Anonymous Devotee from India says: Jai Sai Ganesha. Om Sai Ram.
Sairam Hetal Ji, Many thanks to you for launching this blog that helps us to share our experiences and get inspired by reading the experiences of other devotees. May Baba shower His choicest blessings on you today and always. Stated below is my recent experience. Request you to please publish it after the necessary editing that you feel may be required. Please do not publish my name and email-id. Thanks to Sai that I am able to pen down my experience with His grace and may Deva forgive me for any mistakes and omissions.
It was during my times of crisis that Sai came into my life around 7 months back. My boyfriend of 5 years declined for marriage as he felt that we were not compatible and may not be happy together after marriage. We used to have fights sometimes and I used to constantly pressurize him to quit certain habits. In addition to it, I later realized that many of the fights were silly and I used to drag it. I must mention here that we were deeply in love with each other and he was the one who had convinced each of his family members for our marriage. Nevertheless, all communication between us stopped and I felt it was the end to our chapter. I did try a lot to convince him and make him realize both of our mistakes but nothing worked.
All this while, I came closer to Baba, though I knew of Sai from the last one year, I wasn’t aware of His Leelas and miracles. Suddenly one day, out of the blue, I started to google about Baba and came across this site and it became a habit to read the experiences of Devotees daily. I used to derive immense courage and faith from each of the experiences and used to constantly pray Baba to bring him back in my life. I must admit that I could never surrender to Baba though and used to ask Sai to get me married to my boyfriend only. Time went on and I still did not see any hopes of his coming back into my life. But yes, I did get positive signals in between. It was only on Thursdays that he either called or messaged me, which was hardly 3-4 times in a span of 5-6 months, and it was purely out of his concern for me. He never spoke of giving a new lease of life to our relationship. In the Sai Temple that I visit in BTM, Bangalore, Pandit Ji once asked me to decorate Baba’s paduka and I felt blessed. I used to ask for positive signs from Baba and many a times He used to reciprocate by giving me His photo, Prasad, flower, religious books, messages, playing my favorite bhajans, appearing in my dream etc. My mother too started Sai Nav Guruvar Vrat as she was anxious about my marriage. These positive signs used to boost me and pull me back each time I felt I had lost it in life.
Even then, I still did not hear anything good from my boyfriend and out of sheer anxiety we picked up chits before Baba asking Him if I would get married to my boyfriend and the answer was ‘No’. I was shattered and left crying. I would say that after this, I really surrendered to Sai and left everything at His Holy Feet and just prayed to Him to get me married to the right guy of His choice. My prayers were never biased after that. We started looking for proposals and I was at peace. Baba used to answer positively all the time I used to question Him in the ‘Question and Answers’ website. There is a “Sai Koti Stupa” in the BTM Sai Baba Temple in Bangalore, and if we daily do 11 rounds of the stupa for 48 days, our wish would get fulfilled. Crores of Sai names in written form are put inside the stupa. A ‘Stupa’ is a monumental pile of earth or other material, marking a sacred spot. I got to know this after some time and I started doing the sacred 11 rounds of the Stupa, humbly praying Him to get me married to a good guy. Baba called me to Shirdi and I had blissful Darshan. Time rolled on.
In January, at the start of the New Year, my boyfriend called me and apologized. He started talking to me frequently and confessed all his guilt. He realized that both of us were at fault for the fights we used to have, but instead of sorting them and respecting the love we had for each other, the step he took of breaking the relationship was extremely wrong. He said that he regrets all that happened and would respect my decision, and it was left to me whether I want us to be back together or not. I was apprehensive and was in a dilemma. In my heart of hearts I prayed to Baba to please help, guide and advice me in this matter. I felt good to see him realizing his mistake and I thanked Baba for the same. We decided to meet after that and we met in Baba’s temple. All the while I was praying to Baba to give me some positive signal if He accepts our relationship. We spoke for a long time and he clarified all my doubts and apprehensions. I could feel the old care and affection back in his tone and he said that he was worried about our long fights and my nagging nature. I was still undecided of my decision. The next day, I was delighted to see My Shirdi Trip Experience posted in this blessed blog (where I prayed to Baba to help me get married to the right guy), and it was posted on the day we met for the first time after a gap of 6 months. Now, I was praying to Baba for a positive signal and here it was.
My experience and prayer was posted on the same day I met my boyfriend after 6 months. I took that as Baba’s blessings. By Baba’s grace, things are much better between us now, and the separation has brought us even closer. He has become all the more patient and caring, and I have realized my mistakes of pressurizing and nagging him. Whenever I face some issue and want some changes in my boyfriend, I just silently pray to Baba and believe me, Baba is working on my boyfriend and he will get rid of his drawbacks. Baba has taught me the take the right path in life and I seek His feet all the while, praying Him to bless us ever and take care of all aspects of our life. The fact that we are back together was only possible due to Sai’s grace and I cannot thank Him enough for that. All I can try to do is to be a good human being as Baba expects us all to be. Talks have started in our families for our marriage and I pray to Baba to carry out everything smoothly and bless us with a blissful married life.
My humble salutations at Your lotus feet, Deva. You make impossible possible and You alone know Your ways. You are my father and I know You are there to care for us ever.
May Your blessings reach each one of us and make our lives better. Many thanks to You.
ANANTHA KOTI BRAHMANDA NAYAKA RAJADHI RAJA YOGI RAJA PARA BRAHMA SHRI SACHIDANANDA SAMARTHA SADGURU SAINATH MAHARAJ KI JAI.
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