Anonymous Devotee from India says: I am a Sai devotee since last 5 years but was worshiping Him as one of other God’s occasionally until this feb'14 wherein my life came to stand still mode. Needless to say that if Baba was not there with me, i would have given up my life. Please do not disclose my name or email id.



I am a 30 year old female from Delhi who married a inter caste guy 7 yrs ago against the wishes of both our parents and in laws. It was a love marriage and at that time it felt that we both need each other and no one else. Everything happened nicely and with the time passing by my parents adored my husband like anything and my entire family praised him like anything. Reason being he is also so caring, soft spoken, open minded and most of all non-interfering. Everything was going fine for starting years. After 2 yrs of our marriage we started to plan out the family but unfortunately, i was not able to conceive though all me and my husband reports were normal. Many a time we went for certain treatments but left the same in between due to shortage of time since we both are working and in today’s time dealing with doctors require lots of patience. My husband has always being very supportive but i was the one who was getting very desperate for the baby.


Day and night this thing was on my mind but i never got a hint that how and when due to my behaviour my husband has started feeling very irritated. I was feeling a little change in his behaviour since last 2 years but never gave much of attention. Soon our temporary fights starts extending to a day or two. Strangest thing happened when he didn't wish me on my birthday and very casually said that he does not believe in formalities. Just 2 days later i.e. on 15th November when i was in my office i received a message from him stating that he is in love with one of his colleagues and that is the reason he is unable to reciprocate his feelings towards me. I didn't know what to do after reading that since i became numb and my mind stopped working. I came home in half day and waited for him to come back since he was not taking my calls. Finally around 4 pm he came back, didn't utter a word and slept, no explanations, no discussions, nothing. To be very honest i thought that he has played some kind of prank on me since i trusted him blindly but my trust was shattered into pieces when he made me talked to that girl who admitted that all this is truth.

I was totally in a shocked state but i loved him like anything and thought to give up everything for his happiness. I decided to get separated in case if she is ready to marry him but to our utter surprise, she rejected the proposal and said that she is not happy with him. There i felt Baba's presence so as in "if he has broken my trust, his trust was also betrayed". On that say he promised that he will never go back to her but that was a lie. She has done so just because of her parent’s pressure. Thereafter i got to know that they are in a relationship, exchanging phone calls, mails, messages are being exchanged every day. I still lived in a hope that my patience will pay me and he will come back to me. Moment things seem to get better, in the next few days it was getting worse. I was simply helpless since he was one person whom i loved him a lot and could not even think of living without him. I thought it is better to give up my life rather than getting tortured every moment.

One day while returning home i thought to buy sleeping pills and attempting suicide, it was raining very heavily and i stopped at 2-3 chemist shops but didn't succeeded since now a day’s chemist does not handover any medicine without prescription. I came back home in a dilemma thinking what needs to be done now. Suddenly i remembered that i had some anti depressant medicines kept with me. I immediately consumed the entire bottle (homeopathic) and just lied down for a sleep. My husband was also there in the room itself but didn't react. After an hour or so when i didn't responded he tried to wake me up to check whether i am alright. At that time i thought he shown a bit of concern but don't know whether it was genuine or just a formality. Present also we are living together on a single room, go out for movie, lunch dinner shopping etc together but like 2 colleagues and relationship and bonding of husband and wife has ended. I also know that he is physically present with me but mentally he keeps missing his girl friend but he never admits the same and every time says that he has left everything.

Whenever i try to trust him something or other opens up my eyes that he is still cheating on me. I want Sai Baba to protect me and guide me like His daughter so that i can overcome this tough phase of life. I want me to please let me know that whether things will fall back to the pieces once again and whether he will ever come back to me again or i should leave him alone and focus on my own life. I always speak to Sai Baba day and night to give me strength to fight all the odds and also to give peace of mind and self realisation to both my hubby and his girl friend so that they realise that what they are doing is not correct. Please Baba help me. I have faith in You and You know what is the time for everything, but since yesterday i am getting a feel that my trust and patience in Baba is somewhat broken and i do not want that. Hence i wanted to share my feelings in this blog so that i can get Sai Baba's advice in form of His devotee's. My request is to please pray for me that i should get back my love in this life only and my faith in Baba should never end. Love You and trust You Baba. Meri Dor Aapke Haath Mein Hai. Om Sai Ram


