Shirdi Sai Baba Miracles and Leela in this Post:
We start liking each other and getting close so i thought that may be this is the Baba Leela and might be she will be my life partner because i never wanted my past and all and Baba always saved me from all wordily distractions for which i felt proud of myself but this time things are happening so fast that can’t be controlled so whenever i have to take any big decision in my life i used to raised chits in fronts of Baba and same thing i did this time also by going to Sai temple with her and raised two chits, in one chit live with her is written and in second chit not live with her and with Baba blessings positive chit picked by young boy in temple and then we indulge in relationship by thinking that Baba is behind this our pure relation but after few months i got to know somewhere that she hided many things from me about her past which is trust breaking incident for me but at that time i am already so involved in her that it becomes impossible for me to move out of relation but from that day one fear is set in my mind that she may also leave in future after come to know about her past but since from my childhood, Baba is everything to me, my Father, Mother, Brother so i thought that if she also become Sai devotee then she never leave me, so i started telling about Deva His miracles then she also involved in Baba so much and become Sai devotee. We used to do Baba’s all Aartis on Tata sky live active Darshan, we used to go old age home, orphanage for charity and helping poor people and we used to ask Baba whether He accepted Bhog during lunch and dinner time by saying please wear blue colour or green colour cloth if You accepted the Prasad and my Baba wears blue colour or green colour cloth in Shirdi same day indicating that yes He accepted. Then we both feel so special.
Our life was going smooth with some fights and problem which is the part of everyone life but since Baba is with us so no problem we are feeling after any fight we used to straight away go to Sai temple and in front of Baba we do promise that we will not repeat the mistake again and i deeply involved in her and without her i can’t expect to live my life. I took the pledge that i will do Sai Guruvar Vrat for entire my life so from these Vrats Baba bless her and save her and give her longer life then me because i can’t imagine 5 minutes of my life without her and one astrologer told me that in her horoscope there are some bad yog which can result into any serious accident so i thought to do Vrats for her and advice her not to go alone anywhere so like this days were passing but after 2 years, i found that she started changing for me because of fights and few problems and whenever she commits the mistake she never accept it because she don’t have fear of losing me like before, she have the big family and now she also become the devotee of Sai but i have that fear of losing her because i am so alone and i am deeply in love with her that i don’t know how to live without her. So i daily pray to Baba please bless our relationship. I also committed many mistakes but always i realised that and always try to improve that mistake because i am a man not a God, i told her so many times but she started changing for me and i am unable to bear that thing because i never expected these things from her because so many times she committed the mistakes but i used to forget those things by keeping in mind that this relation is my Baba gifts and one day all the things will come to normal and smooth as earlier.
Since last 12 years every year i visit to Shirdi with my mother but after coming in this relation and when i noticed that she also started loving my Baba so much i promised her to go to Shirdi along with her or after her visit not before her so that she would not feel any pain that Baba is not calling her to Shirdi. But see what happened she planned her visit first visit to Shirdi in March 2016 and i planned my journey after 5 days of her visit as per promise and before 20 days going to Shirdi she said she will no longer wants to live with me and from now onwards she wants to live for her family only i told her that i loved her very much and i can’t live without her and no one is there for me who can help me to overcome from this situation and i told her that Baba will give my love and purity by wearing blue colour cloth daily during your visit and yes Baba wore blue colour cloth daily in one of arties but she ignored that indications of Baba which is the base of our relation. After this type of incident in life i started suffering from severe heart pain and insomnia but still i have the hope that since Baba is there, might be she will come again to me and when i visited to Shirdi after 5 days straightway went to Samadhi Mandir and started begging in front of Baba to return her in my life otherwise give me death because the pain was unbearable. During 2 day stay in Shirdi, i all the time pray for the same thing to Baba and in the night i used to stay in Dwarkamai outer portion where Baba sitting stone is kept instead in my hotel because the pain is so unbearable it is hard to live in the hotel, at the last day of my stay i prayed Baba to return her in my life and raised two chits, one positive and one negative regarding her in front of Sai Samadhi and asked one small boy to pick up one chit and the chit which he picked up and handed over to me is positive chit that she will return to me.
Then i happily came back to lucknow and i started mailing her. She replied me after long time but in very arrogant manner that my already broken heart is again broke but i have full faith on Baba that since Baba is with me no one can hurt me and leave like this so i requested her say sorry i done all things which i can do from side so the things again comes to normal and she comes back to me but she instead of thinking my situation from how much pain and torture i am going through she replying me in very rude and arrogant manner and not in a mood to come back. At last i lost all my patience from her past behaviour one thing i know about her that once she decided to leave anything anyone she never looks back so i decided to break my all hope that she can return in future so i done few things to end my hope ever that she will never come back to me if i had not done those few things to break my hope i know that then the each single day becomes hell for me the she will return because i have very strong faith on lord Sai since He is everything to me and i never think that i have to face such situation in my life at one point of time. After that when my all hope was ended i went into depression, insomnia and severe heart pain problem for that i started taking treatment from doctor, when i closed my eyes in night i saw her in my dreams that everything between us is settled down but as i opened my eyes i found that she will never come back so i started avoiding sleep at night because of seeing her in my dream very close to me all the things found perfect but when i open my eyes my pain become double.
