Sai Ki Beti from USA says: Dear Hetal Ji, I would personally like to thank you as your blog as helped me to stay positive in life and got me close and understand Baba and Baba’s bhakti. Hetal Ji, I want you to share my experience with your readers because by reading such experiences, I got hope to live positively. Please do not share my name or email id with your readers. I would like to be addressed as “Sai Ki Beti” because in realty 4 years of my life, I didn’t see or talk to my parents and he was my father and most of the times like my mother who took care of me, wiped my tears. It is rightly said in Aarti “Aap Maje Aai Aap Maje Baba”
Before starting my experience, I would like to tell you that I had carried prayers of all devotees with me as I had mentioned on your blog and I feel they were accepted by Baba. My experience goes like this I am just writing what I am feeling. You may edit if you think it is required.
I am girl from small town of Chennai from a middle class family. While growing up, my parents gave importance to studies and household work, which a girl should know, so that I don’t face problem anywhere I go in the world.
I got married and came to USA from where my struggles started. My husband is in USA from last 15 years. He migrated in a very young age, so his beliefs have become very strong about certain things in life. He had a much disciplined upbringing and was beaten for small things in life. So he thought that was the right way to deal with people. In his families till date, women do not have any respect and daughter in law are treated very bad. They still follow the traditional way of living.
After marriage I stayed with my in-laws for about a 1 year and that is where all problems started. My mother in law gave him a different picture about me as to I am slow and can’t work fast, I am lazy and many more things. With this background, I came to USA. Things were better for 1 week. Then we started having fights on various issues. He started calling my parents in India and complaining them that I am lazy, very slow, etc. I am not performing. They only answered him that give her some time, but things went from bad to worse. He fought with my parents and abused them. When his parents were told, they also took side of my husband and said I was wrong I knew that I cannot trust them for anything and I stop communicating or telling them.
Meanwhile, recession hit and he lost his job and he sat in the house for 1 year without job and use to complain and fight with me for various things and small issues. He use to not even think that I have come from work and need rest. Things went so bad that he fought with my parents one day and said many things about me. Due to the fight, he told I have to select my parents or him or he shall divorce me. That was the day; I was shattered and didn’t know what to do. I tried to convince him, but he would not agree.
I carried on my life without any meaning and one day, I was just sitting and crying and complaining to God, when I came across your website and read all experiences and that is how, I came to know about Baba. I started praying to Him. Things started improving my relationship with my husband started becoming better. He found a job after I did Guruvar Vrat. In the meantime, we were looking for house in our budget and you won’t believe, I got a car and house in country like USA, when my husband didn’t have a job for more than one year. I don’t know how we managed without loan. We only put our savings.
He was happy with my performance and things were better, but he would not let me talk to my parents. Every week, when he used to talk to his parents, tears would roll out and I use to look at Baba. Every occasion, where I felt that my parents should have been, I use to prepare food and offer it to Baba. He is not very religious and would not let me spend more time in praying, but I wanted to do Sai Satcharitra Paryan and I started it, but one fine day, he got very angry and ask me stop it. You won’t believe Hetal Ji, I went in bathroom and read and prayed Baba to accept it and that is where I believe it is true “He just believes in true devotion”. I have not offered Him flowers, dhoop, agarbatti. In fact, I read Sai Satcharitra in a dirty place like bathroom and He accepted it.
My sister was getting married and I wanted to go, but he wouldn’t let me go. My parents called and he again misbehaved. I was crying and asking Baba to help. I had lack of both Shraddha and Saburi because I thought what didn’t happen for years How shall it happen now? I just told Baba that I shall visit Shirdi if you make things right and miracle did happen. His parents called and told him to send me else the extended family will question them. Initially he did not agree, but later I don’t know what happen he spoke to my parents and let me go for the wedding.
I can’t tell you how I felt after seeing my parents on the airport after 4 years. I can only tell one thing that what He has promised to His devotees that “Bones shall speak after He goes”. It is very true. I have felt His presence in my life. I just asked that I should attend my sister’s wedding, but He made my husband attend the wedding and also he behaved very nice with everyone and moreover his attitude has changed towards me and my parents. He takes care of everyone.
I went to Shirdi to thank Him and I had told Him that if I wear new clothes in wedding, I shall get new clothes for Him to and left the color of the dress on Baba to select. To my surprise, the shopkeeper gave green dress the same color sari that I wore for my sister’s wedding.
Hetal Ji, I had just tears in my eyes thanking Him for that wonderful time He had given me after 4 years of wait, when the Maharaj was getting Him ready for Madhyan Aarti. I felt as if He is smiling and welcoming me and saying that He was waiting for my arrival. I had carried many prayers with me of fellow devotees and to my surprise they were accepted and in return I was given shawl and Prasad of halwa that was given to Baba to eat.
I can only say that I have become very positive and feel He is listening to me. My married life has become better if not best, but I trust Him that He shall give me good days.
I am too small to advice any devotee, but sharing my experience, I can say that just believe Him blindly. We shall leave Him, but He shall never leave us. He truly acts like parents to His devotees. He made sure that I had a job in recession times that to in good company, when I didn’t have good experience and also there has never been lack of money in those tough times. I left for my sister’s wedding to India was also Thursday and He did arrange a cheap ticket, where at the same time people paid more.
I would really want to thank my friend whose name I can’t mention, but she has helped me a lot. She got Baba in my life and firm faith on Him. She just tells me leave on Baba; He knows what is right for you. May Baba give her all happiness.
I am attaching a picture which I would request you to post with the experience as it is really close to my heart. I am sorry for big experience, but I have tried to make it short. I just want all the devotees that please pray that our family as whole gets into Sai Bhakti, which I feel is not there in my life.
Thank you Hetal Ji.
Sai ki Beti
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