© Devotees Experiences with Shirdi Sai Baba

38 comments:

  1. MIRACULOUS RECOVERY
    (Shri Sai Leela October 1983)

    I am a devotee of Shri Sai Baba and have read many incidents in Sai-Leela magazine how Lord Sai had helped His devotees. This had inspired me to narrate an incident which took place recently in my life.
    I was not putting on weight and sometimes R.B. cells were passing through my urine. To find out the reason, many types of urine and blood examinations were done, x-rays were also taken, but everything was found to be normal. So the doctor advised me to do a test of renal-biopsy which takes 3 to 4 days. So I was admitted to hospital on 7-1-1983. On 21-1-83 biopsy was done. We were told that because of the ‘biopsy’ the colour of the urine may be a little reddish; but in my case, the urine continued to be red for 3 to 4 days. It was realized then, that while doing the biopsy, the testing needle must have injected on the wrong location, and it must have injured the blood vein, which was the cause of bleeding and so the urine was red.

    We were frightened and praying to Lord Sai for His help. The doctor told that there was no medicine which could stop that bleeding, it will be healed on its own. Like that another fifteen days passed; but the urine was still red. Now the doctors were also worried. It was suggested that if it doesn’t get normal within two to three days, some more tests will be required to trace the exact place of the injury and after that if necessary, surgery should be one to stop the bleeding.

    My mind was full of anxiety and tension. My parents were also much worried. We all prayed from the bottom of our heart to Shri Sai Baba to help us and do something, so we need not have to undergo the surgery.

    It seemed that our prayers were answered and one day to our pleasant surprise the urine became normal. It was the day, just one day before when the other tests for the decision of surgery were to be done. The doctors were also surprised, and told that it is not possible, unless it is a miracle. After this the other test was cancelled. Upto three to four days everything continued to be normal. So I was allowed to move. Unfortunately it was little too early and the injury was not healed completely. So again the bleeding started.

    It was a great shock for me and I thought that if bleeding can occur again, after everything was normal, it is very dangerous and what will happen in future if healing is not complete. I prayed once again, day and night, with full faith to Shri Sai Baba about 8 bottles of blood and more than 100 bottles of glucose-saline were given to me during the period of one month. Shri Sai Baba ultimately listened to our prayers and after a week the urine was once again quite clear; but this time, we did not want to take a risk, so after 15 days of bed-rest, I started to move and when I was out of danger, I was discharged from the hospital.

    I am working in a bank and to avoid the hardships of traveling, I applied for transfer to the branch near my house. By Shri Sai’s grace, I got the transfer immediately, to the branch, which is very close to my house. By His grace I am now alright.

    This incident has impressed me a lot and strengthened my faith in Shri Sai Baba even more. I strongly believe that if you have true faith and if you remember Him from the bottom of your heart, with patience, He will certainly come to your help and fulfill your wishes. May all have such faith towards Him and may Lord Sai Baba’s grace be showered on them.

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  2. Om sai ram. I can understand what you have been going through. I sincerely wish everything in your life gets sorted out soon and you will lead a peaceful life. Please don't make any hasty decision in the mean time. Baba is sure watching you and he is there with you.

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  3. Dear Devotee, Sai never let down His devotees who surrendered to Him with complete faith. Sai Deva Please bless her.

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  4. Baba knows the truth sister. He will bring your husband back to you. I'll pray for you. He can't see his daughters in pain m sure.. Just wait in his hope don't make any hasty decisions.. True love will always be answered..

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  5. Sai baba....help all of us please ..u r our only hope

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  6. Om sai ram. We wish your problem in life ended. Try for a baby as it will bring emotion in both life. This shows that we should not go against our parents in these important decisions.

