Sai Brother Shaishav from India says:
First of all I want to thank Hetal Ji for doing such a great work to mankind. Her blog helped me a lot in difficult times of my life. Dear Brothers and Sisters, I am not a writer, but just a common man, who has a very average writing skills. But I will try to write as simple and clear so everyone can read and understand my story and can see how our faith and patience on Baba help us to fight the problems and come up in life.
I was a very average student in my school. I was very poor in almost all subjects, but my family had lots of expectation on me. During school days, I was finding lots of difficulties in reading and understanding. I was not able to read for more than 30 minutes and hardly remember anything. Just to remember small lesson, I had to read it many times because of that I was very slow in my studies compare to my classmates. Even the simple math problem was very difficult for me to solve. I used to sit in a corner of my class and also in tuition class and hence I was always treated as a below average student. Despite of all these problems, only one thing was strong in my mind that I don’t deserve to be treated as below average student. But at the same time, I knew that the realty is far different then what I was thinking in my mind about me. I had problems and that was the reality.
I was also belong to the family, who comes from the village and mother was a house wife and father was a government employer and working day and night to support family. In this condition, it was never thought to see some medical doctor for all these problems of mine (learning disabilities). Only thing I could do is just sit and spend maximum time on studies with whatever capacity of my mind. During my 8th or 9th class, I came in contact with my cousin, who is devotee of Baba. Somehow I develop faith in Baba and started praying Him in my mind. In year 1998, I was in tenth class and cleared 10th exams with 64%. I was disappointed because I wanted to join science stream and with that percentage, it was difficult to get admission in even average schools. Many people advised my father to not keep in science stream, but my father wanted me to become a doctor, which was not possible without science subject in 11th and 12th. Somehow with Baba's grace, I got admission in one of the school. My studies were again started and with that all those problems, I have mentioned above. In 11th, I got 45% marks and got a grace marks in math and promoted in 12th standard.
My whole family was again disappointed and I am also. I was doing everything I can, but I was not seeing any growth in my studies day by day. I was losing my interest in studies at the same time. I also left the old school and joined new school for the 12th class. In this new school, just after few days, I was punished by one teacher badly and so I have decided not to study any more. When I told this to my mother, she cried and first time I saw my mother crying for me. She had lots of expectation on me and she was doing her best to help me. That point of time, I have decided to just study and leave everything on God. Those days, every day I used to go to temple and prayed for my studies. Day by day, my exams came closer and one day the result came that I was failed in three subjects in 12th board exams. But still I had a faith on Baba and again after one year I appeared for 12th board exams and this time I got 60% in total and on management seat I have admitted in bachelor of dental surgery course and that was the first time, my family has enjoyed some happiness after a long time.
But now, to do this course, it was again very difficult for me because until this time I was studying in vernacular medium and this was the first time I was learning in English, which was never before used for learning by me. Now the challenges were doubled and I was the same guy. I know that in this condition only Baba can help me. I have started prayers in my hostel room and slowly I have started studying. Initially it was very difficult for me. I used to read 1 page in 3 hours because I have to first read it in English. Then I have to understand meaning of each word in my mother tongue (Gujarati) and then the meaning of the sentence. But with Baba’s grace, day by day, my learning speed was increased after almost 8 month. I could read 1 page in one hour, but at the same time my final exams were coming close so the speed of mine was still very slow and I was not able to cover my half of the syllabus.
Just two month before my exams, my uncle called me and said that my mother is serious and she is admitted in hospital. I was shocked and started crying. Immediately I left for my home town. When I came, I saw she was on ventilator and fighting for her life. Next day afternoon she left us. I was in a deep shock and depression after 15th day of her death, I again started my studies and after a month I appeared for final exam. And I was failed again. For next six month, I was staying in hostel and preparing for the exams. Now only two things were left in my life: one is Sai Baba Bhakti and Study. Those days I had to study and pray to Baba. Again after 6 month, I appeared for the exam and this time I got 65 % and first class I was leaving the happiest movement of my life, when I reached to my college after long time with the result in my hand. I came to know that I was first in this batch. I told this to my father and sister, they were very happy then after I have never looked back in studies. I graduated as a dental surgeon in 2006 and joined MDS later in 2008 and finally in 2011, I have graduated as a Master of dental surgery.
What I learnt in my life is no matter whatever difficult you come across, but if you are determined to bring the change in your life you can, just remember two words of my life: “SAI BHAKTI AND PURI SHAKTI” MEANING STRONG FAITH IN BABA AND HARD WORK = SUCCESS! Now I am running my private practice in Surat and last week I have completed my 1st year in practice. How I see my life. I was born in 1982. That year more than 17 Lakh children were born. After six year, 14 Lakh entered in 1st standard, and then after 10 year 10 Lakh students appeared in 10th exams. Out of them only 5 Lakh were cleared, and out of them only 50 thousand student appeared for the 12th science board exams and only 25 thousand student were cleared and out of those 25000 student only 1000 were admitted to dental science and out of those only 25-50 people became MDS and I was one of them in Gujarat state. What I want to say is that we might not see the progress, but it is there just have strong faith in Baba and Hard Work!
This is my story and I wish it will help all the students facing similar problems in their life. Om Sai Ram. Baba, please help me and my family and all your devotees in their life. Hetal Ji, you can discolse my name and my e mail add if anybody want to talk to me, they can send me mails. Thank you very much!
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