Anonymous Devotee from USA says: Dear Hetal, Thank you for creating this blog. It gives immense pleasure to read devotees experiences here. Here, I am writing my experience with Shirdi Sai Baba.
I came across Shirdi Sai Baba while casually browsing on the internet. I read devotees experiences and got to know about Shri Sai Satcharitra. I started reading it just like a story book without giving much thought to it. But I was somehow attracted to Sai. I watched Sai movies and serial on internet. I felt like visiting Shirdi Sai temple here in USA. But unfortunately there are no Sai temples here nearby where we live. I had few small experiences on Thursdays. I was delighted and thought that Sai is real God and has accepted me. So I planned to visit Sai temple with my husband. We drove more than two hours, but unfortunately the temple was closed. I had read that Baba will call you only, if He wants to. So I thought that Baba did not want me to visit Him. Then, we left but to my surprise He made us visit Shri Nath ji temple on our way unexpectedly.
My parents and my brother are facing problems. To tell the truth, there was never much peace in my family. My brother does not love his wife and he has many other problems too which I cannot disclose here. So his marriage was bad. I asked my mom to pray to Sai and have faith in Him. Only He could look after my brother and wife. Accordingly she started visiting Sai temple on Thursdays. But I did not find any instant improvements there.
Anyways, few days passed and I still was praying to Sai. I live in USA and it makes me feel guilty that I am not able to look after my parents and my brother and his wife. So I requested Sai to look after them. I said that it is Your responsibility to take care of them. Then during a weekend my husband wished to visit Pittsburg Shri Venkateshwara temple. There is a Sai temple too. We visited both the temples. But somehow I did not have a great feeling in Sai temple, because there was a picture of some other person next to Baba's Statue. I don’t want to disclose that person’s name, whose picture was worshiped there as others who believe in him would be offended. But I just don’t believe in that person, because I have seen the proof too that he is a fraud. But I really don’t want to comment. I started having doubts about our Sai after that. I thought how He can be a God, since He was only a human being and may be he was mad too, because He had mood swings too and had erratic behavior according to few books that I went through. My apologies for that. Moreover in His temple here, they are publicizing about other fraud person. People who say have so called "experiences" just have co incidents or they are just imaginations of their mind. There is another reason to my disbelief because my husband and in laws don’t believe in Him too.
I had a neutral stand towards Him from then on and almost forgot about Him. I started thinking maybe there is no God at all in this world. I was thinking whom should I go to when I need someone because there is no so called "God". And in this world there are so many fraud people who just cheat people in the name of spirituality for billions of rupees.
Then next Thursday morning, I had a dream. I entered in a temple with someone (a friend of mine who I don’t remember). There was a Maharashtrian petite woman wearing a green sari sitting in front of Gods Statue. As soon as she saw us, she welcomed us smilingly. She said that she was waiting for us. Meanwhile, I was wondering where to keep my handbag, before taking Darshan wondering if someone would steal it if we keep it at the corner. To my disbelief that beautiful lady read my thoughts and said that you can keep that bag anywhere in this temple and no one will even touch it. So I was relieved and left my handbag there and went to have Darshan of God. But it turned out to be Shirdi Sai Baba's Statue. She performed Arti and also gave us some sweet Prasad to eat. Then I realized that I should give ten coins as Dakshina and so walked back to get coins from my handbag. But I was disheartened that I found only three coins and not ten in my purse. Then I thought I shall give Dakshina whatever I have and went back near Baba’s Statue. That lady had gone and there was no Baba Statue. Instead there was somewhat an old man in orange robe. I thought He was Shirdi Sai Baba. His face was not clear and He was not wearing head scarf. But He had calm face. He asked me "Who will you believe in if you don’t believe in me. You do not have anyone to trust. So have trust in me or else you may go mad thinking". Then I gave Him those three coins. But He took only two coins and gave me one back. Then my brother came from somewhere and was yelling at me that it was getting late and we had to go back home. My mom and my sister in law too came and started hurrying me up. I tried to explain them that Baba had just come in person and told them whatever He said. They did not believe in me and said it is not possible to see Baba and it was just my imagination. No one believed that there is Baba. So I went back with them. I woke up and that was the end of my dream.
The next day, I just thought it was a dream and my imagination and did not give much thought to it. A week passed and the next Thursday, I casually called up my parents and I received the news that brother and his wife had left to Shirdi with his friend who was newly married. I was surprised on hearing this as it is very difficult to convince my brother to visit any temple. Moreover I had never mentioned anything about Shirdi Sai to him and neither my mom did. Then I started to realize that may be this is Sai Leela. He has accepted to look after my family in my absence. His dream made sense now. He wanted to convince that even if people around me don’t believe in Him, I should trust Him completely. And the two coins that He took meant 'Shraddha' and 'Saburi'. From then on, I have started trusting Sai. I hope to perform His Vrat, if He permits me to. Om Sai Ram.
This is too long email and I apologize for that. I would be glad if this is posted on your site and I would appreciate any comment on my experience. Also if someone can interpret my dream and explain to me would be appreciated.
Jai Sai Ram
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