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  7. Sai Deva, Please bless me to get good job and to settle with my family. This is the only request to You. Om Sai Sri Sai Jaya Jaya Sai

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  8. Sai babs please bless this sister..om sairam

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  9. Saibsba please bless this sister..om sairam

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  10. Saibaba please bless this sister..om sairam

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  11. Dear sister keep Sai nav vrat until he come back to you don't let him go we live once,die once,love once,marriage once

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  12. sister i felt very bad after reading this..i suggest you to perform 9 thursday vrat.being a working women it may be difficult for you to perform vrats and all.but our baba doesnot care about the timings and formalties.so plz worship him for 9 weeks through this vrat in your desired manner and on 9th week donate food to 9 poor..may baba bless you with a happy married life :)

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  13. my husband left the job and told me I will stay in native and I want divorce but I believed in baba.baba helped me and my husband changed his mind and he loves me.all this is bcoz of our baba.have shraddha and saburi.baba will help u and make your husband mind to change.light diyas in front of baba temple and read sai satcharitra

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    1. yes sister even i thought of saying you this..light diyas in sai temple every thursday

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  14. om sairam i wanted to share my experience here.
    we lost our vehcile key and started searching every where but we could not find it.so i prayed baba to help me in searching the key and if i find it i will give some amount to a beggar.i found the key and went out on our bike.i could not find any beggar on the way.2-3 days passed and i forgot to donate the amount i promised.one day an old man came singing songs of rama for biksha(he came many times to our house and i donate something or the other).i took a coin and went out to give him ..he started singing sairam song.when i looked into my hand it was the same amount i promised him before :)

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  15. Om sai ram
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    baba pls take care of them.Dont worry baba will take care of u.if possible do navguruvar vrat.

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    pls take care of us and everyone baba.

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  17. http://www.cbn.com/700club/features/Amazing/#famrestoration
    Dear sister, plz do check the above link how god pays back his devotees trust. do have faith, ur prayers will be answered at correct time, dont doubt him, his plays. For every thing there will be a reason, so have faith and patience.

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  18. sai baba i loved you completely i surrenred to you be with us om sai rm sai sai sai ram om sai sai sai sai ram

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  19. Don't worry sister. .baba will make your husband realise how much you love him..I pray for you ..

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  20. Really feeling bad after reading your experience...i canunderstand your pain....baba will surely save your love and marriage life.....
    please dont take any hasty decisions.....baba plese help her :-(

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  21. Today after reading this experience m feeling depress. I can understand ur pain coz I know when someone u love n h ditches u dn how its feel. Yes m also in same pain. But if u can try 2 live without him n do it, if u can't I know its difficult 4 u dn plz worship goddess parvatiji. U r from dlh n in dlh its normal thing like ditching. I was in dlh for some years. I wish main tumhare liye kuch kar pati. Plz Hetalji its a request plz advice her,help her. Oh dear ! I just can say keep parvatiji vrat. Its on tritya tithi according 2 Hindu calender after amawasya. There is no story n eat food without salt once in day n fruits anytym. Do puja of lord Shiva n parvatiji. This fast is only 4 married ladies. As v know shivji n parvatiji r best couple so plz keep this fast it comes only 1 tym in month so its easy 4 u. Just remember ur guru n dn do normal puja of shiv-parvatiji. Pray parvatiji every tym ''jaise aap apne pati ko pyari ho , main b mere pati ko vaise hi achi lagun.'' M sure parvatiji n Sai help jarur karenge. Remember after amawasya 3rd day tritya tithi. No salted food. I wish tum jaldi acha experience send karo ki aap dono sath ho man se. Chaturmas h plz shivji-parvatiji ke aage diya jalaya karo apni wish ke sath,Sai ki puja ke sath unki puja b karo. Navratri fast b mataji ke h usme b tritya tithi aayegi meetha hi khana. M sure Sai n Maa parvati jarur sunenge. I wish main kuch kar pati, I can feel ur pain. Hetalji plz help her. Om Sai Ram.

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    1. Dear devotee check site starsai.com . There is mantra of parvatiji n they arrange some puja 4 marriage n some prob in relationship. Plz check that. Plz don't loose heart. Itna saha h to ab b himmat rakho. Kuch or b prob ho to plz apni family ko bolo they ll help u. Plz check dt puja 4 relationship prob its in Sai baba temple. All d best. Hope tumhari life me jarur jaldi a cha hi hoga. Plz share karna. Om Sai Ram

