Anonymous Devotee from India says:

I am nothing. To tell you the truth, I always wanted to know myself from other's perception and never realised what or who I am or I am supposed to be. When I was in desperate need, it was Baba, who raised me up and made me realise [the hard way] that I am the blue-eyed daughter of my parents, the role-model for my brother and most importantly, today a woman of honor. I have made mistakes in life, of course the ones I am not really proud of. I still make mistakes and some I do even though I know I am making a mistake. But I learn and grow each time- spiritually and intellectually. I remember, after all the bad experiences in life. I had started smoking as only solace to all the situations. Probably I wanted to punish myself or others I really do not know. But later, I was acquainted to Baba by this site. I became a believer instantly. I heard about the miracles and started expecting the same. But in due course, Baba just became the friend I always wanted, a shoulder to cry on, a companion to rejoice with.


My journey of life with Baba started 2 years back, when my whole life was destroyed, so I thought. I was a graduate, left with no job and got rejected of my dream college in the last round of interview. I had a terrible break-up, where my mother was left insulted. I got a opportunity to study in UK with great score, but my father was going through a terrible court-case, where he was falsely-framed. I had no clue as I realised my life was slipping out of my hands and I had never dreamt of failing. It seems funny now, but I had thought of ending my life too.



It’s then when I stumbled upon this site and started reading the experiences every time I got opportunity. I went backpacking [my hobby] to Shirdi and Shignapur. And there I had my first experience with Baba, when He saved me at many circumstances and gave me the best experience of life. Even till then, I was just the believer of miracles He created, but not truly the follower of intellect. I heard about Shibpur through this site and decided I have to be there. I contacted Amit Dada and left home to go to Calcutta and Shibpur with my mother's friend. I don’t really want to comment on her, but she was very skeptical about this place. We got into the Lalgola passenger for Bethua Deuri and as usual it was jam packed. She started murmuring under her breath that she really did not want to accompany me and she did not believe in my journey.

Trust me, it was way depressing than it sounds right now. She made friends with the local passengers with us [who did not look men of honor or character] and they started showing fake concern for me as I am a young girl of 22 and should not be travelling alone like this. They even offered to let me stay in their houses. Since it was my first trip to Shibpur, I was not sure of the way and kept calling Amit dada. They were adamant that there is no temple there and even spoke rudely to Dada, when I tried to convince them. They were just not ready to leave me alone. It was so scary and depressing that I cried and begged them to leave me alone and I do not need their concern. Only one man, who seemed sane said-"Agar Bachchi Sure Hai, To Aap Log Jane Do Na. Kyun Pareshaan Kar Rahe Ho. Dekho Vo Confident Hai Usme Bhakti Hai." I sat on the upper berth of the passenger and just cried thinking of Baba and asking why are you questioning my faith in such a derogatory manner? Eventually they stopped.

Finally when I reached Shibpur, it was all worth it. When I went, there was renovation happening. In all that hurry, I did not take anything for Baba and felt so guilty and promised I would get something the next time. I entered and I met Maharaj, and felt the brilliance of the place, felt Baba welcoming me. As if to say-Finally you are home, my child. I spoke to Dada about all my problems and so easily he made me realise, that actually there is no problem with life. There is suffering if you wish to suffer and it is a challenge if you perceive it in that way. And I chose it to be a challenge. Since that day, Dada has been my confidant and support system. He is a friend with whom I am not in contact very often, but I know he is there. He tried to stop me from making several mistakes and still I did not listen and went ahead to make them. And he is right to be angry with me. That's why the next time I went to Shibpur, I felt that Baba was not really happy to see me there. Trust me, if you go there you will feel it. It was like every stone in the wall was scolding me like a parent, but still I had the sense of belonging there. Dada had asked me if I would write my experience for this blog or not. I just shuddered. Today, after 2 years, I could not stop myself any longer and feel Baba is standing right behind me working on this piece with me while we make few editing.

