Anonymous Devotee from USA says: Thanks Hetal Ji, for this selfless and divine endeavor you have undertaken, which helps new devotees like me to strengthen their faith and practice patience. It makes me feel more hopeful and stronger every time I read the experiences. Please do not disclose my name/email address, let me be anonymous.
I am going through several personal problems since last couple of years. Even though I rose in a religious, god-fearing family, certain situations in life make your faith dwindle unintentionally and unknowingly.
Recently, I happened to share something briefly with one of my co-workers without any expectations or sympathy. All I needed was to vent. I did not know that she was a Sai devotee. On hearing my story, she simply told me to follow His path. Some situations in life make you so desperate that one holds on to the last feather in hope of being salvaged. Such was my situation, rather is. My 1st trip to Sai temple, and something within made me do this that I will do 9 Guruwaar Vrat and tried to feed a friend every Guruwaar as it was not possible to go to temple every Thursday. I am nearing my 9th Guruwaar, the problem is still on. But I can feel that I am a different person within. Every time I feel low, I read Sai Satcharitra and this blog to strengthen my Faith. Since I have started the Vrat, I have experienced so many incidences, where Sai Baba has made me feel His presence, at home, at work, and sometimes in a very obvious manner.
There have been times, when I am in a sorrowful mood and I randomly open a page, which reads the message that I exactly needed to hear at that time. It all seems magical to me as it never happened before. Another thing is that it is very hard for me to shed tears. Either I am too proud or shy, but every time I stare at His picture or sit in front of His idol-tears just roll, either out of sadness or awe. I don't know, but that means a lot to me.
After I decided to do Guruwaar Vrat, my mom just out of the blue found an old calendar (2006) with some beautiful pictures of Sai Baba. It was at home all the time, but it was as if Baba decided to have us find Him only after I made that decision. I felt as if He approved my Dhaarna (“Belief”). After reading the chapter on UDI and its significance, I really wanted to have the UDI from Shirdi. The thought crossed my mind again, when I was praying at home. And as soon as I opened my eyes, I saw that my Mom had started looking for something. Within a minute, she gave me a packet of UDI, which someone had given her from Shirdi many months ago. As if she read my mind OR indeed He instructed her to give me what I wanted. This was a subtle way of making His presence known, but it meant a lot to me.
Many more incidences happened, like I was about to faint while doing a procedure. was embarrassed and scared to tell my boss. I prayed hard to Sai Baba to give me strength to go through it. In a matter of minutes, I felt rejuvenated and it lasted all day. There was a family emergency just one day before a big test. I was in a dilemma and even after it subsided. I just did not feel like studying or preparing as I was in a shock/daze/discomfort and very upset due to my baseline troubles and these aggravating incidences to add on to that.
That day was a Thursday and I honestly prayed to Baba to forgive me as I knew that I would not be able to fast. I was told by my friend that He has no rigid rules. All He wants is devotion, faith and love. So I did not fast, and told myself, if He really loves me, I will do well in the test and things will be fine. Everything went well as I wished. This was not to test Him, but I just felt stronger and cared for by Him. There are many more, but these were major ones. I hope Sai Baba always takes care of me like this and I write more next time.
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai Om.
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