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  22. may baba bless you sis..
    *****SRI VISHNU SAHASARANAMA*****
    vasurvasumanāḥ satyaḥ samātmā sammitaḥ samaḥ |
    amōghaḥ puṇḍarīkākṣō vṛṣakarmā vṛṣākṛtiḥ || 12 ||
    104. Vasuḥ: One in whom all beings dwell and one who dwells in all
    beings.
    105. Vasumanāḥ: The term Vasu means wealth or riches. Here it
    indicates greatness. So it means one possessed of a great mind
    i.e. a mind free from attachments, anger and other evil
    qualities.
    106. Satyaḥ: One whose nature is Truth.
    107. Samātmā: One whose mind is Sama, without partiality or anger
    and thus the same towards all beings.
    108. Sammitaḥ: This name and the previous (samatma) occurring
    together, can be split in two ways – as samātmā + sammitaḥ
    and as samātmā + asammitaḥ.
    109. Samaḥ: One unpertubed at all times.
    110. Amoghaḥ: One whose worship will never go in vain, but will
    bear ample fruits.
    111. Puṇḍarīkākṣaḥ: One who has pervaded, i.e. is realized in, the
    lotus of the heart. Or One whose eyes resemble the petals of a
    lotus.
    112. Vṛṣakarmā: One whose actions are according to Vrushas i.e.
    Dharma.
    113. Vṛṣāakṛtiḥ: One who takes form for the sake of Vrushas or
    Dharma.

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  23. A Short Biography of Shree Swami Samarth
    *****Naivedya-Food of a Poor Woman*****
    A poor woman had brought naivedya-food for Sri Swamiji with full devotion. But
    who care’s about the poor? She had a strong desire that Sri Swamiji should eat the
    naivedya-food. To fulfil her strong desire, Sri Swamiji called her near him and ate the
    naivedya-food. Then Sri Swamiji read her mental desire and blessed her with a son.
    Who else is there, other than Sri Swamiji, who can save the honour of the poor, as a
    saviour?

    *****Rings Lost In Moharram*****
    It was Moharram238 day. The Hindu priest Sripad Bhat and attendant Bhujanga,
    both wanted to see the procession of Taboota239. They requested Sri Swamiji for his
    permission but it was refused. They asked again, but permission was refused again.
    Then both stealthily left to see the procession without informing Sri Swamiji. Sripad
    Bhat wore gold rings weighing three to four Tolas in his fingers. To prevent theft, Bhat
    gave the rings in the safe custody of Bhujanga. Bhujanga was so much overjoyed and
    excited to see the procession, that he started throwing sweetmeats and dried dates on
    the procession and in that excitement, without his knowledge, he even threw the rings.
    They soon realized this fact and started looking for the rings. In that huge crowd
    of thousands of people how could the rings be located? They both got tired of searching
    and gave up. They were about to cry and in that sorrowful state they came to Sri
    Swamiji and started weeping. Sri Swamiji angrily rebuked them and said, “Though I
    had forbidden both of you from going to the procession, why did you commit this
    absurdity? ”. Bhujanga started crying. Whenever a devotee commits severe mistake the
    Sadguru always saves the honour of the devotee. Sri Swamiji said, “Do not cry. You will
    get back your rings automatically, simply keep quiet”. Shortly afterwards a policeman
    caught two people and brought them there. It seemed that after getting the gold rings,
    there was a fight between those two people and the policeman caught them. Thus Sri
    Swamiji saved the honour of Bhujanga.

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  24. om sai ram om sai ram om sai ream om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram

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  25. Om sai ram. .pls Baba re-unite me with my husband. .m dying without him pls Baba ..

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  26. Hi Plz don't worry. Baba is with you and he will take care of your life. Baba will ensure that your husband will realise your true love and bless you with a kid.

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  27. Om sai ram...Dear friend..just give some time ..wait and watch....baba will guide you he knows the everything...Om sai Ram...

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  28. Dear Sister,
    It was heartbreaking to read your story, I'm so sorry for what you are going through. But please please don't attempt suicide ever again. Baba will show you good days, have faith.
    Read Satcharitra and try to do sai nau guruvar vrat if you can,
    Also keep praying to Siva & Parvati, they will definitely bless you with happiness in marriage.

    I also wanted to check with you if you ever tried to talk to the other woman's parents?
    I know no one can keep two consenting adults away but hopefully they can drill some sense into this wicked woman.
    I can't believe what sort of stupid woman thinks that a man who didn't show any respect to his wife or institution of marriage can keep her happy?