Today, I still am making mistakes. Probably not even I am learning from a few. I still find myself questioning the existence of God. And since I am a science student, it’s my intrinsic character. And I do it because I am an evolved Human with an opposable thumb- which started the mystery of us having such an intellect while other animals don't. I guess, there is a reason a mysterious game of nature being played here. And I want to know. Know it all. Probably also because I want to believe miracles are not just the situations, when prayers are answered, but an actual happening. But all said and done, I still believe in Baba and would run back to Him like a puppy, who just found its owner. I belong to no one religion. I just want to believe firmly that I belong to Baba.


© Devotees Experiences with Shirdi Sai Baba

43 comments:

  1. Amazing one!! Thank you so much for the write up... Always wanted to know more about Shibpur temple and here it is..

    OM SAI RAM!!

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  2. We understand that u are a science student and if u think the way u think then your journey will remain tough.if u think that your intelligence will get u baba then u are highly mistaken.you can only get baba if u love him from your heart and please without bringing your science in between you and baba.baba is way above science.there are many highly educated people in the world who are babas devotee .I have seen doctors in usa bowing before baba when they been saved from million dollar cases in the court.However, u want baba then love him like a small child who only loves her mother.Do this and then see how baba will become yours.please get rid of the notion that u are a science student as you education is nothing compared to those of the doctors who have become baba devotees and one of the doctors has donated thousand dollar's in babas temple. Om sai ram

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  3. very nicely put. can empathize with your situation.

    Only today I started questioning his existence. I have been trying to find a job in USA from a long time. I have 10 years of experience in a renowned IT firm in India, but it is getting difficult to find a job with my technology in US. This leaves me dejected. I have wanted to have a job badly and after having a successful career of 10 years, not having a job is truly disappointing. I'm doing sai vrat, parayana and every possible thing but no use. I really don't know why I need to face this.

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    1. Hi. Be patient. It will happen. Do not stop trying. Have faith in baba. God will test our faith and patience only in difficult times.

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    2. Om sai ram. I can understand your pain. But i can say baba is oil of diya but u have to light it. Baba is petrol of car but u have to drive it and u are responsible for any accident. You have 10 year of it exp then why have you resign without any backup. Msy baba bless u

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  4. Om Sai Ram

    Baba please bless all.

    Love to all

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  5. Beautiful experience and very well espressed by our beloved Baba.
    om sai namoh namah,shri sai namoh namah,jai jai sai namoh namah,satguru sai namoh namah.
    om sai ram.

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  6. OMG! What an experience! Your age and the way you have written my dear, really do not coincide. I'm speechless. I am not sure why but I felt like this while reading your experience -You are 22 now, wait and watch what you will be in around 10 years. I could strongly feel the a great success but not in a normal way. Trust me anyone could get into a good college, a bit of study abroad (even I did with Baba's blessings) but being able to question the way you did and acknowledging your mistakes at this age is very interesting.

    I heard about a caption at Shibpur that only people that Baba thinks are his true devotees get to visit the temple. The fact the you have been there twice proves that you are indeed a blessed child of Baba.

    Now coming to your mistakes, they will stop when a point comes where you believe that they will. You might do new mistakes as it is completely human nature and we all do them but things will improve. You can achieve whatever you want in your life - remember you are a blessed child of Baba and leave everything to him. Don't try to take control of things, as it is best if you let Baba do all the planning and consider it as you would be following the instructions.

    Things will surely improve and you will definitely be successful, surrender your life to Baba.

    I only wrote what I felt, Baba please forgive me if any mistakes

    Om Sai Ram

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  7. May Baba bless you more and may He continue to guide you in the right path.

    O Deva, Thank You for a beautiful day, do keep a watch over us as we traverse through the day. Let us have Your name run through our mind all day today and bring us peace O Sadguru.

    Thank You for everything O Sai :)

    Jai Sairam
    Sharma

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  8. om sai ram..
    very nice experience.. infact i am also a science student. and it become very hard for me to believe any positive incident as a baba's will. very often baba comes in my dream and guide what to do or not but when i m asking this time he just came in my dream and smiled at me.. so i am confused.. i was feeling like baba is just teasing me.please any of the devotees help me to get amit ji's number of shibpur temple. i am from nepal and even cant go to shibpur now so i want to contqact amit ji.i would feel very blessed if any of u devotees help me.. thank u so much.. love u baba .
    om sainathaya namoha

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    1. Dear Sai bandhu please google Shibpur saibaba temple you will get all details from there.Om Sai Jai Sai.

