Shirdi Sai Baba Miracles and Leela in this Post:
Once he had brought from Shirdi a portrait of Sai which he had placed in our basement and had been there for many years to be brought to our Pooja room only when I was in 12th standard. Don’t know but somehow I started studying in that room itself. I studied day and night and being exhausted at the end of the day I would look at His portrait on which was written “If you look at Me, I look at you”. I felt real relief seeing Him and went off to sleep after that. Beautiful days were those trust me. I just studied and before sleeping would ask Sai, “Are you happy with me?” Through that portrait, He gave that look which poured all Love. All that mattered to me back then were my studies and God. I took my board exam would come back each day stand before Sai ask for a certain percentage in that days exam and then would sit down to study for next day and when the results came, i was given exactly those marks what I had prayed for. I had topped my district with 95% back in 2005. It had always been like this for me. I knew that someone was always watching over me, who knows my efforts, who knows my thoughts, who knows everything. I have to be right in thought and actions and He is ready to fulfil all my wishes. I always wondered why people are not praying as God always fulfils the wishes.
Then came my All India Pre Medical exam preparation period. Meantime my elder brother got married and we had shifted to Delhi for my exam preparation. My sister-in law is a Sai devotee and used to visit Sai Mandir every Thursday. My brother would come late from work so I would accompany her every Thursday though I was never a staunch devotee of Sai as such. I just believed in God and yes every time I would pray for my exam standing in front of Him in the Temple. Then came the day of exam. I was pretty nervous and was heading towards the exam centre in our car, when somebody overtook our car and crossed in front waving to stop our car. The person from his seat asked me to lower down the car window which I did and he confidently asked me ”Are you going for the premedical test” to which I answered “Yes” and he gave me Sai’s postcards 4-5 in number saying "Sai will bless you". Before I could understand anything, he disappeared and I immediately looked back at my mother who was seated at the back seat. She was speechless too. I took my exam and was not at all satisfied with my performance. I cried and cried a lot. I expected not a good rank and when the results were out and we were going to a cyber café at 1 at night because we had no internet connection back then. On my way I just made a silent prayer “I know God I did not do well but still I ask for a rank within 200 and will you believe it, i was blessed with an all India rank 181, an exam in which around 3,00,000 students appear every year and in an exam in which I really did not do so well.
I joined one of the finest medical colleges of the country. However now I lost my school time innocence. There was contact with all sort of friends and my beliefs changed. It’s not always prayers. I had no strict control over thoughts and actions and so now my prayers were not always fulfilled. I was actually growing up. I took things lightly although I prayed as always. I completed my MBBS and appeared for all India post graduation exam. I got selected and took my post graduation in obstetrics and gynaecology and an experience that shook my life happened, brought me closer to God. 2 years went well. There was a good friend then who had proposed to me i had put down the proposal first because I did not feel like. For me getting into a relationship was a big big thing and I had never felt so as if I needed someone. Eventually we became the best of friends. He was always there whenever i needed and he also shared everyday tensions and fun at work with me. I had started enjoying his company. However i told him clearly that I feel that someone stops me every time I feel like agreeing upon. This had happen a number of times and he used to get irritated with my answer saying "it’s so illogical. You have no reason that someone stops you, an inner voice?" He seemed to be very emotional and his friends also used to call me up whenever he was upset guessing we had a fight, saying he cares for me a lot and how can I not see how am I hurting him.
Finally I asked Sai, for me He being like any other God, with yes or no chit and the answer was a straightaway “no”. To which I thought how is it possible? The guy loves me so much and i had started liking him too. Just controlled my emotions because somewhere i knew God did not want me to. Eventually I gave in emotionally and agreed. Meantime I came across this site and also received Sai Satcharitra which I had booked online after reading the experiences of so many devotees here. The very next day to when i had agreed came the biggest shock of my life. His lost love who had left him after being in a relationship with him for 4 years called him up and was crying asking him to come back. She had been engaged somewhere else and their engagement had been called off from the boy's side. I was pretty sure that would not affect our relationship in any way. It seemed to me as if God wanted me to stay away from him. God Himself was pulling me away from him. The guy asked for some time. That hurt me deep down that he still needs time to think about me? I just prayed to God "I don't know what's happening but please handle my life and do Your will" and yes, as Sai had already told me he left me. I was shattered. I understood he just needed a girl for filling that empty space and he did not really love me otherwise he could not have hurt me. Sai always wanted to protect me but I gave in to emotions. That was the worst phase of my life. I felt of being used of my emotions and then thrown away once purpose was fulfilled. I used to cry at every little thing. My parents visited me often because i had told my mom everything.
I needed to study because that was my final year and i was the postgraduate who was under the head of the department. Being in that team of doctors which was the best and most strict. I was not able to cope. I cried and cried. I did not do well even at work. I used to get scolded often. The guy got engaged and eventually married, me being in the same college. I tried concentrating on my studies and work, But failed every time. He did not even care once what would happen to me. I Used to cry myself to sleep every night and used to wake up every morning fearing to go to work. I had trusted him the most in my life even more than Sai at one point when Sai had answered "No" and he had so brutally broken it. Meanwhile i had Sai Satcharitra, i tried reading it but could not concentrate at all. I knew, i had spoilt my life and there seemed to be no way out. I deteriorated at work, in studies. My parents who had always been so proud of me, They now worried looking at my condition. The head who was so fond of me at one point of time now did not like me. I used to hate work, hate life.
