Shirdi Sai Baba Miracles and Leela in this Post:
In December 2014, he asked me to go back to India and stay for sometime as he needed break from me and needed space. I was not ready but somehow he convinced me and I left. I was not well too hence I was undergoing treatment for the same in India. When I returned to South in January in 2015 first week, for the first week things were so good and I was very happy but after a week the real problems came up. He asked me one afternoon to call his personal assistant home and spend time with her, dinner and all. At the same time, he fought with me in the office and said real bad words like I don’t deserve to be his wife and all. I cried a lot and came back home as usual. He was going out for dinner and when he came back at one at midnight, the first question he asked if I called her or not and I said I did not. He fought so much with me and asked me to go sleep in the other room. I left and slept in the other room. This went on for two weeks. His father came to South Arica but before he came he again fought with me and sent me to India without informing anyone. He even said all the wrong things to his father about me and said he wants to separate. He even physically abused me and apologised for it. But somehow with too many ups and downs I was finally back to South Arica in May. We even went for a holiday but during the entire trip he was on his phone talking to the other girl now. The first girl had left the office and I knew they were not in touch and all. But there is this another girl who took this place. I did not say anything but tried adjusting. He even said he is trying to work on this. I was happy at least he is trying.
In August 2015, I found some compromising pictures of my husband with that girl and when I asked him he laughed and said its to make someone jealous. (That girl's friend) I was really heartbroken and was trembling. I confronted this with that girl but she went to my husband and told him that I asked her questions and husband came home and hit me for that. On August 2015 I lost it and went to the Police as he was hitting me every day now, all because of the other woman. When the police called him for questioning, he left the country the same night. I had no money or a place to stay. He became so cruel and left me like this to fight. He then hired lawyers to fight with me. I had no lawyers or the money to support the expenses. I understand things went too bitter. But I did not get angry, I feel I am lost and heartbroken. I don’t know what is right for me now. I left my life on Baba completely. My husband tried messaging me many times and saying that he loves me and he misses me. He also said he loved me truly and is sorry for not being a good husband. To all devotees, this is the second time I had to go through this in life and hence I lost all the desires to live. First time because my mother thought I am a burden and hence I went through an almost similar situation. But I was very young that time and hence worked hard in my life to achieve my career goals. Now I do not want to go to anybody because everybody just wants something out of me. I have lost all the trust in mankind and the only thing true is my Baba. I don’t know what Baba has in store for me. But I have surrendered everything to Him. I always wished for a good and loving husband, a family but all that seems to be a dream. I would request you all to pray for me and let Baba do whatever is right for me. I really love You Baba like never before. All other things seem to be untrue but only You are true. Loving You is the only thing left with me. Please be with me always.
One fine day, i came across this beautiful website and started giving suggestions to others because i feel Sai is wanting to connect them through me. Third mainly, i quit my job since it was not recognised and i wanted to do my own consultancy. So i decided to study law in some other state. I thought age is barrier and there is a age limit here. Suddenly HC ordered that there is no age limit. I was really happy and thanked Baba. I kept forms in Baba’s Feet and applied but HC again put ban. I was worried and felt Baba is not in love with me. I thought only Him was unconditional in this world. Suddenly one Sunday, i got call from college and i was selected and called for counselling. Note the Selection was done on Thursday. Then i realised that my age comes under the limit and it would cross if it is few weeks later. It was a real miracle. Otherwise why should HC squashed the age limit when i was supposed to apply in other states which will give me home sick. Baba does not give me that pain. And personally even fights with husband got slowly reduced and i did not care anymore. When Baba is there why should i feel i was not being loved. Now weekly i started doing the rituals on Thursdays by attending Aarti (evening). It gives me real satisfaction. Mass Aarti and singing with other people are really spiritual. I felt like crying when i was singing that songs. This is really new to me. I decided to sit in Aarti whenever i feel depressed and scared. This bond is beautiful. And i want this to be pure and non-separable. I feel, to be under Guru and Lord Feet one should avoid Ego and Pride but give respect to other creatures from heart. Only then we can sense Guru’s presence. He is always there around us only we need to tune to Him by being without ego and pride. My Sai, please make me pride less and egoless. I love my Sai.
Coming to the latest blessing from Baba, I study part time and find it extremely difficult to balance work, home and studies. This semester, I had three subjects that I had to do. One theory, one project and one mechanical practise. I was scared of the mechanical practise as the venue was quite far and I would have had to stay at the campus for a week. I started to panic as I didn't want to leave my 2 kids for a week, even though my mom had kindly come over to help me. Also, staying over for a week was going to be very expensive and it was a week that I could spend on my studies. I put in an exemption form, detailing the work that I do as it covered some of the objectives. For some reason, I had an ego that I could do this without Baba's help and didn't think about it much. I got the reply in a few days time from the University that my request has been rejected. Now my ego was gone and mom asked me to pray well to Baba. I was sure, nothing could be done.
But after thinking about Baba, something made me think that I should ask them why it got rejected. This time, I got a reply from the head of the Department and he listed the reason and of all surprises asked me if I had done any projects of mechatronics nature, and that he was ready to reconsider my request, if I can include that. This was indeed Sai Baba helping me, as there was no chance of the University reconsidering a request that the head of the Department had rejected. In this case, he was telling me that he can reconsider. This time, I prayed well to Baba before, during and after I was preparing the request. I promised Sai that if I get my exemption, I will post my experience and will also distribute five blankets to the poor. After a few days, I received an e-mail from the University and I opened it with so much fear, worried what the result might be. It read, After carefully considering, you have been granted exemption. My joy knew no bounds. I thank Baba once again for His blessing. We are blessed to have known Sai Baba.
Another experience is that one evening my mother was suffering from severe pain on her right foot as she got hit with a football that morning when she was watching football match conducted by their municipality. My mother is a municipal Counsellor. Being a doctor, I was sure that she had fractured her foot. But she was reluctant to go to hospital and take an X-ray and check if there is a fracture or not. I prayed to my Sai Paa to cure her. Next day morning there was no pain on her foot. I even pressed there. But there was no pain. My Sai Paa cured my mom's foot. Love You always my Sai Paa. Om Sai Ram.
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