Anonymous Devotee from NZ says: Dear Hetal ji, Thanks for this lovely blog, which always gives me more confident and courage. Herewith, I am sharing one of my recent experiences. I want to call myself SAI DAUGHTER (I want to remain anonymous please, so please don’t display my name or email ID). Sorry for the long story, since I don’t want to miss anything. I am sure this will give some confident and courage to other devotees (who are waiting for Baba’s grace for long time to fulfill their wishes). Remember, Baba knows what is good for us and He knows what the best time to fulfill the wishes is. So please keep faith in Him and keep praying our beloved Baba. Baba, please forgive me if I miss anything here or make any mistakes in narrating this experience. Hetal ji, if possible, I humbly request you to display the photo which I have attached with this experience. This is my favorite photo of Baba.
I came to know about Baba when I was in my 11th standard. I shared that experience in this blog earlier. In this story, I am going to narrate the recent experience which gave me strong faith in our beloved Baba.
I am a computer engineer living in Overseas with my husband and my two kids. I worked in the research institute as Senior Research Officer and started to do my PHD with that institute as well. Last year (2010), I was supposed to finish my PHD. At that time, I was really busy with one of a commercial project. So I kept postponing on doing PHD. Since I was a paid employee, I believed that my first responsibility was to finish the project. My supervisor (he was my boss too) was more keen on project than my PHD and which really made me to lose interest in doing PHD. When all other PHD students worked hard, I was really busy doing the commercial project. I also adapted an attitude to give up PHD.
Suddenly, our team had some problem with my supervisor (due to the payment issue), I argued with him a lot. I also felt like he was using the entire students (Not me, since I was a paid employee that time) to do work for him free. This was like he was misusing all our talents to expose his name in the industry. Even my work was the main part in the commercial project; he always mentioned to others that I was only working under his instruction. Then I made a very bold decision to leave from the commercial project and I told him that too. He wasn’t that upset that time. If the project succeeds, legally, he only needs to pay me the share because I was with him for more than 4 years. Since it was my decision to leave the project, he doesn’t need to give me any shares. Also, he believed that since project was nearly to end, other team members are able to handle the rest of it without me. So he said I can leave the job after my fixed term contract finishes (July 2010). I was so upset. I felt like somebody used me and threw me out. Still I couldn’t find the words to describe my feelings at that time. Only hope, which I had that time, was our beloved Baba.
Even though I was a Baba’s devotee that time, I didn’t pray Him daily. After that incident, I was very much move into Baba. I asked Baba to give me a job and give me courage to finish my PHD. While I was applying for jobs, I was working very hard to finish my thesis. Since our supervisor never let us publishes any articles before, writing a thesis was a nightmare for me. All my efforts in writing thesis were thrown to rubbish by my supervisor. He didn’t even read my thesis, but he said all my writing was rubbish. Even he didn’t let me even to include my implementation part in my thesis due to the commercialization. He focused only on the success of the commercial project. I was really in pain and didn’t know what to do.
At that heart breaking time, I came to visit this blog daily. From this blog, I came to know about Shri Sai Satcharitra and I did the 7 day reading to fulfill my wishes (job and PHD). I had an interview with one of the biggest IT company while I was reading Shri Sai Satcharitra (my 7th day of reading). I was really thrilled about that and did the interview on next day, which was Thursday. On Friday, I received a call from the manager, who did the interview. I was so happy, since normally they call only if you are selected for the job. However, the manager told me that I was really good, but unfortunately the other candidate had been selected for that particular role. Since I was very close to that candidate, the manger wanted to thank me and to wish me. I was so disappointed and didn’t know what to do next. After that I had few interviews with no positive results. I was so upset, since both of wishes were not moving further. I kept reading Shri Sai Satcharitra, but no luck at all. I remembered that I read the whole book in one day too, believing some miracle would happen.
Around August/September 2010, I started 9 Thursday vrat with full faith and devotion. Every Thursday, I started to visit Sai Mandir near my place (30 minutes drive from my home). While I was doing vrat, I have seen some changes in my work place. One important team member left from the commercial project and went back to her own country. Since I was the only one who knows about the whole project (He hardly knows the programming details), this forced my supervisor to come back to me. He started to change his attitude towards me and started helping me with my thesis writing. That time, I visited Sai question and answer site and I asked Baba, when I can get a job. Baba said “I will get success in 48 days”. I had an interview call from a small IT company and 48th day I had an interview with that company. I read Sai Prerana before the interview (11 chapters Sai Prerana) and did the interview well. They offered me a position straight away with good package, however, due to my PHD, I couldn’t work full time. I told that to them, but the company really needed someone who can commit fulltime. So I didn’t get that job. However, even though I didn’t get that job, it gave me full faith in our beloved Baba. I prayed Him whole heartily and cried in front of Him.
I focused on my thesis and started to look for contract jobs. I didn’t get any contract jobs either. So I nearly finished the whole chapters and handed over to my supervisor. Since it was a Christmas period, I went back to home with my family. When I returned back (end of January 2011), I found my supervisor didn’t do any work on my thesis. I was so upset. I asked Baba why? No answers. I desperately need a job now, since paying mortgage with one salary is nightmare. So I have started applying for jobs. But my husband got a very good contract job (very high paid one for two months), so he had decided to take that one. It was in another city. He joined that job and decided to take few months off from his current job. At that time, I did Shri Sai Satcharitra reading again, but no luck at all.
Meantime, my supervisor left on one month leave, so my thesis was on hold as well.
In April 2011, one of my friends (she is a Jesus believer) told me that I could ask a question to Baba in meditation. So I asked Baba when will I get a job and I meditated. I heard a voice (I really heard a voice – it was really strange), which was 4th of June 2011. I was bit upset, since it was too late for me. My husband returned back from the other city and my supervisor was also back. It was in middle of May 2011. My husband still had two weeks off, so I was working in the University on my thesis, while my husband looked after our kids. I asked Baba again (through question and answer site), Baba said “You have 14 days, use this very time to complete your task”. I was so shocked because my husband got 14 days leave; it exactly matched with Baba’s answer. So I focused only on my thesis and completed all the chapters according to my supervisor’s satisfaction. Final draft was agreed by supervisor on 3rd of June, which matched with the date heard on meditation (4th June). However, I didn’t get any job by that date, but finished my thesis by that date. So I am happy.
From this story, you know how Baba handled my situation. He didn’t give me job as requested by me. Now I know why Baba didn’t do that as per my wish. If I got a job that time, I am sure I would have left my PHD. At the same time, Baba kept me moving by giving me interviews and giving me jobs which I couldn’t accept. Our beloved Baba knows what is good for us and He knows when to give what to His children. Baba, I love you swami. Now, I have submitted my thesis for examination and am feeling very relax. Moreover, because of Baba, my spiritual journey has already started and I am more into that now.
Now, I am ready to look for jobs again. Baba answered me that, “I will pass my exam and get a good job and succeed”. Remember, I still have to do the oral examination for PHD. Baba’s answers always matches with my circumstances. So I have full faith in Baba and believe that Baba will give me an ideal job. Baba, please help me to succeed in my career life and in my family life.
Om Sai Ram
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