Anonymous Devotee from India says:
Sai Ram Hetal Ji. I am a Tamil girl, working in an IT company in Bangalore. First of all thank you so much for this wonderful job. You are really a blessed soul. Kindly don’t reveal my email id and name. Please feel free to do any corrections.
I have been in a misery for the past three years. To describe in short. I feel in love with a Muslim guy at college. Since he can't precede it further, he broke the relationship after 2 years. I was in a horrible situation and one of my college friends came to my rescue. Slowly we became close. He pulled me out of the misery. After 2 years, we started to feel for each other and he directly talked to his family for marrying me. I too talked to my family. My parent whole heartily accepted us, but his family didn't. After few months of struggle, he finally gave up. Issue came because I am a Tamil girl and he is a North Indian guy and I belong to lower caste. Then I tried to convince him, cry and beg to him. I did everything I can. He tried again, but this time his father came here to convince him. Finally he gave up completely and decided that he has to move on. And he has to forget me.
This is when Baba came to me. I know Baba from my childhood. My mother is a huge devotee and we are non-vegetarian and only on Thursdays we followed a procedure not to eat non-veg. I went to Shirdi around 10 years back. I did all these without devotion. Even when I was in depression for 2 years, I never went to temple. But on September, I went to the temple nearby my place. I wanted to talk to Poojari Ji over there. I cried to him about my problems. He took me near to Baba's idol and told me "He will help you. Read Sai Satcharitra and do 9 Thursdays Vrat, Leave all your problems to Him". It was on Monday. I told him that I don’t know where to get the book in Tamil. He told me that he will try his level best to get it. Next day, when I went, he came with a book in hand and said. You are very lucky. A devotee came and when I asked him, he rushed to his home and asked me to give his book till he gets a new book for you. I was so happy and felt it as a call. And started my first Vrat on that Thursday and same day started to chant and write "Om Siddha Sankalpaya Namah" for 108 days for 41 days. I promised Baba that I will read SSC for 9 times. In these periods, Baba showed His presence several times to me. I would like to point out few here.
1) I saw a saint starring at me in my dream and when I enquired people nearby about the saint, they replied as he is Muslim before but now he is a saint. But the face was different. After few days, my father came to see me with Pooja Saman and Baba's picture (His original picture). Immediately I recognized that He is the one who came in my dream. I have that picture in my purse.
2) I asked Baba questions several times through Baba's question and answer website. Till now I asked Him thrice and all the time He gave a positive reply.
3) I was so upset one day since I wasn’t able to see any positive signs from my boyfriend side. I prayed to Baba that if I see You today while travelling to office, then it means that my wish will be fulfilled. Within 5 minutes, I saw a poster near to my home with Baba's picture in it as "Sai Baba help line". I was happy still I felt that it’s near to my home (though I never saw it). Then within 15 minutes, I saw an auto with Baba's picture in it. I was so happy, but felt bad for testing Baba. I asked Him sorry and asked Him to show His presence, but I didn’t see Him after that on that day.
4) I wrote the mantra for 41 days and on the day of completion, I offered a white cloth and the note in which I wrote the mantra along with a coconut to Baba. I got the measurement from the temple and stitched the cloth. I offered the cloth on last Friday (Nov 10th). Poojari Ji told me that he will wear it to Baba on Monday. I came late from office on Monday and literally ran to temple. On the way, I was thinking that why Baba is still not listening to my prayers. Each time He answered positively, but nothing is happening and should I go for chits now. I prayed to Him that I will go for chits on Diwali and please give me Your final answer. When I came to temple, I didn’t see Baba in white cloth I offered. I was disappointed. Then Poojari Ji came to me and told me that Baba will wear it on Diwali. He told me that he took it out and felt that he should wear new cloth on Diwali. I was so happy and felt that Baba read my mind and answered me "Why fear, when I am here”. He is with me. Hetal Ji, I have attached the picture along with it, kindly post it along with my experience.
In between these, I met my boyfriend on Oct end and he was full of guilt and asked me to take care. When I called the next day, he shouted at me that he is not able to move on if he is in contact with me and I irritated him by trying to convince him again and again.
I have completed my 6 Vrat now. I go to temple every day. Someday I sit in front of Him and cry to Baba out loud. Initially when I started to keep Vrat, I didn’t know the exact procedure. So I just use to pray to Baba and read SSC on that day and go to temple to open my Vrat. On 4th Vrat, I came to know that we need to read Vrat story and I started to read after that. I asked Poojari Ji regarding this. He told me that Baba needs only full faith and devotion, procedure doesn’t matter to Him. So I counted it as 6th.
5)I was looking for ways to send my prayers to Shirdi. I didn’t find any way for the past two months and on Friday (the day I completed my mantra and offered the note and cloth to Him), I found that prayers will be taken to Shirdi and need to be sent before Friday night. I was so happy and sent my prayer. It was placed on Baba's feet on Nov 12th.
I know that Baba is around me. He made me a way to reach Him. I left non-veg completely after I started to pray to Him. He made me to offer Coconut twice to Him with white cloth. When I went with flowers to temple one day, Poojari Ji directly asked me to keep that on Baba's feet. From that day onwards, I directly keep flowers to Him. He showed me so many signs that He is around me. Baba I don’t want to go through this pain again. I will keep everyone happy. I want peace and want to be happy in my life. You know that my parents are also so worried about my stage. I know that You have some plan for me. Every time I ask You questions. You replied as keep faith in Me. I have complete faith in You and You are my only hope. I promised You so many things Baba. I will do everything. Bless me Sai. Bless me with happiness. I can't see him with someone else. Neither he can be happy nor he can keep anyone happy with this much of guilt in him. Please Baba bless us with happy life.
Om Siddha Sankalpaya Namah
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