Anonymous Devotee from USA says: I want to narrate my own personal life changing experience of Shri Sai's miracle. I have been putting off writing it down for a long time. But after reading beautiful experiences of devotees in www.shirdisaibabaexperiences.org and Vijendra Tharkad (Grandson of Ramchandra Atmaram Tharkad of 9th chapter in Sai Satcharitra) book about his father Jitendra Tharkad's live experiences with Sai Himself, I could not keep this experience to myself.
Dear Sai Devotees, I will do my best to convey Baba's strength and capacity to save us from past bad Karmas and bad situations and His control over events. Please forgive me if my writing skills are not up to par to convey the same.
My love-hate relationship with Baba (of course only in my minuscule mind which could not fathom Baba's divinity)Till the age of 20 I used to visit temples, pray to god and Baba when possible. After 19 or 20, I had spate of failures in life, which made me question my own faith and I stopped praying and even blaming God for my failures. I became a non-believer and I remained like this for a many years. BUT look at my foolishness, even through these years, I was promptly holding god responsible for any failure I faced. And I never once thanked Him for the successes during this time. But whatever needs to happen will happen, and like Baba said Will a mother get angry with her kids? Will the ocean send back the water to the several rivers? The answer is a resounding NO. And this is 100% true in my case.
I moved to USA during these years, joined a well paying job and so on. With all these good things going on, I was still somehow convinced that, if I was not successful in any situation that was worthy or valuable to me, it was god's failure to help me out. I also started to drink occasionally.
The incident:On one such night, when I was drunk, I left my friend's home driving to my home, which was about 45 miles away. When I was in this state, I started thinking about my failures and was getting angrier by every passing second and it was unbearable. I was extremely angry and started cursing Baba for all my past failures. Baba, please forgive me for doing this. I was an idiot and a sinner for doing this. Please I beg You to be on my side and never leave me again. I pray to You whole-heartedly to keep increasing “Shraddha” and “Saburi” in me. I sincerely urge Devotees, non-devotees and even atheists alike that never ever do this mistake of cursing divine. You will suffer a great deal for doing so like I did.
When I was about 10 miles from home, another wild thought came to my stupid mind and I challenged Baba to leave me as I can take care of myself for the remaining 10 miles and reach home safely. To test this newly found foolish self-reliance, I said to myself, if Baba gives up being with me per my wish then police will stop me before reaching home. And guess what happened? Within 5 minutes of this final thought, I saw blue lights flashing behind my car and cop pulled me over. I was rarely (in fact only twice) stopped before by a cop. But as soon as I challenged Baba to leave me and foolishly hoped to test it, I was pulled over and charged with drunk driving. As one may be aware, driving drunk is a criminal offense in USA with severe consequences. One of which is that it remains in criminal records for life if proven guilty.
The aftermath:Even after getting pulled over by cop, I did not know the consequences at that time and I accepted that I was drunk. The cop charged drunken driving offense and told me to attend the court the next Monday as this happened on Friday. Saturday and Sunday, I started researching on internet about what it all meant. And to my dropping confidence levels and dropping foolishness and boldness, I realized that a large percent of such offenders were found guilty and I had absolutely no chance of getting a positive result. More over I even accepted to the cop that I was drunk, which meant I put myself in irrecoverable situation.
With help of few friends who forced me to consult a lawyer to fight my case, I chose to fight it. I now sincerely believe that even though I was not asking Baba for support and even after forcing Him out of my life the night before, He held on with me firmly and supported me in form of my friends at that time.
The case prolonged with no hope in sight. The judge was at verge of getting angry one time indicating on what grounds I was fighting the case. Let me quote the Judge's own words to my lawyer "you are repeating same points every time". Now contrast this with next paragraph.
Baba's Solution:After several months of such back and forth I finally realized my mistake of pushing away Baba out of all this and also the gravest sin of cursing Him minutes before getting stopped by the cop. As soon as I got this realization, I surrendered to Baba and started praying Him fervently for a solution. My increase of faith had been slow and the case kept on post-phoning for few more months. On the day before final court appearance I completely gave up and fell on my knees in front of Baba's photo frame, which I acquired during these 5 months and cried for a long time. I asked Him for forgiveness of all my past bad behavior and completely surrendered to Him. The next day, I performed Kakad Arathi and went to the court. In the court, I was continuously praying. My lawyer again raised the same points as in the past and miraculously the judge started questioning the cop (who stopped me that fateful night) about points that my lawyer never imagined would be expected from a Judge. After questioning the cop for few minutes, he unilaterally decided that the cop had violated my rights, forgot to follow procedures etc and completely dropped the drunken driving offense. My happiness knew no bounds that day. Now, can anyone logically explain why the judge asked these questions which were supposed to be from my lawyer? In my lawyer's words he said, "I had never seen, in my service, any judge going to this extent in questioning the cop". Further confirmation of Baba's strength and divinity is the change of mind in this judge, who only a few months ago admonished my lawyer for wasting court's time by repeating same points. There is no other plausible reason than Baba's loving protection in live action.
Thank you, Baba, for this miraculous outcome. I have been truthful to the promise made to myself (and Lord Sai) that I will completely give up drinking. I have zero doubt that I will keep this promise.
Thank You Baba. Thank You so much for being with me through this painful procedure and thank you for cultivating faith in me and I sincerely pray to You to continue Your guidance and keep increasing my Shraddha and Saburi. Baba, please grant Shraddha and Saburi to everyone, who reads this experience and any other such miracles.
Sarve Janah Sukhino Bhavantu!
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