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    1. yes even i think the same..how she ive such a pain to another women..she must have thought how it pains if it happens with her also.........baba plz bless this sis to be with her husband happily and give good knowledge to that women to judge what is good and what is not

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  29. Dear Sister
    Please do not loose hope. Baba will bless you soon. Read Sai Sacharitra in one week.
    Sairam

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  30. Dear sister please do not lose hope. Read sai satcharita and you will be fine. Trust Baba.

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  31. dear sis....i think your prayers have answered...if so plz comment here

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  32. Sainath,
    Please solve this devotee's marital problem and let she and her husband lead a very happy married life

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  33. SAI BABA FIRSTLY I ASK FORGIVENESS. SEVERAL TIMES I HAVE HAD THE MISFORTUNE TO FALL INTO SIN . FORGIVE ME BABA . STRECTH FORTH YOUR HAND TO ME . I HAVE ALWAYS RECOURSE TO YOU AND PUT MY TRUST IN YOU. O FATHER OF MERCY HAVE PITY UPON ME. BE MY REFUGE AND MY HOPE FOREVER .
    IN PAST TIMES I HAVE MISERABLY FALLEN FOR THE SAKE OF MY KARMA AND BECOS I HAD NOT RECOURSE TO YOU , BUT I KNOW THAT WITH YOUR HELP I SHALL CONQUER MY MISERIES AND I KNOW THAT YOU WILL HELP ME . I WILL ALWAYS CRY OUT TO YOU “ O! SAI HELP ME “
    MERCIFULL SAI WHOSE MERCIES ARE WITHOUT NUMBER , WHOSE GOODNESS IS WITHOUT END , YOU ARE WITH US IN WONDEROUS MANNER NOW AND TILL THE END OF TIME. BY YOUR KINDLY PRESENCE DIRECT OUR MINDS … WITH YOUR GUIDING LOVE WATCH OVER OUR PATHS … WITH YOUR POWERFULL HELP DELIVER US FROM ALL TRIBULATIONS … AND THAT WE MAY ON EARTH LIVE WITH YOU AND IN YOUR ETERNAL DWELLING FOR EVER
    SAI HEAR MY PRAYER AND LET MY CRY COME TO YOU . SAI LET ME CROSS THE MISERIES OF PRESENT SORROWS AND ENJOY ETERNAL GLADNESS . O LORD SAI ALWAYS BE AMONST ME TO DEFEND ME , WITHIN ME TO PRESERVE ME , BEFORE ME TO GUIDE ME , AFTER ME TO GAURD ME ABOVE ME TO BLESS ME …
    SAI YOUR NAME ITSELF INSPIRES CONFIDENCE IN ME . I WISH TO LOVE AND SERVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART ALWAYS . HELP ME TO NEVER NEGLECT MY PRAYER . SAI HELP ME THAT I SHALL QUICKLY RISE IF I FALL INTO THE WELL OF SIN AND TO GET SELF REALISZATION SO THAT I MAY COURAGEOUSLY RESIST THE SEDUCTION OF THE WORLD , EVIL COMAPNIONS , BAD BOOKS AND FILMS.
    HELP ME TO BE PATIENT AND RESIGNED IN ALL TRIALS AND TROUBLES OF LIFE . HELP ME IN SICKNESS AND PAIN , POVERTY AND DISTRESS . HELP ME TO LEAD OTHERS TO LOVE YOU AND PRAY TO YOU… SAI BE WITH ME TO MY LAST HOUR AND MY LAST BREATH .. PLEASE WATCH OVER ME
    O ! SAI I BELIEVE IN YOU , I HOPE IN YOU AND I LOVE YOU ABOVE ALL THINGS . WITH ALL MY HEART WITH ALL MY HOPE AND WITH ALL MY STRENGHT . I LOVE YOU BECOS YOU ARE INFINETLY GOOD AND WORTHY OF BEING LOVED … AND BECOS I LOVE YOU I REPENT WITH ALL MY HEART OF HAVING OFFENDED YOU … HAVE MERCY ON ME A SINNER .
    PROMISE YOU NEVER TO HURT YOU EVER AGAIN

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