At last there was a hostel mate of mine who according to some Baba's advise used to distribute fruits to poor outside Temple every Thursday. She had asked me often whether I would accompany her. However i refused her every time. She used to ask me repeatedly every Thursday till one Thursday, i did accompany her. Obviously you would have guessed by now it was Sai Baba temple. I immediately felt one with Sai. I prayed with tears, I know Sai, i am not the same child of Yours anymore. I feel ashamed of asking You anything but I promise next time, i visit Your Temple I'll be a better child. I don't remember what i did but i did visit the Temple next Thursday and then every Thursday to follow. I thought about Sai day and night, listened to His Bhajans, asked Him to strengthen my faith day by day and yes my life changed. Gradually, There came a situation at work when something went wrong when all the blame was put on me. Conditions were such that it was tough I would be saved. I cried my heart out to Sai, asking Him to save me and vowed to become a good soul always. I told Him that if I be saved now, i will understand it's just You who is working because it’s impossible otherwise that i will be saved and yes the very next day something happened and i was proved innocent. The consultant in her words exclaimed "The whole story has changed” and yes my belief in Sai strengthened what exactly I had prayed for. I knew He is there.
I started studying hell late as compared to my batch mates in Feb 2015, when my exams were in May 2015. I started answering in class and my head was a bit better in behaviour with me. Earlier I was unable to answer questions asked to me in class and I being the head's candidate, my head always felt ashamed of me in front of other consultants. I was now answering when others were unable to. She now smiled at me and I was experiencing my Sai's Miracles. I did Sai Satcharitra reading thrice each in a week. And took my exams giving all my burden to Sai. The exams were postponed to 04-06-2015 (total 9) happened to be a "Thursday". Was not the date itself a Miracle to strengthen my faith all the more. I also read a post on 04-06-2015 past 2 A.M on this site, a devotees experience on how Sai helped a devotee pass the MD exam of post graduation. One more Miracle in itself. So Sai had taken all the burden and yes I was chosen as the best Postgraduate student and would be awarded with a "Gold Medal" soon. I have now realized that St. Jude who had always answered my prayers in childhood and Sai, the two saints of my life, are all one, God's messengers to help people to realize the power supreme. I am back home after 10 long years of studying outside my city. I cried to Sai, I really want to be with Him always. At home I am becoming a bit lazy. I want to keep my vow of being a good child of God always. Please people who are reading this just make a small prayer that our Sai Who has sheltered us always, Who had accepted us when the whole world was against. When people lost faith in us and we were thrown away, He who picked us up and in His love, we gained back our confidence, may He be with us always. May He pull us to Him when we are deviating from the right path to keep us close to Him because there lies our bliss, there lies our happiness, there lies our life, our Sai. May He make us His instrument to show to the world that there exists a supreme power, Who is always ready to love us, that we belong to Him and it is best if we allow Him to do His will.
I had gone through a bad phase for two months and the whole fault was on me. I had put a lot of pressure on my parents due to this. Due to the stress my mother's health deteriorated. So when this proposal was dropped out, my mother wanted to get her health back on track while I badly needed the Shirdi trip. After my mom suggested whether I could go later, I was sad but when I opened the Satcharitra Book randomly, the page Baba draws His devotees like a sparrow to Shirdi came and I was wondering how. Next day, My mom itself changed her mind and found out my aunts had not cancelled Darshan ticket and gave consent for me to go to Shirdi. This was on Tuesday 27th Jan and now I Had to fly directly to Mumbai on 30th Jan. I was worried about the ticket cost as flight costs are high as good at Rs 10,000 closer to dates of travel. I was worried but thought Baba is there. I went and checked the flights and was surprised that there was flight at 1:30 in the afternoon from Chennai to Mumbai at Rs 2700 inclusive of tax I was shocked. It took me close to half and hour to book my tickets and get it done but the rates didn't increase neither did I lose the booking. Thus I travelled to Shirdi unexpectedly on 30th Jan 2015 at comfortable time and rate despite all the mess and stress I had created for all Baba called me to Shirdi. I still find it had to recall and forgive myself for what I put everybody through but Baba called me in spite of my sin. I can’t forgive myself but guess He had forgiven and shown He is there for me even if I messed up.
After 3 years struggle, I got software job with 30000 salary. My life totally changed. I realized I am in love with my M.B.A friend. Both families not agreed for my marriage. After 3 years struggle, I got married with my loved one. I got special hike 15% as my marriage gift from Baba. We went to Shirdi in Feb and I got conceived next month and blessed with Baby Boy. After 10 months of my delivery, my Back Pain started. I resigned my Job last year due to severe back pain for 3 years. My Husband and in laws were happy for my Resignation. They were not able to see my pain. When I resigned the job, I was earning 55 thousand. I got full support in my marriage time, conceive and back pain in office. Nobody can’t imagine how much support I got in office, till I resigned my Job. My Husband can’t even see my pain. He is helping all house hold works like giving food to son and batching etc. I am able to cook food for my family remaining works done by Husband and servant. I am repaying my past karma deeds. Baba gave us money to go for health checkups and maintaining servant. I am so lucky because of my loving husband and in laws. Due to Baba’s Grace only, I got Best husband in this world.
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