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  9. Hello,

    A very lovely experience and awesomely written. I find immense truth in the sentence " actually there is no problem with life. There is suffering if you wish to suffer and it is a challenge if you perceive it in that way", but yesterday when time came for me to explain this to someone, i was not able to put it in the right way... (maybe out of fear of hurting that person), but now i am typing an sms to her :) thanks once again.

    OM SHRI SAINATHAYA NAMAH:

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  10. Om sai ram.Nice experience and learning. We often blaim baba for all wrong doing in our life. He is like oil in lamp but you have to light diya. He is like petrol in car but you have to drive car. We have to keep faith in him and he will do best for us. May baba bless all.

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  11. wow experience..beautifully narrated..sai ram

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  12. A beautifully narrated experience. I have also been to Shibpur temple and I know the feeling, standing in front of our "Maharaj". Even a naive person like me felt his presence and what a feeling it was! Words fail to describe....Some of your lines like "a shoulder to cry upon, a friend to rejoice", "Baba is standing right behind me working on this piece with me while we make few editing" were too good...May Sai bless you with his choicest blessings...Sai Ram

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  13. Very nice post....thanks a lot for sharing with us....OM SAIRAM....LOVE YOU A LOT SAIMA....:):)

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  14. Jai Sai RAm! Wonder full experiences

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  15. Om Sai Ram,
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  16. BABA LOVE U....PLS SOLVE MY SISTERS HEALTH PROBLMS..BLESS ME WITH GOOD JOB SOON......BLESS MY PARENTS WITH GOOD HEALTH, PEACE OF MIND AND HAPPINESS.
    ALWAYS STAY BY OUR SIDE HOLDING OUR HANDS................

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  17. Om Sai Ram.

    Today is my first marriage anniversary. I was praying Baba to come in some form and bless us in some way by placing his hands on our heads. And Baba did fulfill my wish. It so happened that we went out in the morning for an early morning bike ride to feed stray dogs. On our way we met an old lady begging alms. I went and gave her a packet of biscuits and some money. She was very glad and blessed us by keeping her hand on our head. I was so so happy, and i knew it was Baba who came in her form :-) Thanks a lot BABA. I will always be grateful to you for all your love, you have brought these beautiful days in our lives :-) My heartfelt thanks to you.

    I would like to mention here that my marriage happened with my boyfriend of 5 years after many problems. We had broken up and then BABA only brought us together and got us married in his temple. Baba taught us 'FAITH' and 'PATIENCE' and he is making us better persons with each passing day. We are so very thankful to you Dearest Gurudeva Dattatreya. May you keep showering your love and grace on us and everyone always. Please help us to be good people and do good deeds, so that we are worthy enough to receive your grace. We surrender at your LOTUS and HOLY feet BABA.

    Om Sai Shri Sai Jiai Jai Sai.

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  18. om sai naathaye namah

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    BABA JI BLESS ALL UR CHILDREN AND BE WITH US. WE R THANKFUL TO U AND NEED UR BLESSING ALL TIME
    OM SAI RAM

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  20. OM SRI SAI RAM
    ALLAH MALIK
    SAI RAM KI JAI

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    PLS SAVE ME UR BELOVED DAUGHTER BABA...PLS PLS PLS SAIMA HELP ME......OM SAIRAM...

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  22. Om Sai Jai Sai. Very nice experiences Sai sister Baba is really merciful he is always there for his children. I got chance to visit Shibpur Saiji in 2011 and 2012 back to back and yes you are correct that there is a positive vibration in temple premises and even the people of that village are really good and blessed soul. In 2011 I visited alone as I knew that Baba will be there with me always and in every step. I meet my Saiji as an old man whom I called Dadu in Lalgouda passanger who guided me 3 days throughout my journey although he was also unknown to Shibpur but he manages to take me there. A totally stranger became my guide and local guardian for those 3 days and treated me as his real grand daughter. He was a retired employee of ESCKON temple of Mayapur and was visiting to his shrine and I was also visiting Mayapur because I had come to know that there is no hotel in Shibpur. All this information I got from this blog only just before 2 days of my 1st visit in year 2011. kind lady Maya had posted and it really helped me to reach to Shibpur.Dadu was with me 3 days but I think it was none other than my Saiji as he did not gave me his contact number. Even today also I feel happy while I remember that my 1st visit. Thank you Deva for everything. Saiji please bless us all always and increase our shradhha n saburi by each passing day.

