Anonymous Devotee from India says: Dear Hetal Ji, thank you so much for providing such a platform for sharing Leelas and Kripas of our beloved Sainath. I am writing you for the first time, but how can I dare to express the Leelas of our Sadguru Shri Sainath Maharaj. Still I am writing. Please don’t disclose my name and mail id and let me be the anonymous and sorry for writing such a long experience.
I can’t consider myself to be an ardent devotee of Sainath Maharaj, but still I trust Him and have a very strong faith on Him. I am very new to Baba (just few months back may be in the mid of November, 2011) and now had realized that Baba wanted me to worship Him with faith. He drags me towards Him and made to pray each and every day. My mother worships Him (although my whole family worships Bajrang Bali and He is our Kul devata) and once she had completed her 9 Thursday vrats (as she had heard about the vrat). On the last Thursday (i.e. 9th Thursday), I was in office and got a call from my mother to see her in the Deva’s Temple in the evening. The Temple of Baba is not very far from my house, but I don’t know the way to get there as I haven’t gone there before. So I was searching. I called my mother and she was telling me the way to reach there. I had searched about 30 minutes in the evening, but I couldn’t find the temple that day (that time I didn’t have faith on Baba).
I love a guy very much, but there are many problems in tying knots. So I was very upset and so was he. I am Manglik and it was known to him and his whole family that he is not Manglik. I prayed to Baba that I love this guy very much and don’t want to lose him. I can’t bear the pain of separation with him and praying to Baba we both matched our horoscopes. Nobody can imagine that our horoscopes were matched and we both are Manglik. This was just because Baba’s grace, but his parents are dying the fact. We have matched our horoscope by different pandits and all have said the same answer. Then suddenly, there came a thought that why can’t I do the Thursday’s vrat and pray Baba to solve my problems. I told my mother about this and the very next day, I again searched the temple, so that I can have the Darshan of Baba. I again went that way and I was very dismayed that the temple is just 10 minutes walking distance from my house. I was very astonished by seeing the temple. That day, when my mother called me to come to temple, I didn’t find the temple, which was in the same place where it is now. But the only change is that previously the search was without any faith and this time the search was with faith.
I started the vrats (from 26th January, 2012) and every day I went to the temple to have Darshan of Baba. Every day, the temple closes upto 7:30 pm in the evening. Though the window of the temple opens at 6 am in the morning every day, but to get inside the temple, the door opens at 6 pm in the evening. Only on Thursdays the temple remain open upto 8 pm. I offered a garland every day to Baba. This was again Baba’s wish. I was searching about Sai Baba on net; there I came across with this site and Baba’s question and answer site. I am going through a very tough time both in my professional as well as personal life. Both are very disturbed and I cry almost each and every day so I asked Baba some questions and requested Him to help me. Every day, I reach temple after 7:30 pm. Sometimes Baba allows me to have His Darshan (i.e. after 7:30 pm), other times I used to hand over the garland to the Kaku (the person who looks after the temple). The other concerned person, who looks after the temple always used to say to kaku (after 7:30 pm) “Mondir ta ekhon bondo hoyche aar kauke bhitore dhukte debe na” (Temple is closed now and don’t allow anybody to enter the temple). Two days before (i.e. on Sunday) I went to temple. I saw the doors were closed. I was shocked that the clock was not showing 7:30 pm, but still the temple doors are closed. Two more ladies were standing there with me. Then I hang the packet of garland on the door and come outside. But before coming outside, I had requested Baba inside that Today I came early so that I can have your Darshan. But still the same, then what’s the use of coming early. Then suddenly an old man came out and said to all three of us that the temple is closed. I said that I offer garland to Baba every day and I hung it on the door. Then he said try to knock the door may somebody open it and take it from you. With the hope we all three went and the lady knocked the door, but nobody opened it. Then the lady asked us to look up as there was a picture of Sainath on the door of the temple. We all bowed to the picture and the other two ladies went away, but I was still looking at the Baba and said that I am going without having your Darshan. I was about to step down and feel that somebody is opening the door. I don’t know why I had turned my face to the door, but I saw the kaku was standing on the door and was picking the packet. I rushed towards him and requested to offer the garland to Baba and he allows me to do so (as the clock was showing 8 pm). I was very happy that Baba allows me to do so. The same thing happens again. I was very much tensed yesterday as I had a very tough fight with my lover and I was crying throughout the day (as the problem between us is getting worse day by day). I was crying and telling Baba that “when everybody left me, You also left me and now I am with no one with whom I can share my feelings and with whom I can talk. I know one person, to whom I love the most, and he is not happy with me and now I don’t want to live”. I watch the clock. It was more than 7:30 pm, but I requested Baba to give me Darshan. I saw the door was slightly open the other person was sitting on the chair next to the door of the temple. The person said the temple is closed and took the packet of garland from me. But then I saw the kaku coming and I asked him to give me some UDI. He went in the temple to bring some and internally I firmly said to Baba that “You have left me and You are no more with me”. The other person (who was sitting on the chair and took the packet of garland from me) gave me the packet back and said “Go inside and offer the garland to Baba, but do it fast as we have turned many devotees out of the temple”. I was so happy and fell on the Lotus feet of the Baba and was saying sorry for accusing Him for not being with me.
From this, Baba taught me that He is always with all His devotees and takes care of all His children. He is always there with all of us. I request all the devotees to pray to Baba for me, so that I can get my love as my husband. We both love each other very much.
Bolo SadGuru Sainath maharaj ki jai.