Anonymous Devotee from India says: JAI SAI RAM, I am not sure from where do I start writing my experience. I am SAI BABA JI’s devotee since 2001. I have gone through many ups and downs in my life. First of all I want to apologize to SAI BABA JI for not posting my experience earlier. I wanted to write my experience earlier, but I wanted some other things to get happen first before I write my experience. But yesterday, I read other devotee’s experience on Manisha Ji’s blog and I recalled my promise which I gave to BABA JI. So, I am writing my experience today. I feel that I don’t have words to write BABA JI’s grace on me. I pray to BABA JI to write my experience in His own words.
I was going through some personal problems from last 4 years. But last year in December I got frustrated with my problems and thought that I should end up my life. I have lost my all faith on BABA JI. I didn’t have patience. But I was continuously praying to BABA JI to help me. One day, while I was chatting with other BABA JI’S devotee, I didn’t discuss anything about my problems with him. But he told me that I do have faith on BABA JI, but I don’t have enough patience. He said that every coin has two faces I.e. faith and patience. He told me about all the things, which were going in my mind. He suggested me to read SAI SATAVN MANJRI daily. I started reading it in December, 2010 itself. I was continuously praying to BABA JI to help me.
In January, 2011 I had one dream. In Dream, I saw that I went to SAI BABA JI’s temple with my parents. I saw few devotees’ Samadhi there. In my dream I thought that BABA JI always says that He never leaves His devotee alone. That’s why all the devotees are still near to Baba ji, even after His death. That temple was quite different from Shirdi. I went near to BABA JI’s statue and offered two dresses to BABA JI. I told BABA JI that whatever I am today is only because of You and I love You a lot. Then all of sudden BABA JI got alive. I can see real BABA JI there. BABA JI went on the right hand side of His statue and sat there. I told BABA JI that I LOVE YOU very much after hearing this BABA JI smiled. Then I told BABA JI that I got everything because of you. I asked Him whether I can touch Him or not? BABA JI smiled. I touched my hand on the right cheek of BABA JI. I was thinking that BABA JI has long face like He has in His pictures. Then I told Him that I don’t want to live now and want to die. He said NO. Then I asked BABA JI when will I get married? BABA JI told me that now I have to go. I told Him that I don’t have enough money to go. After hearing this BABA JI went on the left side and started writing something. After He finished writing, He came back on the right hand side again and told me that I have written for your tickets and accommodation. I asked BABA JI whether He will be me there with me or not? He again smiled and then He got disappeared. In the morning, I woke up. I was thinking whether it was real dream or not. I kept thinking about the dream for 2-3 days and I assumed that it was not true dream.
On Sunday, Hetal JI posted another one devotee experience on her blog. In that experience devotee mentioned that she has seen BABA JI alive in the temple. So, I got the assurance that my dream was true. I was waiting for this dream to come true.
In first week of April, the situations got worst and one day I went to BABA JI’s temple on Thursday and I cried a lot and asked BABA JI that how anyone can say bad things to me if BABA JI is with me. I told BABA JI that now I am fed up with all these things and couldn’t live any more. I have stopped talking with everyone. After two days, my managers came to INDIA from UK. I forgot to tell you that I am working as software engineer in India. I had meeting with my boss on next Friday and they told me that now I need to go to Australia and UK. I didn’t have visas for these two countries. They told me to apply the visas as soon as possible. They said that I need to go to Australia in June, 2011 and UK in July, 2011.
Finally BABA JI words came true. I applied for Visas and got both visas. Even though, I was not sure whether I will get the visas or not. But these things were planned by BABA JI, so there was no reason for rejection. I went to Australia in July, 2011 and in the same month I went to UK. I didn’t have digital camera so I requested BABA JI to arrange one camera for me and I promised BABA JI that I will go to BABA JI’s temples in Australia and UK and take BABA JI’s pictures there and will share with everyone. BABA JI arranged the money and I bought new camera. I went to Australia and wanted to go to BABA JI’s temple. I met one Indian in the hotel where I stayed and asked about BABA Ji’s temple. He said that he will book cab for me to go to BABA JI’s temple in the morning.
Next Day on Sunday, I went to BABA JI’s temple and had very nice Darshan of BABA JI and came back to the office after temple. All the things went fine in Australia and I came back to India. After one week, I went to UK. I had some financial problems in UK. But with BABA JI’s grace everything went smooth and I got helped with my office. I went to SAI BABA JI’s temple in UK too. I wanted to attend BABA JI’s Aarti in UK temple and with BABA JI’s grace I attended the Aarti there. It was really blissful experience. Everything went smooth in UK too. I was really feeling that everything was organized by BABA JI there.
I came back to India in August. But after coming back here, I couldn’t write my experience. May be BABA JI has planned today’s date for writing this experience. I am also attaching SAI BABA JI’s temple pictures which I have clicked in Australia and UK. Kindly post these pictures along with my experience. I will be thankful to you.
I also want to share one recent experience. I always used to think that BABA JI gave 9 coins to LAXMI JI. But I am not qualified even for one coin as I do not have faith and patience and even I couldn’t follow the path which BABA JI has shown us. But I was wrong. My company gave new phone to me whose sum of cost is 9 and I got the phone on 27th September that means again 2+7=9 and 9th month. That means BABA JI still consider me as His daughter and love me.
I wish that BABA JI always shower His love on me as He does. I am sorry for this lengthy post. I hope to share my recent experience with all of again.
JAI SAI RAM,
BABA JI’s daughter
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