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  23. Jai Sairam,
    Baba why i am i still like this.
    Why am i expecting from people even though i decided before not to expect from them.
    Why i am keep doing mistakes.
    I don't like this people, they have no values in their life style.
    Baba why am i complaining about other's charecters even though i know that you don't like it.
    Baba why am i doing things which you don't like.
    I don't want do those because you don't like it, but still i am doing. Why Baba, when will i be a good daughter of you? Will i ever be so or
    not?
    I don't like what i am Baba.
    I know you are angry with me Baba. I am afraid of facing problems Baba.
    Why they behave like that, who is correct Baba me or them?
    I know i am doing mistakes but aren't they doing Baba.
    I know you don't like the way i am thinking. But i couldn't control myself. I am feeling ego, anger, hatred when they behave like that.
    Baba i think i am worthless to live this life.
    I am sure that i'll never change even though i've gone through all these problems still i am feling the same way.
    I won't change Baba. I am loosing hope that i'll change.
    i am keep on doing same mistakes again and again. I couldn't live my life without expecting from others :(
    But I love you Baba.
    I cannot share with anyone all my feeling except with you Baba.
    Baba do i have right to ask you to forgive me?I don't know Baba.
    But please forgive me baba. Please Baba.
    Please say something Baba, please talk to me Baba.

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  24. jai sai sadguru! help all bless all! thanku so much for everything. thank you sai baba!

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  25. JAI SAIRAM
    WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE.YOU ARE REALLY A BLESSED DAUGHTER OF BABA.
    BABA PLEASE BE WITH MY SON DEVA.BABA KOTI KOTI PRANAM AT YOUR LOTUS FEET.
    OM SAI SRI SAI JAI JAI SAI.

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  26. Hello,
    I really like the way you articulated your thoughts and even though you have all the doubting tendencies, the reason for your devotion to Baba sounds pure and genuine. However, I can't agree bc you are a science student,it is stopping you from believing in Baba fully. I realized that the more we learn, the more we realize how less we know. Sometimes, we just have to surrender to him.

    Jai Sai Ram

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  27. Om sai ram. Please help me to fast in this ramadan. I wanna do the fasting for the whole ramadan month and you know very well how many things I should face if I keep fasting. Please help me baba. Allah malik..

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  28. hi, i'm the devotee who is 10 years experienced and searching for jobs(posted in comments). this is addressing to the dear anonymous devotee who asked me why I quit the job without backup. Thanks devotee for the kind words. just wanted to clarify that when we moved to US, I had months baby to take care and hence by choice I quit. but I never knew that finding a job would be this difficult. probably I was too arrogant thinking I will get a job.

    one more problem I face is, inspite of my hard trials for job, I had only couple of interviews. even In these interviews my performance was not good and I got really tense. howmuch desperate I'm to go back to work that much tense I get to attend interview. don't know if this is common while attending interviews but this is driving me crazy. I keep baba infornt of me in the recent interview of mine but no use. devotees kindly share some tips that can help people like me.

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  29. Jai Sai Ram
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    LU BABA

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  30. Jai Sairam

    Dear sai devotees, please answer my doubt which is killing me these days.
    I am a 28 yr old mother for two little girls and living in canada.

    Today I was reading some indian news paper in which I saw a very sad and bad news regarding a 5 yr old little girl who was raped,stabbed and brutenly killed by some monsters.After that I broke down and still in tears.Whenever I see such news I become very insecured and I cann't control myself and keep asking baba regarding the fate of the victims.

    Dear sai brothers and sisters pls tell me what did the little girl do? Was this happened because of her bad past karma?If so was she old enough to bear such punishment and harrasement.
    Why baba didn't rescue her? Why baba is letting such stupid monsters to roam freely in the world?

    Please reply me as soon as you can as I am not able to go to bed by thinking about this and not able to stop my tears.
    Hope all of you can understand my feelings ana please forgive me if I am harsh.