Daily i cried in front of Baba, why this thing had happened to me seriously at point of time i don’t want to live life but in that night Baba comes to my dream said He is with me, He is my father and i am His son and i will be fine and from 29-03-2016 my Baba started wearing full blue colour cloth or blue colour daily indicating me that He is always with me and Baba wore continuously blue colour one time in 24 hours in Shirdi Samadhi Mandir till 26-05-2016 every day and this is my last day of check up from doctor and my treatment. Now i feel little bit fine but still missing her so much i loved her. I wish Baba do some miracle that she will return to me in my life after realizing her that how much i loved her care her what things happened why those things happened what her mistakes etc but i know it will never happen she will never come back to me, God bless her. But i daily asked one questions answer from Baba please give it to me in my dreams since if we have to apart from each other like this then Baba why we met with each other since You are with me from my childhood, i don’t have anyone except You and my Mother, You are my protector, guardian, saviour then how this major turnaround in my life taken place, please Baba give me this answer and i salute on Your Lotus Feet that if You did not came to me that night in my dreams may be i ended my life next day, love You Baba.
This is my humble request to my Lord, my Deva, my Sai please Baba save all Your devotees from this kind of pain, such situation from which i suffered and please Baba protect every relationship so that if two person come together they never betrayed each other they always live with each other peacefully throughout whole life with Your blessing and love and if someone has this type of tendency then please Baba keep Your devotees away from such person because this pain is most dangerous and severe then all other diseases because diseases can be cured but the memories special moments can’t be completely vanish from your heart. Please Baba since she is Your devotee, i want one favour from Sai that please at any point of life she must realize from inside that how much i loved her i cared her miss her make my life to her and why those things i did at last in which situation and mental state, i was and at point of time she left me alone without thinking that how i will face this problem since i am very alone except my old mother how my mother helped me at this age of her she never thought about this and how i will overcome from this situation who will be there for me since she is my life please Baba since she is Your devotee, she also loves You very much then how she left me at such peak time of life where i needed her the most, i wish Baba she will come back with Your blessings by realizing that mistakes are done by human only and both did the mistakes and only human can forgive also those mistakes because life is very short no one knows what will happen next but now no one is there for me Baba. I am all alone again please be with me always Sai. Om Sai Namo Namah Om Sai Namo Namah.
Next day morning I did my regular Pooja and asked Sai Appa to give me some hint about this job through Sai Satcharitra. I just randomly opened the book and I got solkar’s story. At that time I got confirmation from Sai Appa that I will get this job. Even I don’t know the interview place also. But without any tension, i reached the place safely and attended the interview. I was very calm, still it is a surprising for me. Because i will get tensed very easily. After the interview am started thinking negatively about that job and company. I don’t know why such negative thoughts came to me. After two days I got a telephonic confirmation that I got selected. I was in dilemma whether to join there or not. I asked Sai Appa many times. Then I told my Sai Appa that, If you only gave me this opportunity then I need to get either my offer letter on Thursday or my joining date should be on Thursday. They asked me to tell some convenient date for joining. I preferably chose Thursday (05.05.2016)alone, and I got my offer letter also on Wednesday. So I thought may be Sai Appa doesn’t like this job. Then due to some problems, I can’t join in that company on 05.05.2016. I asked them to postpone my date of joining as 19.05.2016. But after that I didn’t get any call or mail from HR.
Then I started 40 days sugar candy Pooja. I left the decision to my Sai Appa. I didn’t ask Him to make it happen. Because Sai Appa knows what is good for me. I waited till 18.05.2016. I didn’t get any mail. I thought that they have chose some one. Here the miracle happened. Then 19.05.2016 (Thursday) I went to nearby Sai Mandir. I was sitting in temple. My mobile was ringing. I got call from HR department. They are asking that today you are joining right. I was dumb struck. Then I explained them I didn’t get any confirmation from your end so I thought you have chosen some one. Then they asked me to join immediately. The day of joining I saw Sai Appa was already there. There was my Sai Appa photo, but I didn’t see this photo even at the time of interview. See how my Sai Appa words came true (I mean His answer from Q&A site). Even my colleague is also Sai Appa devotee. Appa in new office am facing some hurdles. Please solve everything. I really feel blessed. I got much closer to my Sai Appa because of this miracle. I really can feel His presence. Sai Appa, You know about my problems. Please bring me out from all problems. Please cure my health issues. Please bless me with nice life partner. Devotees please have patience. It’s not easy but we have to. Sai Appa please bless everyone in this world. Akhilanda Koti Brahmand Nayak Rajadhi Raj Yogiraj Para Brahma Satchidhanandha Sadguru Sai Nath Maharaj Ki Jai. Om Sai Ram.
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