ego and anger. Baba, please forgive Your daughter, and bless my family and me. I strongly believe that You will help me when the right time comes and I have paid for my past sins. Om Sri Satchitanda Sadguru Sainath Maharaj ji Jai!
One day my aunt asked me to believe in Sai Baba and do parayana. After that on Thursday I started parayana and completed. I kept on praying Sai Baba. Again I started parayana, on first day while reading the parayana I experienced some kachha(raw) mango smell, we didn’t have mango trees in surroundings and also that was not the season for mangoes. While doing parayan daily I was experiencing that smell till I finished the parayan. At that time I felt that Baba wanted to say that I would conceive that month. I totally believed that. After that I took pregnancy test it was negative. But I didn’t believe it, I cried a lot in front of Baba and said Baba I don't believe this. You said that I have conceived please help me Baba, like this I kept on crying. After 4 days I again took pregnancy test it was positive. Love You Baba for Your love and blessings.
But after that I had again miscarriage. But I still believed in Baba, I kept on asking Him to bless us with a child. After few months I went to doctor she said that my ovarian reserve was reduced, it was better to go for IUI, if not succeeded then go for IVF. It’s been one and half year we kept trying, I had IUI two times, failed and had IVF two times that also failed. Now it is the third time I had IVF, after egg recovery doctor said, got only two eggs from you and that too of average quality, go for donor egg. I cried a lot, but because of Baba's blessings amongst the two one was fertilized and transferred last week. Next Saturday will be the result. Getting a little bit tension. This time also He showed me some symptoms about pregnancy. I totally believe in Sai Baba, definitely He will bless us. I request you all to please pray for us to bless with a child. This time definitely it will be positive because of Baba's blessings. Thank You Baba Love You Baba.
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