    Baba please make your child to hear your voice through your remaining children.

    Om SaiRam

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    1. It is all Karma.Baba says nobody comes to you unless you have some relation with them.So with this we can conclude that baby girl had some rivalry with those people in the past life.After all this probably,girls karma is over and she will again take a birth and live her life happily.

      When we come into close contact of each other that means we are all related to each other in the past life.It is known as Rinaunabandh(Sai Charitra).

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  31. Please post todays post

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  32. Waiting from morning to read today's experience... Please post it.

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  33. Jai Sai Ram ji ki to all,

    Sai Sai Sai sai Sai
    Sai sai Sai Sai Sai Ganpati Sai Dutta Sai Nanak Sai
    Shiv Sai Ram Sai Shyam Sai
    Durga Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai
    SaiSai Sai Sai sai sai

    Love You Baba ji
    Sabse ZYAADA ji

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  34. OM Sai Ram to all Sai Devotees,

    Sai please bless me in this Ramadan to fast for whole month, first time i wanted to do this. so please bless me to keep fast baba..

    & one more request for all sai devotees to pray for Sai baba for the sake of my Friend husband, he is not feeling well since two years because of black magic, he is suffering a lot from this. my friend did all the pooja & hospital etc., whatever all the people are saying to do the sake of her husband, she is doing but no results, he remains same, now a days he cant sleep & sit properly at all, so she is worried about her husband, she is doing 9 Guruvar Vrat for his sake, this week thursday is her 8th Guruvar vrat, now she lost her hope so i am requesting you all to please pray for her husband and her family.... please sai bless her husband with good health, you know everthing baba, y r you testing us... please bless sai..... i am also asking you something from long time, please fulfill my wish also baba, wating for you sai.............. bless your children baba..... I LOVE YOU A LOT SAI......

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    1. Om Sai Ram.

      May Baba bless you and your friend's husband soon. Baba please cure the SAI Sister's husband soon.

      We need you always BABA, please keep us under your protective shade always and keep us at your LOTUS and HOLY feet always.

      Love you a lot BABA for everything.

      OM SAI SHRI SAI JAI JAI SAI.

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  35. Beautiful experience! Many who have gone to the Shibpur temple have spoken of amazing experiences (similar to those who go to Shirdi), and it is wonderful that although you were suffering from so many problems, onced you reached Baba's house, Baba told you not to worry, He is there with you and will help you through this difficult phase in your life. Baba is there with all us through the difficult phases in our lives and will be someone we can always count on to help us. Om Sai Ram!

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  36. Indeed life turns around into all positivity even when every other day a challenge strikes us. I feels lucky and blessed as Baba has allowed me to stay under His feet.I pray everyday that He never leaves my hand...or I will be lost.
    All difficulties are given a sound solution when I pray to Baba.
    I am waiting eagerly to visit Shibpur SaiBaba...Hope He finds the way for me.I have a beautiful Photo of Shibpur Sai...where He looks at me wherever I move in the house.Staying outside India, it was difficult for me to get access to Baba 's photo , so I printed His image and framed it.Later as I was tossing with the thought of replacing that particular picture with another one, I tried several attempts but every attempt to print any other picture was in vain ...this made me believe that Baba came to me through that photo and He wished to be with me that way only...so I pray and remain completely connected with that beautiful expressive image of Shibpur Saibaba's photo.Stay with me SAI forever and ever...I love you with all my heart.I am nothing without you.Om Sri Sai.

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  37. JAI SAIRAM,
    Baba Please bless all your devotees with good health and happy life Baba.
    ANANTHA KOTI BRAHMANDA NAYAKA RAJADHI RAJA YOGI RAJA PARA BRAHMA SHRI SACHIDANANDA SAMARTHA SADGURU SAINATH MAHARAJ KI JAI.
    SARVAM SHRI SAINATHARPANAMASTHU.
    Love you so much Baba.
    Baba Please excuse me Baba. Please be with me always Baba.

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  38. baba i feel i hurt many your devotees in face book, but didnot insult any one's faith believe me baba by mistakely if it happen then please forgive me and bless me , my family and my friends , special a friend who realise me about you , i am sorry baba i was born in christian family , but today heartly i surrender with you ,

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