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I am from good family background. It was a time, when i was doing some bad deed, i was stealing petrol from someone's bike. Suddenly there was a power cut and in stir, i left the nozzle opened and quickly i lighted a candle. In second’s time, fuel caught the fire. Vehicles too started lightening up. I got anxious as i couldn't call anyone for help and if i got caught like this, then my family’s reputation was on stake. I went here & there for some time trying to extinguish the fire but was unsuccessful. So i bent down on my knees, raised my hand towards Baba and asked Him to forgive me, requested Him for a while in other room and then hurried to see what fire had done. Nobody will believe this miracle as only tires caught little flames rest there was no harm. I cleaned up everything immediately and went to bed thanking Baba for saving/helping me there.
I was a regular visitor of Sai temple before above incident also and i used to attend the night prayers (Shej Aarti). I got intermediate degree after 2 years of hard-work and got decent college by Baba's grace. My college was in different city which was far from home. I used to go out and spend time, but i hadn't lived without my family (it was not a concern though). I was ready for everything, made a decision to take room available for Paying Guest type. I prayed to Baba once that please help me, give strength to me & (just as an query) arrangement of any room. Couple of days before, i had to leave. I got a call from my uncle and he asked all about and then told me that wait he will check if there was any possibility etc. He (uncle) called after some time, give me one name and number & said talk to him. You can stay there for initial days. I thanked Baba and even without any query, hesitation, fear i left home thinking Baba had arranged all the things for me. I got there and stayed there for some time, and then i moved with new friends.
Now, this is the biggest miracle of my life. Due to some fight with Baba, i took an vow not to ask/demand anything from Him yet having full faith in Him. After few days, i took this oath my father got ill and i got a call from my mother that i would have to come and visit him. I reached home all the things were normal though father had little bit of problems. I prayed to Baba in night that i am breaking my oath and asking You this thing, help my father to recover from the illness. So as medicine weren't working properly someone suggested consulting any person (Pandit ji, Guru ji etc). Next day, i had visited at the provided address with my mother. There were two rooms. One smaller cabin in which Pandit ji was discussing the issues and the other room was for waiting. There was Baba everywhere, when i entered the waiting room, i saw Baba's large Portrait Picture of sitting in Samadhi. Tears came from my eyes and i said sorry to Baba in silently as i can't express my emotions there. I took a seat with my mother and i was seeing two large size portrait opposite to each other in the waiting room and one statue (Murti) of Baba and one red colour large land size picture of Baba with Damaru in one hand. Again my eyes were full of tears and i want to cry out loud but i controlled myself.
After some time when we got our turn then we consulted the health issue of father with him and he provided some remedies to us for that. Later my mother also asked him about me when i could get a better job etc. He started asking me about job and life and when he said "just keep faith in Baba, He will do everything, leave everything on Him and get free". I couldn't control myself and tears started running down my eyes. My mom got nervous, what happened to me etc. They started asking me what was the matter, is there any kind of problem, love affair, break up etc. But i told them it was the Baba, no one else and i told him the story about my oath. Sorry for the long post but no one can imagine what i feel while writing this, we know that we have Baba yet some times we ask questions from Baba, i have done myself multiple times and still doing. Many times, i got answers also, some says you have to visit temple on Thursday for Baba's Darshan, but i mostly enjoyed on the other days, Forgive me Baba please just give me strength to do good things and protect me from evil deeds, negative thinking. Om Sai Ram-Jay Sai Baba.
But i was wrong. Love left us. The thing which brought us together separated us. 2014 was the year when i lost him due to his personal reason as his mother is not well and she wants his son to be married by his choice so he sacrificed his love for his mother. I could just say, you respect your decision but i will wait for you always. From past 1 year, i have been crying. I was waiting for him like mad. He stopped conversation and everything as he want me to move on and forget him but i always told him that i know My Baba will hear me. One day, He will bring you back to me. My prayers will be heard. I kept on fasting, kept on weeping, sleepless nights, tried everything but failed. But there was always a faith in me that one day Sainath will hear me. During this time, i found myself talking to Baba and I still remember, He always says to me that, Have Faith and Patience. You will get what all you want. Everyone around me says, he won’t come back but i know that my Baba will hear me.
After 5 months of no contact, i contacted him back just to tell him about being placed in a company. I tried to be very normal with him and acted as if i have overcome the pain of separating but deep down in my heart, i know, i am still there where he left me and till today, he is talking to me not as a friend but just as a well-wisher. He says he don’t have guts to talk to me as a friend and still i smile and say no problem, i understand your condition and pain. I really don’t know what is planned for me but one thing i know my Baba has planned something very nice for me, that’s why after so much of patience, He at least made me to talk to him and get my all answers from the time, where he refused to talk at least he now talks a bit, but again he is saying, he can’t talk as we both get nostalgic while talking and i don’t want to hurt you more as i know there is no future. But friends i still have faith. I still believe that Baba will defiantly listen to me one day and He will only bring him back completely in my life. This pain is given by my Baba, so i know, he will only find out the solution for it. I would say, you all just have faith and patience, you will get what you want. Just always believe that whatever happens, it happens for a reason and whosoever is meant for you, you will get that person back. May all Sai devotees feel Baba's blessings and love always. At the end, i will say, i promise here the day i will get him back i will post again. I am waiting for my Baba's miracle to happen in my life since it’s said the more you wait for something more you will value and admire when you will get it. Baba, i just loved that person and will always do please shower me with Your blessings and please send my love back. Om Sai Ram.
Every time Baba reminds me "Deserve before you desire". So that's Baba's advice, whenever you're wishing for something, first ask yourself, whether you're capable to acquire that! Some of my job interviews Baba showed His presence in that way. Then I realised that I have to be capable to acquire any good thing in my life. I learned more things related my job and continuously tried. But still no progress. At last the next year again I went to Mumbai in search of Job and I got one. But that was also a story. This time, when I reached Mumbai with my same last year friend's facilities, one day in depression I told him, these all things are stupid to believe in Gods and all! Also I nagged, last year I went to Baba and still no job like that. Almost I completed to stay in Mumbai 1 month and plan to return my home in Kerala without any hope. One last Thursday, I had to face a job interview for Oman. From morning 9 'o' Clock to till evening 5.30 pm a lot of candidates were there for interviews in a big hall. I didn't have any hope to win that race also, but just think to give the interview same like other interviews. At last I got my call and just attended the interview. Without hope, while I was returning home, suddenly I got a call from the Agency (Job recruiter) and informed that I was selected for the job and if I am interested, submit my passport and all. Then I realised at last Baba blessed me by this. Because that was "Thursday" and after 6.30 pm. After that "Shirdi Baba" is always with me and His wonders are vast. Baba's words are real. He said "Patience and devotion" that will make anybody's life wonderful.
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